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Pineapple On Pizza?!

"Whoa, what the fuck do you think you are doing?!" I yell and wave Trent away. We are currently making homemade pizzas for our dinner and he just overstepped the rule of pizzas, pineapple.

"Putting pineapple on pizza, what's wrong with that?" Trent tries to defend himself and I just shake my head seriously disappointed.

"Babe, everything is wrong with that. Pineapple is a fruit, it don't belong on pizza."

"Ah, but tomato is a fruit and that's the main base to a pizza."

"I am telling you now that what you were about to do then, was not okay and never ever believe me." I begin to finish off the toppings and I can sense Trent's frustration from here.

"Baby, you are talking bullshit."

"No I ain't, pineapple on pizza is absolutely fucking rank, Trent, nothing will ever change my mind. Pineapple don't belong on pizza and that is final." I shake my head in disgust and place the now-ready pizza into the oven.

"You, my girl, are wrong in the head." He kisses the side of my head and begins to walk out of the kitchen.

"Are you sure that it ain't the other way around?" I call after him and set a timer on the oven. Trent hasn't got training until later in the day because we had a late game yesterday.

I follow him into the living room and he pulls me into a cuddle on the sofa beginning to stroke my blond hair with his fingers gently and soothingly. Warmth tingles through me happily and I feel love for this boy, love that I have never felt before even with Adam. What I have with Trent is something different and somewhat more special than what I have ever experienced before.

Nothing will ever change my feelings or thoughts for Trent Alexander-Arnold, he is my world and will be for the rest of my life.

"Babes, what was he like?" The question takes me aback for a second and my mind fills with now-distant memories of my past boyfriend.

"He were a good boy, our Adam, would never hurt a fly. He would like you, you two would have got along like a house on fire." I pick a bit of hair from my adidas leggings and look down to the floor attempting not to get emotional. Silence settles between us and I wipe my eyes with my sleeve.

"Hey, baby, I didn't mean to make you upset, I'm sorry." Trent's arms wrap tightly around me and I bury my head into his chest gripping onto him as if I am scared that he is going to disappear.

"Don't go anywhere, Trent."

"I ain't going nowhere, babes, you need me and I need you." He presses his lips against the top of my head and wraps his arms tighter around my waist.

"You, Arnold, are all I need." I also hug him tighter as we await for the alarm to the oven to go off signalling our pizzas are ready.

* * *

Eight months. That is how long since the day he had to depart.

I drive up to the cemetery where he is buried to pay him a visit and lay him some flowers. It's now pretty cold with it being the third day of November.

I kneel down not caring whether or not the grass causes my jeans to become damp. "Hi, Adam," I smile through the sadness that is building up inside of me. "I know that it has been quite some time now, but I haven't forgot about ya, mate, never. I miss you more now and everyday I am reminded of you and the memories I have of you never fail to bring a smile to my face.

"Trent. I told you about him the last time I were here, the extremely gorgeous Liverpool footballer, well...I have something to admit about me and him. We have decided to be more than friends. I am sorry for betraying you and I am sorry if this hurts you seeing me with someone other than you, but...I've realised now that I will always love you, Adam, always. I may now be with someone else but nothing can ever change the way I felt about you and the way I still feel about you. You would have liked, Trent, a lot, and he would have liked you. Yeah, the guy can be a bit of a complainer and is one to moan when he loses to me at FIFA; he's the most wonderful boy in the world and I am happy. The happiest I have been in a long time and I want you to know that I couldn't be more happier with how life is going for me and Trent is my main focus in life.

"Like I said though, Adam Singleton, I will never forget you. I mean, how could I forget you? The first love of my life, my whole world but you were so cruelly taken away from me, at such short notice as well."

My mind flashes back to the day he told me that he and me only had little time left and how his tumour isn't going to go away. How it will eventually kill him.

I hold his hand as we walk along the riverbank, I stare up at Adam and admire the way his face glows within the pretty moonlight; even from here, however, I can see the faint bags under his eyes and the way something isn't quite right within the guy. We sit upon a bench and I gaze upon the smooth water of the river and then up at the twinkling stars in the night sky.

We haven't spoken much the whole night and I know that there is something up. "You know I love you, Natalie." Adam takes my hands in his and faces me with his blue eyes and I look up at with confusion.

"Of course I do, Ads, I love you too and I'll never love anyone other than you. What's going on, you're scaring me?" I laugh nervously and my boyfriend averts my gaze clearly upset about something.

"The seizure I had, ya know the one that..." Adam chokes on his words and I can  feel the tears spring to my eyes. "I have to tell you why it happened..." He lets go of my hands and stands up obviously trying to hide the fact that he is breaking down.

"I know why." I mumble and Adam turns round to face me with surprise across his face.

"You do, how?"

"Your mum told me...she told...you have...cancer." I am really trying to hold back the tears that threaten to spill down my cheeks and Adam shakes his head as a tear of his own drops down.

"That isn't just it, it's not...it's not..." He stops speaking and I stand up placing my hand on his bony shoulder.

"What you mean, there's more?" A tear rolls down my cheek and my breathing becomes heavier from confusion and slight shock.

"No, the tumour, in my brain," He points to his head and looks me straight in the eyes. "It's too advanced."

The news hits me like a bullet and I still find myself so confused. "No, no. They must have got that wrong, Adam, they must be able to do something. I mean you hear about it all the time don't ya, doctors getting it wrong and..."

"Natalie, listen to yourself, how can they have got it wrong? There is nothing more they can do for me." Adam folds his arms and sniffs looking out to the lake.

"But...that means that you're...no." I cover my face and I choke on my tears finding it extremely difficult to breath from the shock of this news.

He pulls me into him and I hold onto him tightly shaking with sadness knowing that from this moment my life is never gonna be the same.

Tears are now flooding down my cheeks and I stare through my blurred vision at his name engraved within the stone. "I mean look at me, Adam, it's been eight months already and you still have me wrapped around your finger. I miss you so much and it hurts so much that you're gone. Which is why me and Trent are together, he loves me and I love him. He helps soothe the pain of losing you and he makes me smile. Anyway, I'd best be off now. Kyle is expecting me at the track and I am already late. I love you, Ads, don't you ever forget that just like I will never forget you." I stand up and stumble away still sobbing from the heart break that is still here within me.

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Hi guys,

What are your thoughts about pineapple and pizza? Do they go together or should pineapple have never been put upon the food?

See you next week,

Daisy xxx