Our Addiction || Draco Malfoy x Reader

weak

I felt exhausted when we got back. From the long... weekend all I want to do was lay in my bed and sleep.

I change into shorts and an old T-shirt, and anticipate falling asleep. My blankets covering me, almost swallowing me whole.

But, I didn't fall asleep. I lay there awake, thinking.

What is Draco's angle? He never has noticed me before, besides the constant bullying. All of a sudden this year he won't leave me alone. It doesn't feel right, at all.

I don't blame Harry and Hermione for worrying, (Ron could care less). Blaise had never said a single word to me in years, and now I'm buddy-buddy with him?

When we got to The Three Broomsticks after the, thing, with Draco, he returned back to him cold self. Although I have to admit, it felt nice hanging out with a group of friends; exempt the trio of course.
Even though Draco and Pansy didn't spare me a glance, I still felt, well happier.

Way happier from years before.

It seems like hanging out with all of them might even become normal too. Maybe I'm becoming normal, more accepted.

I sit up, as my mouth became dry. I could really go for some food from house elves right now.

I creek open my door, hoping someone is there (who won't get embarrassed for me talking to them) that might want to risk heading to the kitchens.

A fourth year sits at a table hunched over writing, with two fifth years on a couch reading.

Draco sits at 'his' chair, staring deeply at the fire.

"Why are you up," he says loudly. Not turning his head.

"I can't sleep."

The students look at me, and turn back to Draco. Waiting for a reply; they hang off his every word.

"Go to all your dorms now." He says looking at them.

I turn back to my dorm, waiting to hear the rest of the doors click shut. I open it when I'm sure everyone is gone and sit on a chair next to him. Almost sinking into it.

"Why are you actually up?" He says, still staring at the fire.

"I wanted to see if anyone was up to go the kitchens with me." I stare at him, the orange reflects his face darkly, "Do you, uh, want to go with me?"

"Can you not go by yourself?" He spits, with a harsh tone in his voice.

"I, I don't know... It's dark, that's all."

He rolls his eyes, but gets up grabbing his wand. He starts walking to the door before looking behind him.

Draco pov:

"Well are you coming or what." I almost yell angrily.

She try's not to smile and hurries up, passing me while opening the door. I realize, she almost skips out the door. I bite the inside of my cheek trying not to smile.

Anger flushes over me, I hate her. My smile falls and I follow her.

Her t-shirt is huge on her. Falling down almost halfway to her knees, barely being able to see her small shorts. Her long legs tip toe, through the dark halls almost giggling at her every step.

"Will you just shut up already, you're going to get us caught." I grab her mid step as her warm arms fall briefly touch mine. I suck in a breath.

"Ok," she squeaks, like my touch had the same affect.

We get to the kitchen, where three house elves greet her happily. They look at each other nervously as they notice me.

"Is there anything we get you guys?" A plumb one, croaks smiling widely.

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I wake up bitterly, my silk green sheets call for me as I get out of bed.

I barely got three hours of sleep. Y/n and I hadn't gotten back until 2 am, me basically holding her up and she was falling asleep in the kitchens talking with me and the filthy elves.

Thinking of her sweet whispers in my ear, she had said groggily, sends a weird feeling in my stomach. Anger, mixed with confusion.

I do hate her. She makes me weak, all my life I've fought being weak and the sight of her makes me feel nauseous. Almost sick feeling.

Walking with her in the barely lit hallway, makes me feel angry, because at the time, I never wanted it to end.

But it did, resulting to hatred and anger at her. I wanted her pretty little smile to go away. She ruining everything.

The dark lord expects me to devote my time to him, all of it. Pain runs through my mark.

I drink the potion on my sink, bitterly. It hides my mark. They can't have Dumbledore or anyone risking his plan.

I can't have her look at me in fear any more than she already does.

The mirror I look up at is picturing something I hate. I look tired. My boney face, thin hair, and almost purple eye bags line under my eyes.

I put on a quidditch sweater and finish getting dressed, before gathering my things and heading to breakfast.

Pansy sat in my spot and I beckon for her to move. She does so, and basically climbs on top me as I eat. Y/n is next to Blaise, glancing at me, but laughing at something he says.

"Draco," Pansy wines, "Do you want to study after school?" She rubs her hands on my thighs, moving them higher and higher, making me wince.

"Uh, ya sure."

Blaise used to ask me why I put up with Pansy. To be honest I don't know. She's needy, winey, and annoying. But she knows, about the mark that is.

She has always been like this to me, since first year. Knowing she would do anything for me, is comforting. I know Pansy loves me.

I don't love her.

But as I said earlier, a warm body is a warm body.

Y/n pov:

Pansy was throwing herself at Draco. He let her, but barely acknowledges her.

He said yesterday why he leads her on even though he knows it's wrong is because a warm body is a warm body.

I understand that slightly. I can always tell somethings wrong now a days. He doesn't hold his head as high, and is much quieter. Draco barely bothers to bully people as much.

He keeps her around because she's comforting. She waits on his hand and foot, barely think of her own consequences.

I can tell they have a small connection, no not connection; an understanding.

She holds onto every breath of his. Staring into his soul almost, like he's the only guy in the world.

I almost feel bad.

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This chapter mostly got into Draco's head. He is so confused and feels like it's wrong to feel the way he feels about y/n. Maybe he doesn't want to hurt her, lose her even. Maybe it's all a set up.

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