Our Addiction || Draco Malfoy x Reader

goosebumps

"Why are you here?" I sigh. He seemed taken back by my lack of talking back.

"For our study session of course." He replies with a grin.

"Malfoy. Please." I'm not in the mood for this.

He walks towards me. He's dressed in black sweats but also in a black dress shirt. Almost like he stopped getting dressed for bed to come here.

"Have you ever kissed anyone?" He questions. "I'm sure Blaisey would be happy to hear he was your first. The innocent ones are always the easiest ones after all."

"I'm not easy." That's a lie. "And no, of course he wasn't my first kiss." 

"Then who was?" He twirls his wand around his fingers.

"I would tell you if it was your business. But unfortunately it's not." I collect my things and stand to leave.

Just as I walk past him the same hand that digged into my skin last night grabs me, halting me to a stop.

I scrowl, and don't bother to turn to look at him. "Why is it this year you've decided to get handsy with a mudblood?"

I hate the word but it works. His hand falls limp to his side.

I take another step but this time both of his hands are on my hips holding me from behind. "Follow me."

It felt like slow motion. My hips where he touched me burned, I can still feel his hand prints even though he moved them immediately after I nodded. A chill rolled down my back and my uncovered legs shivered, but it wasn't cold.

Why in the hell did I agree.

"What the fuck, Malfoy. Where are you taking me?" I say trying to sound confidently, but I can only focus on the gripping hand tightening by the second.

"Are you even listening to me?" My voice almost goes out, when he shoots me a deadly look.

My chest raises fast, examining his face. His face flushes and turns away immediately.

The halls were dark only lit by the small light of his wand. His hand was cold. His sleeves were rolled up carelessly, exposing his forearm.

I realize where we are, stairs, to the astronomy tower. It was past curfew now, so I pray the stairs don't creak.

He pushes open the door inches open and slides in not letting me go.

The breeze hits my face. It isn't too cold, no goosebumps this time.

He lets go of my arm and goes to leans against the railing. I follow him.

The moon is full and shining down. You can see the forbidden forest and lake. The same view as when I went up to and cried when it happened.

"Are you cold," he mumbles. I almost jump as he takes me out of my trance of sickening memories.

"No," I mumble, "Its pretty out tonight." But don't turn back to the view. I keep my eyes locked on his face. He hasn't looked at me once yet.

"There's a meteor shower tonight."

He has dark circles over his eyes. His usual prideful eyes look different. As if he actually opened his eyes, I could see raw emotion, but couldn't pick what, sad, tired, stressed, scared even? It's almost like he took off a mask, but only half way.

"Why did you take me here, Draco?"

"I couldn't let anyone see you and I walking into the common room like that. Rumors spread way too fast." His face stays the same.

"You would know, you spread them."

"There is so much you don't know, L/n."

As minutes pass by without his specifying I turn to a wall and slide down. I was growing tired, but couldn't go down by myself. With the fear of getting caught, or with the fear of you know who, being back.

"Do you think this is funny?" He snaps his head to me.

"What?"

"It's disgusting. Kissing Blaise Zabini? I don't even get why he asked you,"

I don't say anything.

He turns back to the rail, "Maybe it's because it's gross seeing you parade around this year, like you aren't what you are."

"Now you don't want to say it? You had no problem saying it yesterday. Or the day before that. Or last year. Or since I was eleven?" My voice is hushed, but loud enough for him to hear. "Why. Am. I here." I demand.

He finally turns his head again to face me. "Get up." He says not looking me in the eyes.

"What?" I say getting up. Even I could hear the sudden fear in my tone.

His eyes are red.

"Don't fucking kiss Blaise again."

"I can kiss whoever I want. So can Blaise." I bite my cheek.

He rolls his eyes.

"Malfoy," I state taking a step away. "Why is it that this year you can't seem to leave me alone? I don't think we've ever spoken to each other as much as we have."

"Can you keep a secret?"

I furrow my brows. What is Draco hiding? And why would I want to be involved? It can't be anything good. If I say yes, and he tells me I can tell Harry.

I take a look at Draco's face. It's daring. It's evil.

"No. No, I can't."

I walk to lean against the wall. I inevitability slide down against it after tens of minutes go by. He stays looking at the stars until I fall asleep.

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Sorry it's been so long since uploading. I haven't had any motivation lately, but someone commented making me laughz.

Tell me what you think you were crying about last time you were in the astronomy tower ( or more like give me ideas ) but yk ———>