If she knew...

I'm not giving up I love you! Chapter 11

*time skip 2 months*

Oliver’s POV
“No improvement?”  I ask a little louder than intended. “It’s been 2 months and her vitals haven’t improved?” I ask in a harsh whisper.

“Mr. Queen we are doing all we can but usually at this point we would ask you to take her off life support.” They tell me I shake my head. I was sure she’ll wake up, as long as that monitor is still beeping and connected to Felicity I wasn’t going to give up on her. I believed in her like she believed in me, when we fought Slade.

“She’ll wake up! As long as that monitor has even the slightest beep you’re not cutting her lifeline. She’s going to wake up, you have to believe, she’ll make it through.” I say as tears well up in my eyes. The doctor waljs away and I walk in the room and grasp her hand, the beeping on the monitor was faint but it was there. As long as the slightest hope she will make it was there I wasn’t giving up. I wanted to tell her she was the light to my sun. And that she was the most beautiful woman. But I couldn’t or if I did she wouldn’t hear it.

Barry, Catlin and Cisco had gone to Central City and they were hopeful she will wake up. They said they will keep an eye out for Nyssa, if the face recognition were to pick her up. Barry said he will check in every week at least once a week to make sure I was still sane but sometimes his presence was making my patience wear thin. It wasn’t his fault but it seems as if Nyssa disappeared off the face of the earth. I why didn’t I kill her when I had the chance? Was the question I kept asking myself. If I had Felicity would be here and I could tell her all those things. I was starting to believe the worse, I kept pushing all the thoughts out but they always returned. I was starting to believe that I would never see her blue eyes again. That thought tore away at me for over two months, and every second passed did too. She couldn't leave me here alone as I sat there the sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach was growing. The fear rose to the surface. She was the only thing in my mind. I slowly drifted off to sleep holding Felicity's hand in mine. I had a nightmare that night.

(The nightmare)

I was in the hospital room and was walking to check on Felicity and she was gone I ran around the empty hospital looking around for her. I ran around aimlessly checking every room then I ran to her apartment in the hope thst maybe she was discharged and yet there was no body there. She was gone I ran back to the hospital. I saw a doctor and ran to him.

"How is she doctor?" I ask out of breath. "Where is she?" I ask when he didn't answer my question.

" Ms. Smoak died this morning I'm so sorry." as soon As he said that I fell apart. My heart shattered onto a million pieces that couldn't be put back together again. She was gone, I wad alone in the world ne and my lonely self. I couldn't believe that she was actually gone. I felt empty without her. I was wondering what will happen next now that she was gone but then I would come to the same conclusion. Hang up the hood that killed her. If I never became the hood she will still be here.

I turned to leave and saw her. Her figure. I knee it was my crazy imagination but I wanted to see her I walk to her and apologize for not being there that's when her face turns to a horrified expression. Was that the face she had when Nyssa attacked her? I couldn’t help but wonder. Next thing I know I am being stabbed by a thousand swords and I woke up to Diggle shaking me awake. Apparently it was 12 pm. And doctors needed to run tests. I let go of her hand and kiss her forehead lightly when I felt a light squeeze on my hand. I smiled to myself because I knew it might be my imagination but I knew well that she might actually feel and hear me. That's when I whispered three words into her ear.

“I love you!”