Masochistic Sonder | 𝐻𝒮 | Harry Styles

Chapter Twenty: Feeling Epic

Chapter Twenty: "Feeling Epic"

I SLIGHTLY KNELT AND WILLIAM'S eyes shifted on me again, his grip around my waist loosened, all his attention was on me.

I looked down, pointing my eyes in his, I thought twice about what I wanted to say and while my hands wrapped around his face I whispered: "William, I think I know how to to make you feel lost, in the moment, you and I are going to get so lost well never want to be found again."

I quickly wiped his tears away with my thumbs and he blinked a few times, the a confused look crippled up on his face.

I dragged him outside while holding his hand in mine, we walked outside, my heel made a click-clack sound against the tiles.
With my other hand, I wore my other heel and often I would stumble but William held my weight without questioning: why didn't I wear both of my heels before stepping outside!

I stopped once the heel was completely on my foot, I drop my foot to the ground and turned towards William with a big smile on my lips as I loosened my arm around his, but still held my hand in his, that didn't let go.

"What?" he asked.

"You're still holding my hand."

He looked down to our fingers intertwined: for more support while I was wearing my heel and he shook my hand off, I threw him a dirty look but I knew he was just embarrassed, I couldn't blame him he had just cried his eyes out in front of me and I had just seen him dring his most vulnerable moment.

"Scream."

"You want me to?" He grinned.
When I try to tell him to shout his lips come part and he lets out a loud outcry, deep down I sense that that wasn't real, it didn't feel like it was thrown up from deep within him.

William looked back at me, searching for an actual approval to yell one more time again.

"There's nobody, we're literally in the middle of nowhere, scream as loud as you want."

He looked away, letting out a loud yell once more and I joined right after him.

Both our outcries slowly faded away and the only sound that was left was our heavy breathing.
"How did that feel?" I sounded excited, I never felt that type of way, adrenaline was rushing through my veins.

"Epic!"

"Epic," I whispered right after, calming down.
I looked towards William one more time before taking off my heels once again and then I lifted my satin dress, without thinking twice I jumped inside the pool in front of us.

Before I could touch the water a pair of strong arms wrapped around my waist gripping tightly, the sound of enormous wings fluttering was something I had never heard before.

I closed my eyes, letting the night breeze caress my face the feeling was so overwhelming, I was flying and that wasn't something that happened every day.

Both William and I fell into the water, I let out a breathless laugh with a large smile on my lips, trying to catch my breath while William looked into my eyes and they glimmered underneath the moonlight.

He took my face in both his hands I held my hands onto his arms not to get drifted far away from him, William's fingers caressed my cheeks and I could feel the cold sensation of his fingertips against my heated skin.

"Aren't you scared of me, Aaliyah?"

There it came again that sensation I had tried to push down along with the others, it came back flooding my chest again and I never realized butterflies could bathe underwater, I knew they were swimming all around inside my chest.

I looked down onto the slowly shifting waters, it relaxed me. As I look back into his eyes I could hear my heart thumping in my ears, ringing loudly.

"Who said I'm scared?"

"The way you look at me might not say it but it's the way your tender body shivers every time I'm steps away from you and you can see my wings."

"What else, what happens to me when you're closer instead?"

"You soothe, I'm not trying to sound selfish but whenever you're near to me, I can't feel you trembling anymore."

That feeling came back rushing like I was about to throw up and I closed my eyes trying to understand where exactly I was; the water would often gently shift me from left to right.
I opened them and took in a deep breath, looking into his eyes confused at how he knew so much about me yet he wasn't a person I perfectly knew.

"It might not be me," he said.
"Maybe you think I'm not real."
"Am I even real right now?"

"Wait, listen to me, William." He turned and looked at me, I tried to keep my head up, my hands would often sink into the skin of his strong arms.
"What do you mean: are you even real right now?" I breathed out nervously with my legs shifting in the water, slowly patting his arms to check if I could still feel him.

"What about your wings, I'm so sorry I forgot, I let you come outside here without thinking twice, without thinking that you were hurting-"

We both looked at each other and right after a few seconds of silence, both sides of our lips curved into smiles and we started laughing, I had never even thought I could laugh that loud or even laugh, it had been way too long I hadn't forced a laugh.

"Let's be serious, are you feeling better?" I asked.

"I don't know." He said, in the rudest possible way I smiled and laid my head on his chest.

"Now I know," he whispered, playing with my hair.
I looked up to him with a more relaxed smile, he leaned forward and so did I, was he about to kiss me? I never kissed anyone before.

"You now know what, William?" Our lips nearly touched I couldn't take my eyes of him, nothin was around us anymore.

The lights turned on in my living room downstairs and I could discern them at the corner of my eye, it must have been the automatic lights.
William leaned even more towards me.

"Guys the living room is there, I'm going to take our host, make yourself at home but not too comfortable, she hates it, I mean she doesn't really like anyone in particular, so don't touch anything you're not meant unless you want to die!"
I knew who that voice belonged to, Bastet, my eyebrows furrowed as I tried to remember when was the last time she had been to my house, did I gave her my spare keys?

"C'mon, come sit here, what happened to the all fun and games version of you?"

"It's gone, now move out of my way!"

"Shut up man, I want to meet the friend, she sounds like that type of person that likes to play hard to her and damn look at this house!"

"Shut your mouth!"
I never heard Bastet shout like that, I questioned if she was serious or just joking, for a moment I thought that was hot.

Her steps grew louder and I smothered me all over Williams' hands as I quickly looked around, William was still looking at me not bothered by whatever was happening.

Where would I hide William?
Why was I even trying to hide William?

"Who's there?" She asked out loud.