peace of mind

entry 11

Eventually, all of the pain that I was feeling started hurting a little less. I began to see the reasoning behind a lot of things and understood why people did the things they did to me. As unfortunate as it may be, not everyone in our lives are meant to stay in our lives forever. Some people are only there to teach us lessons and help us grow. We will experience so many different things and so many different emotions with each individual person in our lives. In the long run, we learn to love ourselves more and find our worth.

So many people are gonna be very hard to replace. We may even say that they're irreplaceable. It is, however, so important to let people go no matter how badly we don't want to.

When you first begin to feel that pain, it's going to be the kind of hurt that will most likely have you crying yourself to sleep at night. That pain will follow you everywhere for the longest time and you will have flashbacks of all of the memories with that person. You will question if you ever even meant anything to them.

Getting heartbroken is inevitable to happen in your life at least once with someone that you love. Don't have expectations for anyone, that's what gets you hurt the most. We expect people to care about us and love us in the same exact way that we care for them, but that just isn't the reality of it 99.9% of the time as sad as it sounds.

How deeply YOU care for someone will not ever be able to determine how deeply THEY will care for YOU in return. The connections that you have with someone could literally be endless, but that still doesn't mean that they are meant to be your person. That could apply to friendships AND relationships.

The goodbyes aren't even the hardest part of losing someone you care about so strongly. It's the process of trying to learn how to live without that person when you see them moving on so easily, almost as if it's nothing to them to live without you. You can't even blame them though to be honest.

If you really TRULY love someone, then you will only ever want them to be happy in life even if that means that you can't be a part of their life any longer. You just have to learn to respect that and let it go at some point because WITH OR WITHOUT YOU, you want that person to be happy.

We will question ourselves rather or not we really want to let them go and if we would rather be happy with someone who isn't happy with US. It will drive you crazy. We all crave the feeling of being loved, appreciated, and valued. But if you look for it trying to heal yourself of the hole in your life where someone else once was, you won't ever find it. You try to force a connection with literally almost anyone else to fill the void you have because you want nothing more than to feel something genuine with someone again.

I will say, the best kind of love is the kind of connection that finds YOU when you are least expecting it. It takes you by surprise. Having an unexpected connection with someone is one of the most pure feelings in the world because you aren't searching for anything.

Sometimes we find healing in the new people that come into our lives that we meet. They help you get back on your feet a little bit at the time until you become a little bit stronger. You become aware of the fact that love is such a fragile thing, it's pure but it also has the ability to completely ruin you and break you. Therefore, you're more careful as to who you let yourself get close to.