You Need Me

I'm Back

"Are you sure you're gonna be good out there?" Kyle questions and places his hands onto my shoulders not taking his eyes away from mine.

"I'm gonna be fine, a lot better than I am currently in fact. Also couldn't thank you enough for getting my baby all fixed up. I've got the money for it in my bag..."

"No, don't you try and pay for it because I didn't pay for it out of my own pocket. Everyone who comes to the track donated money towards the repairs and we raised five hundred grand all together."

"FIVE HUNDRED! Jesus Christ! How?"

"Well...it doesn't take much to get at least a pound from everyone who came to see the races in the past couple of months and some even donated ten pound a time. Everything was put towards the repairs and the rest was given towards local charities."

I am gobsmacked to say the least and I am stumped for words. "Fucking hell," Is all I manage to say. "You, Kyle, are one miracle worker." I wrap my arms around him and he doesn't hesitate to return the friendly hug.

"I wouldn't say that, now if you don't feel comfortable at anytime when you are out there just stop the car and I'll be out as quick as I can. I promised your fiancé that I would look after you so please don't do anything that could get my arse whooped, kid. Helmet and all protection gear on, no excuses." He leaves me to set myself up in the garage and I grab my helmet from the rack.

The keys to my car are in the pocket to my driving suit and I get them out to unlock the doors. As I start up the engine the familiar noise buzzes in my ears and it rumbles beneath my feet. A small smile plays upon my lips and I slip my helmet over my head before flipping the visor down and pulling out onto the track. "I am home baby." The small smile widens into a grin and my hands grip at the steering wheel as I begin slowly driving down the track.

I steadily pick up speed as I get used to being back in the car again but my happiness is obliterated in front of me as the car hits a pot hole and my heart misses a beat. I slam my foot down on the brakes and I swear loudly.

My heart is caught in my throat and I feel as if I am going to throw up. I rip my seatbelt off of me and shove open the door. "Fuck!" I scream and yank my helmet from my head chucking it onto the ground with frustration.

I sit down onto the floor and grasp my head in my hands as flashbacks from the night I crashed come back to me. My heart is still thumping uncontrollably and I feel a wave of nausea flush through me.

Footsteps can be heard and someone sits beside me. "Can't say that I weren't expecting this." It's Kyle and his hand goes onto my back.

"I can't..." I shake my head and my voice trails off.

"You can't what? Drive? Well, that's bullshit, Natalie, because you can drive like no one I have seen before."

"No, I can't do this. I thought that I were ready to come back but look at me, I am a mess." I let out a shaky breath as I lift my head up trying to hold back the tears that threaten to spill.

"What's this? Whatever it is I am sure that you can do it because you've been able to do it before." Kyle removes his hand from my back and puts it on my knee.

"I hit a bump in the road and I just panicked. I panicked because I don't want it to happen again, I don't want to hurt my baby, I don't want Trent to get the phone call and have to go through the stress that he went through when it happened...I don't want that." I shake my head and attempt to maintain steady breaths.

"Of course you don't and you won't ever have that."

"You don't know that..."

"I do, because now that it has happened, you will be careful and the chances of it ever happening like the way it did before are almost zero."

I don't say anything after he says that I just look out towards the stands and remember when they were full of crowds all cheering and screaming my name as I race about this track. "But what happens if..."

"No, that's enough of the if's now, Miss Henderson, you are the best driver round these parts and I know these next couple of steps are gonna have bumps in the roads, but when has anything stopped you, Nat, from achieving your dreams? I mean you left school after GCSEs and you ignored your mum so you can achieve your ambition to be the best driver that you could possibly become, which you have achieved. All you have to do now is choose whether we are gonna call it a day or we are gonna get you back into that car and try again."

I ponder on Kyle's words and chew at my nails. Part of me doesn't want me to go anywhere near the car for today but most of me is telling myself that if I don't get my arse into my car then I am gonna regret it. "If I call it a day I won't like my decision and it will just delay the progress I need to make even further. I chose to come back here and I wanted to come back here to get back driving, I ain't gonna let a stupid bump in the road stop me, yeah I am terrified, in fact I am fucking scared of what a small bump in the road could do to me. But, I can't set myself back any more than I already am."

"That's the Natalie Henderson that I know, now don't you go speeding off down that track like a lunatic. I have that fiancé of yours texting me every five minutes asking me if you're okay and if anything does happen, not that it is going to, but if it does I will have Trent coming after me. Anyways, off yous go and I'll be watching from the stands taking some pictures for your social media to let everyone know that you are back."

"I'm back."

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Hey guys,

Sorry that this chapter is shorter than the usual length, hope that you are all doing good and thank you to the support that you guys have given me so far.

Anyways, see yous next week,

Daisy xxx