I rush down the hallway to somewhere that I didn't even know myself
I just ran, I ran until my legs couldn't anymore, tears were falling freely down my face, my braid was frizzly mess and I wore a torn up white shirt that still had blood on it and the belt on my pants was undone. I certainly didn't look like a royal. I'm not sure what I was crying for though. For loosing my child or for hurting the man I loved the most. How could I say that to my own husband? Pin the death of our child on him? How could I be so vain, so cold? I was letting the darkness take over my life. It succeeded, it look away a life that hadn't even started yet.
Anger boiled in my veins, as I think about the darkness. If it wasn't for him, I would still have my child.
Grayson. That's what Theo and I were to name our child if it was a son. What was the gender of my baby when they took him/her out of me? I should ask about that.
"Yasmine." I hear a dark voice behind me
I whirl around to be face to face with Jack
"You. You leave me alone." I say coldly
"No." He shrugs
"I order you to."
"Yasmine, all I wanted to say was my condolences about your loss."
What? Jack has never apologized to me about anything to me, about anything.
I nod, not sure what to say to him
"How's Theo?" I dare ask
He looks at me and sadness takes over his eyes
"He's terrible. He hasn't eaten anything. David and I had to force him to drink something."
It's been two days since I lost the baby, and I've been avoiding Theo the entire time. He has come into my chambers multiple times
"Talk to me."
"Darling, look at me. Look at me!"
"Do you still love me?"
Those were some of the things he would say to me. But I kept my mouth shut the entire time. I couldn't bear to look him in the eyes. I was too ashamed. He would slam my doors and break my jewelry to get my attention, but I would just sit on my bed with my head down. He would never touch me though, he was afraid if he did I would blame him for something else.
Of course I still loved Theo, I maybe even loved him more than I had a month ago. I urged to touch his soft skin. To kiss his pink lips. To hold him in my arms. To see him rake his hands through his hair. To sleep in the same bed as he did. To break down in his arms and tell him how utterly sorry I was.
"Go to him." Jack interrupts my thoughts
I raise an eyebrow "Coming from the King's best friend who had assaulted me? I'm honestly surprised."
He looks me dead in the eyes "I never assaulted you."
I back away as he comes closer to me
"Is that what you thought I was doing to you? Assaulting you?" He laughs "You wanted it just as bad as I did."
I shake my head "No Jack, that's where you're wrong."
He rolls his eyes, and smiles
"I love you, hell I've never loved anyone. But, I love you and I know that you love Theo, so go to him."
"What should I say? What should I do?" I say, completely ignoring the fact that Jack confessed his love for me
He chuckles lightly "Tell him that you didn't mean what you said or did. Touch him, tell him that you love him."
I nod quickly and hug Jack quickly and run to my room
I take a quick bath, I leave my curls down my back and get dressed in a yellow dress with golden crystals on them. I put on black heels and make my way up to Theo's room.
I knock on the door, lightly, not too hard.
"Come in." I hear his raspy voice from the other side of the door
I push open the pure white doors, with gold encrusted on the edges
There he was, laying down on his enormous bed, the covers were on his body mid-way so I could see his bear chest
His eyes were closed as I came closer to him, I sat down on his bed and touched his cheek
His eyes fluttered open and he sat up quickly
"Yasmine, what are you doing here?" He rubs his eyes
He was adorable.
"I missed you, that's why I'm here." I admit
"I thought you hated me." He stands and puts on a clean white shirt
"You know I could never hate you." I stand with him
"Oh yeah? You made it pretty clear two days ago." His words are harsh but I deserve it
"Theo, I'm sorry." I say
"DON'T YOU THINK IT HURT ME TOO? THAT MY CHILD HAD GONE? DON'T YOU THINK IT KILLED ME TO HEAR MY WIFE, THE ONLY PERSON I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR SAY THAT I KILLED MY OWN CHILD?!" He screams, his cheeks becoming red
Tears fall from my eyes so I turn my head to the right
He comes up to me and grabs my waist and slaps me across the face
"HOW DARE YOU IGNORE ME WHEN I CAME TO YOU!" He shouts
I almost fall from the slap but his grip holds me
"Theo please-"
He slaps me again
I gasp leaves my mouth
He shakes me and starts yelling "I CAN'T SLEEP WITHOUT YOU. I CAN'T EAT WITHOUT YOU. I CAN'T BREATHE WITHOUT YOU!"
I stay quiet and taste my salty tears as they come into my mouth
"You hurt me so bad that day Yasmine." He confesses
I sniffle "I know Theo, I know. But it wasn't your fault. I take it all back, what I said, I was so wrong. I never hated you, I hated myself for falling. I'm so sorry."
He stays quiet, but keeps eye contact with me
I brush my fingertips accross his jawline
"I forgive you my love." He speaks
"No, don't forgive me."
"What?"
"What I did was unforgivable." I say in a strong tone
"No Yasmine, you only said it out of anger. I forgive you my darling."
"I love you so much Theo." I bury my face in his neck
He kisses my neck and rakes a hand through my hair
"I love you so much more, you have no idea."
"What are we going to do?" I ask hopefully
"We'll try again. That's what royals do when they hit a stick in the road, they don't just lay there stranded. They get back up and keep going."
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Reign
Romance"Of all creatures that breathe and move upon the earth, nothing is bred that is weaker than man." ― Homer," The Odyssey" (A/N) this story is sort of like the show "reign" but it's very different I promise :) enjoy!
