Hunter x Hunter oneshots

||Kurapika x reader|| comfort story

Chapter: 20
Person: Kurapika
Theme: Fluff and angst

TW self harm scars, Anxiety attack, past sexual assault
(Requested) 

I was sitting on the couch,scrolling through my phone trying to enjoy my afternoon.
I come across this video, and this  asshole making cutting jokes. A part of my stomach sinks as I keep watching the video. All I could do is frown and look at myself, my scares and start to cry. As I keep observing all the flash backs start coming back. The nights where I would stay up balling and hyperventilating to the point I almost threw up. All the places my  ex has took advantage of. My family making me feel guilty,feeling like a nuisance.
I start to feel my chest tighten and I have tunnel vision. I start to hyperventilate, grabbing at my chest "i-i c-c-cant b-b-breath!" You say with the breath you had left.
You then quickly grab your phone and called Kurapika.

"Hello?" He asked
"K-kur-a-a" i choked out
"Y/n! Whats wrong?" His voiced filled with worry.
"I n-need y-you h-here!" I cry even more.
"Im on my way I'll be there in 5!" He said and hung up.
I feel dizzy and  started grabbing my hair.
"Stop" I breath out as I rest my head in my hands.
Instead of bettering my breathing is getting worse.
I lay on my back and a burst of emotions came flooding out. An overwhelming amount.
"What do i do?" I cry out
As this flood of unwanted emotional baggage waves over me. I begin to remeber what Killua had told me a while back.

"Remeber if you have a anxiety or panic attack to call Gon,Kurapika,or I then focus on your breathing. In through your nose and out through your mouth."

I beguine to do so, what killua said and focussed on my breathing.

"I can't do this!" I cried of frustration and my breathing got out of control again.
Kurapika walked through the door and threw his things aside running over.
Kurapika pulled me close, my head pressed to his chest and started rubbing circles on my back.
Giving you a kiss on the four head "its okay im here now" he affirmed.
I grabbed onto Kurapika's arm with my hand, as a form of comfort. Laying my head on his chest and cried.
"I-it all j-just h-h-hap-pend" I stumbled upon my words.
"Its okay y/n im here now" he said picking me up bridal style.
"You want a bath?" He asked and you slowly nodded your head "okay stay here. I'll be back" he said say me on the couch. "I'll be by the bathroom if you want to talk then feel free. Or you can wait after" his said warmly.
All I could do is nod.

Kurapika walks out of the room and into the bathroom. He starts the water, waiting for it to warmup, and puts bubbles in the water as well as lightning some candals.
When he was walking out of the bathroom he grabbed a hairtie and walked into the living room,picking me up again and setting me on the side of the bathtub.
"I'm not a baby" I mumbled
"Im going to walk out for a minute so you can get in the bathtub" he smiled lightly "ok" was all I could say and he walked out of the room. As I sit in the water I overhear Kurapika on the phone.
"Sorry killua we can't hangout today"

"Aw why?" Gon asked

"Give me my phone!" Killua yelled

I couldn't help but chuckle

"Anyway but why?" Killua asked

"Y/n is having one of those days" Kurapika said

"Oh i see" the boys say

"Well tell her Gon and I wish her luck"
Killua said

"I will" Kurapika replied

"Did she do what i told her?" Killua asked.

"I think she did because when i got home her breathing was a lot better then it was when we were on the phone."

"Thats good. We're ganna go "

"Bye!" They yelled before hanging up.

You heard a small nock "y/n are you in the bath?" Kurapika asked.

"Yes" you said quietly

"Im coming in" he said opening the door.

When he walked in you were slouched down in the bathtub. "Hey sunshine" Kurapika teased.
Kurapika put my hair up in a ponytail.
"Thank you kura" I quietly thank him.
"Anything to help you out" he smiled.
Kurapika sat beside the bath with you,hand in hand.
Kurapika looked at your sacres and kissed them all.
I was caught so off guard, "are you ashamed of them?" He asks his eyes dimmed. "Of course I am I ruined my body"
"We all accept the love we think we deserve, you just hadn't felt the love you needed yet" he intertwined his fingers with mine.
"I guess I never thought of it that way" I said in thought. "I'm not totally sure that this will happen, but it happens to most. So let me tell you something Y/n" his voice was soft and there wasn't a hint of judgement whatsoever. The flow of his voice was smooth and soft, easy to make one listen. "What's that" I say curious.

"Each scar is a story, so many stories of where you've been and how you've gotten to where you are now. It shows you've survived through you're worst. The worst thing you can ever go through in the world is the war in your head" he tapped my head with his free hand.
"If the scares start to fade, don't think of it negatively, like you didn't do well enough the first time. Think of it as a lesson learned, a debt that had been payed. Think of it as a mistake from back when, and as you grew as a person, you learned enough from your previous mistake and you just didn't know it"

(Genuinely have no idea how to word this, it makes sense in my head  for when I had mine, that's kinda what I told myself. If you don't understand what I'm trying to get at Im apologize )

I smiled

No one has been able to understand like this or even help me try to see it from a better perspective. Behind around him and all the others make me realize I can't always see the world in its worst setting. I see myself growing when I'm with them and I'm eternally grateful. He makes me feel like I'm not just a sad story..

-End

Bc idk how to end things ☝🏽