Sanders Sides Oneshots [All Ships]

[19] - LAMP - Anxiety Induced Revelations

Warnings: virgil is anxious™ but whats new, mentions nausea at one point, mentions dizziness, slight self deprecation

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Virgil didn't know how he had finally managed to force himself to do this. But somehow he had coaxed Roman, Logan, and Patton to sit on the couch, and now they were waiting for him to speak and let them know why he had dragged them away from whatever thing they'd been doing that was probably more important than listening to Virgil confess his stupid feelings.

He wouldn't say it was courage or optimism about the other sides reciprocating his feelings that had brought him here, more like weeks of hiding his feelings and panicking about it had brought Virgil to the point where he had to tell them so he wouldn't drive himself absolutely insane with anxiety and worry.

No, he had to get this out with so that they could all reject him and then he could hide away and finally get over his feelings when he knew he had no chance with them while they hopefully wouldn't be too uncomfortable around Virgil afterwards.

He had heard that it was easier to get over someone after actually getting rejected, then his brain might not keep hoping he had a change with them (which he didn't even think in the first place, but he was willing to try anything). Virgil had decided this was what he had to do.

He paced slightly, feeling the other's eyes on him and he tried his very best to remember what he had spent days deciding to say. He stopped, staring at his hands which were fiddling with the zipper of his hoodie, taking a deep breath. He really did not want to be there right now.

"I- I like you, all of you." He finally forced out, trying to take a slow breath but not entirely sure he was really breathing at all. He glanced up quickly.

"Aww, we like you too Vergie!" Patton said with a beaming smile which only made Virgil's dread grow stronger. God, why was this so difficult?

"No- no, not... I mean, I like you all, like- like romantically, and I'm sorry, I just need you all to actually give me a no so I can just get over you and stop panicking about it!" He said, having used his rip-off-the-bandage technique, and he was met with absolute silence.

If anyone were to drop a pin Virgil was sure he would have heard it as clear as he was currently hearing his own heartbeats.

He dared to look up at them, which might have been a mistake, because they all stared at him in shock, making him feel a nauseating wave of anxiety. Why was he so awkward and stupid and annoying, and why, why, had he confessed to them?

Immediate regret. Was this really worth getting over them? Maybe going insane had been a better option to go with.

"I'm sorry, I should have just shut up, you don't need to know my stupid feelings, I shouldn't have told you, I-" He babbled, so very close to stumbling over his words and oh so close to fleeing the room to find somewhere dark and quiet to possibly have an anxiety attack.

Right now he couldn't remember in the least why he had forced himself to do this, because anything would be better than the embarrassment and anxiety he was feeling right now.

But then Patton bounced up from the couch with a huge smile that almost made Virgil feel a little better. Before Virgil knew it Patton had his arms around him tightly and maybe even reassuringly. Virgil was so tense his body ached.

"I love you too, Vergie!" He said, the words loud and clear in the silence and Virgil's brain couldn't quite register the words or their meanings and he stood frozen in Patton's arms until he took a step back.

"I love you, all of you." Patton looked back at the others, still sitting on the couch, as frozen as Virgil.

"Like- like- like, romantically?" Virgil said faintly, not trusting at all that this was really happening or that his brain wasn't making this up or making him misunderstand what Patton meant.