They Don't Know About Us

Run Away - Chapter 51

[This chapter contains drug abuse]

*SHELBYS POV*

When Louis, got up and Paige followed him into the kitchen I felt like collapsing on the floor. I felt so sick, she was going to tell him wasn't she? I got up and ran up the stairs ignoring the shouts from the others asking if I was okay. I literally felt like I was going to throw up from the nerves and went straight to the bathroom. I couldn't help but cry and get all worked up, what the fuck had I done? I was such a bad person, Louis didn't deserve me, I wouldn't be able to look at him again. I have to leave and go back to law school. I heard someone come in and stayed in my position huddled on the floor. 'Shelby are you okay?' It was Liam. God I didn't need this now. 'No I'm not okay because I am such a bad girlfriend, yanno I tried! I put up with the fan abuse, I almost got killed for him and I go and do that to him.' Liam shook his head and sat down next to me. 'I don't think you understand how perfect you are, Louis doesn't know what he's got.' I lent on his arm and began to calm down. 'She's told louis though, hasn't she?' My breathing speeding up again, I was panicking and that was never good. 'Shelby calm down.' He said getting on his knees in front of me and getting me to breath again. 'What do you want shelby? That's what's important.' He said pulling me up and sitting me on the bed. 'I don't know, I love you Liam but.' He stopped me. 'There you said it that's what matters right.' I shook my head and held my hands up in defence. 'Look, Johnny Depp here, if you love two people at once choose the second one because if you really loved the first one then you wouldn't of fallen in love with the second.' I laughed and lay back down. 'Is that your excuse for cheating on Danielle too?' I said closing my eyes. I felt him lie next to me and wipe away the stray tear on my cheek. At that moment Paige and Louis came into the room.

I heard Paige groan and I turned over and put a pillow over my head. 'Go away.' I didn't want to deal with this now, I couldn't. I heard Liam get off the bed after kissing my head lightly and walked down the stairs. 'Shelby, are you...' Louis stopped what he was saying for some reason and I heard him go downstairs. 'You need to listen Shelby, you need to wake up to what's happening!' Paige said crouching down next to me. 'I don't want to I can't deal with it anymore Paige. Just please leave me alone.' I hid myself beneath the pillows even more. 'You're not safe on your own.' She whispered but I didn't answer. I heard her leave and shut the door behind her. I stayed like that for what seemed like ages, the nausea getting stronger, but I wasn't throwing up, I had no release and I needed some kind of release. It was like I was built up inside and I needed to let it out. I stumbled to the bathroom, trying to find anything. I knew had Chloe self harmed, I used to till Paige stopped me. She was the only reason I did. It helped, there was no blades or anything in the bathroom and I didn't have the time to empty all of my suitcases finding them. I felt like screaming, I needed it to end, I was desperate. I searched through the bathroom, finding my pills for my stomach. I didn't know what would happen if I took too many, I grabbed a handful and swallowed, then a couple of my sleeping pills. I stumbled back over to the bed, praying I'd fall asleep soon. It was my only way out.