Kai's life was close to perfection but due to his inability to hear, the loss of communication became a hindrance to having a normal life. Despite having troubles, he tried his best to cope with his underlying situation. Carrying the disability for...
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Chapter 17
"Everything will be alright."
I'm not sure how many times I assured Mackenzie with that line. At ilang beses ko iyong uulit-ulitin just to make her feel okay. Nakapapanibago na nagbago ang mga kilos at pakikitungo ni Zie. But she tried to move past her situation. Alam kong mabigat na pagsubok ito sa kanya at paulit-ulit ko ring ipinapaalala sa kanya na hindi ko siya iiwanan. If that's the only thing I could say to make her feel okay, I would do it every time. Just like what I said, all over again, I don't want to let her go so I'll make her happy as much as I can.
Zie and I went to see a doctor for them to check her condition. Before we went there, she told me that this was in their genes—her father's side which a lot of his relatives suffered from the underlying condition she's facing right now. I wanna hold her forever, if that means keeping her to my side, gagawin ko 'yon.
During lunch, after we left the hospital, we stopped by a Japanese restaurant. Zie's still quiet. I'm trying to be conversational with her so she won't feel left out. She loves Japanese foods kaya rito ko siya dinala. We ordered and picked what she likes. At least, I got to see her smiling when our food was served.
When I look at her when she takes a bite of her sushi, I notice her eyes glistening from tears. Mabilis naman niya iyong pinunasan and she thought I didn't catch she did that. Nang ibinaba niya ang kamay niya sa table ay inabot ko iyon at pinatong ko ang kamay ko sa kanya.
"Zie..."
She shook her head then pulled her hand from mine. She exquisitely wiped her mouth. "I'm fine... you don't have to worry about a thing. Just like what you said, I will be fine."
"Yes, you will be fine but it's not bad to feel bad at all, Zie."
"I need to go to the bathroom. I'll be back," she excused herself.
"Do you want me to come with you?"
"I can handle myself," she said then she stood on her feet.
Bumagsak ang balikat ko nang panoorin ko siyang nagtungo sa banyo. Napasandal na lamang ako habang binibilang ko ang minuto bago siya bumalik.
Sa totoo lang, ayaw ni Zie ang pumunta sa hospital. She knew the information that'll be shared to her will be worst to what she's expecting. Ayaw niyang malaman ang kahihinatnan niya. She's scared to lose all her hair and be called hairless, the shiny simp head.
She was too harsh of herself thinking about it pero nandito naman ako para pagaanin ang loob niya. Ayokong pabigatin pa ang nararamdaman niya. She doesn't need to push herself to the limit. Malalagpasan naming dalawa 'to. If my disability is a permanent thing, and there's a way I can hear, then she can be treated as well. There's still hope and that's what I keep telling her.
Tatayo na sana ako para puntahan siya sa bathroom dahil nag-aalala ako para sa kanya. Pero saglit lamang ng makita ko siyang pabalik kaya umayos na lang ako sa pagkauupo ko. I know she doesn't want me to worry about it too much pero hindi ko rin maiwasan. I care for her. I love her. She's... my life.
