Enigma

Twenty-six

I decided to talk to my mother about it.

I purposely drove her to work in hopes that I could bump into Raven. My mother expressed her concern recently since she noticed that I was being quite.

I told her that I'll pick her up when her shift ends.

At 10, I picked up my keys and drove to the hospital. I've been wanting to tell her how felt about Raven. But didn't get a chance to.

Parking my car, I saw the bus approaching the bus stop near the hospital.

And there she was.

Always in a sundress when she was visiting. She looked beautiful. She waited patiently as passengers get on the bus one by one until it was her turn.

I watched her get on and take a seat at the back of bus. As she sat, she brought her hair to one side and turned her head out the window. I cannot say it enough, she really looked effortlessly beautiful.

Her eyes roamed out the window until unknowingly her eyes fall onto mine. My heart rate speed up as her green eyes stared into mine. She looked taken a back when she saw me. But she didn't look away.

However, before anything else could happen, the bus moved and quickly pulled away from sight, taking her with it.

I sighed and rested my head on the steering wheel. Trying to compose myself, I opened my door and proceeded towards my mother's floor.

I approached the nurse's station and saw my mother wasn't there. A friend of my mother's saw me and informed me that she'll call my mother for me.

While waiting, I rested my head on the counter. This isn't me. I was so unaware of how I behaved before. I was so foolish to have tricked girls after having my heart broken. Getting my heart broken wasn't an excuse right? I never thought of how people,  especially Raven perceived me.

A hand placed on my shoulder interupted my thoughts.

"Hi mum."  I greeted her. But she didn't greets me back. Instead, she looked at me with concern in her eyes and all of sudden,  stepped forward and hugged me.

I embraced her. I didn't know I need a hug from my mother until now. We didn't say anything for moment. It was just her comforting me.

She pulled away and offered "Coffee?".

I nodded and she guided me to the waiting area. She told me to find a spot while she went and grab some coffee from the nurse's pantry. We used to do this. Every time my father would work late, I would insist on coming here. But it stopped when I went into highschool. I've gotten busier and occupied with school and practice.

She came back and placed a coffee cup infront of me. I slightly touched it, feeling the warmth of it.

"it's Raven,  isn't it?" She asked.

My head perked up at her, thinking how could she figured it out but only to see she had a knowing smile. Mothers right?

"Y-yeah" I answered,  glancing back at the caffeinated drink in my hands.

"She's not doing so good to you know" She said. "Sure, she doesn't talk much. But lately I've been noticing that something was bothering her." She added.

I felt bad after hearing that. I know she must've have thought that I was fooling around when really...

"What happened between you two?" She leaned forward on table and asked. 

And I told her. I told her everything. She listened intently and when I was done,  she placed her hand on mine. She didn't say anything for a while.

"I think what's best is for you to fix what you've done. By any means necessary. Go up to the girls that you've hurt before and apologize for example and when you're done,  go find her." she advised. I nodded, knowing she was right. And as scary as it is to face back my mistakes, I have to do it. I have to do it for me,  and especially for her.

I held her hand back and said "Thanks mum, can I get another hug?"

She nodded and hugged the breath out me.

"I don't want to lose her mum,  I can't lose her" I whispered to her.

Her hand stroked the back of my head gently and said, "You won't".

At the moment, was when I realized.

I love her.

I've fallen inlove with Raven.