Rosé one shot

Irreplaceable pt.2

Rosé POV
It's been three months since she left...

Things haven't been so great lately.

I didn't know that it will be so difficult for me.

I miss her,madly.

I feel so miserable these days,I don't know what's wrong with me and Jung Kook, everything is not the same anymore,like bruh, maybe it's a wrong choice,maybe I should have stayed with Y/N,at least she won't make me feel paranoid over something she does.

With Jung Kook,all I can say is that I am extremely exhausted.Due to the fact that he left me last time,I am always in this tense feeling,I am living under this constant fear that he is going to leave me again.Hence,I broke up with him,I loved him,and maybe I have learnt to love Y/N but I didn't come to realisation that she is the one who holds my heart now,just like what she said,I am too blinded by my feeling for Jung Kook that I ignored my feeling for her.Eventually,I have enough of wondering where is his whereabout and my special feeling for him has faded away as my patient faded away too.

What I am going to do is so stupid,I want to call Y/N.That's just inconsiderate,Y/N probably has her best life out there but I am giving her more stress instead.But I have to do that,she is the only person who I can look for now,she makes me feel safe and she has always been the one who I look for whenever I feel very down.She never says no to me,she never rejects my call and she never answered with 'I am busy'.

Even after we broke up,she still has the kind of impact on me.It makes me feel terrible,so terrible.Why do I still have to bother her when she can finally enjoy out there,without worrying about me?If I know that this is going to happen,I won't even leave her that day.

Phone Conversation
"Hi,"

"Yes?"
It's nice to hear her voice again,the one which coaxed me to sleep.

"I just want to say that I miss you,"

"Did something happen?"
I wondered how did she even know that something is not right,I didn't even tell her what happened yet.

"It's just that...,"
I felt so difficult to open my mouth and expressed how I feel these days,I am so selfish, because in the end,I still have to call her and she has to be the one who comfort me.This will not happen through call if I never left her that day.Actually,this won't even happen.

"It's okay,Rosé,take a deep breathe and tell me what happened,alright?"
She said softly.

"Okay,so,I have been feeling so tense these days,I don't think I am feeling myself anymore, I am so lost after you had gone,"

Can you come back,that's what I want to say initially but no,I didn't.

"What is that supposed to mean?"

"It means that,I think I need you back,"
She then let out a chortle,in a bitter way.

"Rosé,do you hear yourself?I am here for you for sure,no matter what,I can listen to your problems and even give you some advices, except for going back to you,I can't do that I just don't think it's a right thing to do,"

"I know,I am so dumb to even mention that,"
I said guiltily.

"It's okay,you can still call me whenever you want,"
She offered politely.