Not Over ➝ a.i.

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We all have been sitting her in the waiting room for hours, we kept getting looks since we all looked terrible right now. I handed Lexi to Calum who wasn't soaked like Zayn, Harry, and I were. I was becoming impatient, I wanted to see her, no, I need to see her.

"Addie Taner?" A nurse called out, I don't think I've ever gotten up so fast in my life. I was in front of her in seconds and she looked at me weirdly before looking down at her clipboard.

"Is she okay?" I asked rather forward and desperate.

"She'll be alright, she has major bruisings all around and is taking pain killers to ease it all. She's in room two eighteen." She said, rushing past her i sprinted up the stairs to the second floor and searched for her room. I ran down the hall until I finally found her room, taking a deep breath I turned the handle and walked into her room.

She was hooked up to a lot of stuff and from a distance I noticed all her bruises on her cheeks and jaw. Instantly I felt my heart break at the sight of her here and hurt, because of me. Her eyes fluttered open and she spotted me before a smile appeared across her face. I rushed over to her and hugged her before I kissed the side of her head a million times. Being very gentle I cupped my hands around her cheeks and pressed my lips to hers missing the feeling I got whenever her lips were attached to mine.

"I'm so glad you're alright." I said tucking a strand of her hair behind her ear. "You scared the hell out of me baby, I thought I lost you." I said kissing the tip of her nose.

"I thought I lost you." She said back to me now running her fingers through my hair. "Is it over?" She asked her grip tightening in my hair making me groan.

"Is what over?" I asked confused.

"All of this, is it over?" She asked and all I could do was smile down at her.

"Yes baby, it's all over." I said and she smiled widely before pulling me down as her lips crashed into mine creating the sparks that never got old. I trailed up her sides and she winced so I stopped and pulled away.

"Why'd you pull away?" She asked breathing out deeply. As much as I wanted to make the fuck out with her, I didn't want to hurt her either and now that's what I'm most afraid of.

"I hurt you.." I mumbled as she began to play with my fingers and pout up at me.

"I'm a little sore but I'll be fine Ash." She said trying to reassure me but I wasn't going to make her feel in anymore pain than she already was.

"I know you will, it's just, I won't be." I said running my fingers through my somewhat damp hair.

"What do you mean Ashton?" She asked biting down on her lip. This girl knows how to drive me crazy, I'm telling you.

"I've hurt you enough as it is, I feel like I can't come near you, without hurting you in some way." I frowned as I slumped my shoulders.

She grabbed my hand and pulled me towards her as I leaned down to look at her, realizing there was a chair I grabbed it and sat down while she still had my hands in hers. "Look," she said as she kissed the back of my hand, "You aren't hurting me Ashton." She said with a smile.

"Half the reason you're in here is because of me, baby, don't you know that?" I questioned becoming upset with myself for what I did. "I basically abused you Addie and I can't live with myself knowing I did such a terrible thing to you.." I told her as my jaw clenched from the memory of what happened hours ago.

"Ashton you lost your memory and didn't know any better. Liam told you lies which you believed, you couldn't help that you lost your memory." She said to me and I know what happened, I want to prevent it from happening ever again.

"What if he made me go after Lexi?" I asked and that's when I lost it, I can't even imagine hurting my innocent baby girl because if Liam ever did that, I just can't think about it right now. "I need to go collect myself." I said letting go of her hands and walking towards the door.

"Ashton." She called out, I only turned around and gave her an apologetic look before leaving her room to get some fresh air.

It's late and I know it's raining out but I need to be alone so I can face this on my own. She probably thinks I'm leaving again but she'd be thinking wrong. I made that mistake once and it'll never happen again. I was now on the main floor and began walking out the automatic doors until Michael stood in front of me.

"Where are you going?" He asked crossing his arms over his chest and I groaned.

"Out for a walk." I said walking forward but Michael stood his ground and blocked me off.

"You're going for a walk, in the rain?" He questioned raising his eyebrow at me and I nodded.

"Yup." I answered quickly still trying to get past him but he wasn't having it, "Michael move." I groaned trying to push him.

"Doesn't this feel like déjà vu to you?" Michael asked and I tilted my head to the side not quite understanding his question.

"Huh?"

"Addie in the hospital and you leaving." He said and I realized what he meant, "You are not leaving again Ashton, she needs you and I know damn well you need her too." Michael said.

"Michael, I'm not leaving her again, I just need some fresh air." I explained to him and he looked me in the eyes to make sure I wasn't lying.

"If you don't come back I'll be the first to kick your ass." Michael said before patting my back and walking away, finally allowing me to go outside and get some fresh air.

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awe ash :(

nicole xx