Team Bonding [reader x spencer x hotch]

27-all that remains

"There was an accident."

Penelope's hand flew to her mouth, "Oh god, are they okay?"

You didn't blink. Standing there, every horrible possibility raced through your mind. Eyes beginning to water, your voice was barely a whisper when you spoke. "What do you mean by an accident?"

"Remember a  few months ago when Hotch and Reid were called to Nevada for that bomber case? Yesterday Jackson Arnold, the unsub, escaped from prison. He wasn't exactly the biggest fan of the FBI being involved in his case. When Strauss heard he was on the loose, she called in Hotch and Reid for information on where he might have been headed. According to her, they had just figured out where he was going when the bomb went off in the office. It's not for certain but it sounds like there weren't many others in the building."

You practically fell back into the closest chair. "According to her? Are they okay?"

She tilted her head trying to find the right words. "She was the first to wake up and that was only a few minutes ago. There are a few others at the hospital now but...they found one man dead upon arrival. They haven't been able to ID him yet." You heard Penelope gasp beside you. A wave of nausea flooded over you and you barely made it to the bathroom before throwing up. You heard Emily following. She grabbed your hair and held it back while trying to reassure you, "Y/n listen to me, I'm sure they're fine. They weren't the only ones in the building, it could've been anyone."

You lifted your head and sobbed, falling into Emily's arms. "But-but what if it was one of them?" Another minute passed of you sitting on the floor with her crying before you spoke again. "Take me to the hospital. Please, I need to see them."

-

The hospital they were at was only 20 minutes away from your apartment, but the drive felt like hours. The whole ride was practically silent.

The entire time you were worrying, wondering which one of them it was. Because the second Emily said someone was dead, everything became crystal clear. There was only one of them you couldn't live without.

-

Before the car even came to a full stop, you were unbuckling your seatbelt and jumping out. The rain fell hard against your face as you ran up to the entrance. By the time you got inside and to the front desk you were soaked. The desk was empty, leaving you to frantically scan the room for any doctors. You saw a man in blue scrubs walk out from a hallway and you ran up to him and grabbed his arm.

"Spencer Reid. Please, is Spencer Reid here? Is he okay?"

"Ma'am I'm going to need you to fill out-"

"Just tell me he's okay? I'm his...I work with him. And Aaron Hotchner, are they both here?"

He waited a moment before looking down at the chart he was holding. "Mr.Reid is in surgery right now. Nothing too complicated, it should be an easy procedure. Aaron Hotchner is in room 239. He was asleep the last I checked but I can take you to see him if you'd like."

You nodded your head and followed him back down the hallway.

-

Tapping your foot, you glanced at the clock again. You had been in Hotch's room for nearly an hour and he hadn't opened his eyes yet. On top of that, Spencer's surgery was supposed to be done in 30 minutes.

You jumped in your seat when you felt a hand on top of yours. Hotch's eyes opened the slightest bit, then shut again. You scooted forward to be leaning right over him, "Aaron?"

The corners of his mouth tilted the smallest amount upwards and his voice was groggy, "Y/n."

Instantly, you shot up out of your chair and bent down to hug him. You whispered into his neck, "Thank god you're okay."

"I'm better now that you're here."

The relief you felt seconds ago was replaced with guilt. All you could do was smile at him.

Over the next 20 minutes, a doctor came in to check up on him and you sat silently in your seat.

"Y/n, what is it?" You were startled out of your thoughts by Hotch's voice. You gulped as he continued, "Something's bothering you."

You nodded. "I-I don't think this is the time or place to talk about it though."

His eyebrows furrowed and then his whole face relaxed as he came to a realization, "It's about Reid, isn't it?"

"Aaron, you know I love you." Your eyes stung and voice cracked, "And I know we can't keep doing this between the three of us." Unable to look at him, your eyes moved down to your shoes, "I didn't mean for it to be him."

All he did was turn his head away from you.

You stood up and placed your hand on his cheek, "I'm so so sorry."

His hand covered yours that was on his cheek. He whispered, "I'll always love you." Tears flowed down your face and you had no idea what to do. "Go check on him. His surgery is probably almost done and I'm fine here."

"Hotch don't-"

"Really I'm fine, just go."

Exiting his room, you bumped into Emily, Derek, and Penelope. You sniffled and wiped your eyes, trying to appear normal. "He's awake." They nodded and it looked like Emily wanted to tell you something but you pushed past them before she got a chance.

-

When you got to his room, the door was only half shut. You knocked, pushing it all the way open. "Spence?"

He sat up in his bed, awake. "Come in."

You hurried over to him and sat on the edge of his bed before wrapping your arms around his neck. "How are you feeling? Are you alright?"

Your arms still around him, he smiled. "Just a little sore but I'll be okay."

You brushed a hand through his hair to push it out of his face. You stared at him for a few seconds, trying to find the right words. "I know this isn't the right time, but I need you to know this now. Earlier when I thought I might have lost you, nothing felt real. I had no idea what to do." As you continued to talk, you got nervous. You didn't know if he would still want you after everything that had happened. "I love you Spencer. And there's nothing I want more than to be with you."

He pulled the back of your head down so that your lips met his. The kiss was slow and warm and it felt like everything was finally the way it was meant to be. "I have never loved anyone the way I love you y/n."

You grabbed his face to kiss him again.

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im not gonna give anything away, but there's probably gonna be around 40 chapters total! i change my mind like everyday though so idk lol. but things aren't over yet