Not Over ➝ a.i.

14

bUT LUKE IN THIS PICTURE... i need to sit down....
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Luke

We all played at least two rounds of two truths and a lie until everyone wanted to watch a movie instead. Harry picked a romantic comedy and made everyone popcorn. I was sat on the floor, it being the only other available spot left I was on my phone doing nothing in particular.

I kept glancing over at Ashton and Addie, making me cringe whenever he kissed her. That should be me with her and not Ashton. I've been here longer then him and when he left I never did, I was always there. Yet Addie gave him another chance when he clearly doesn't deserve it. If she was mine I'd make sure nothing ever hurt her, especially me, which I'd never do.

"Hey Luke," Calum said whispering down from the couch to me, I looked behind my shoulder so he knew I was listening. "You alright, you've hardly talked at all tonight?" Calum asked and I scratched behind my head.

"I'll live somehow." I said turning back around to to be on my phone. Calum placed his hand on my shoulder making me turn back around.

"It's about Ads isn't it?" Calum asked, my silence was enough for him to know that was it.

"I wish they never got together." I said bitterly clenching my fists.

"You don't mean that, Ashton's your pal Luke." Calum said and I shook my head no.

"He's not my pal anymore. He broke her heart Calum, he doesn't deserve another chance, he lost that when he left." I snapped in a whisper so no one else heard, although Michael seemed to of since he leaned in on the other side of the couch.

"Don't be a jealous asshole Luke, Addie is your best friend and you should support her weather you like it or not." Michael said which made my jaw clench. I supported Addie with all my heart but this may just be the one thing that I can't.

"When did you become part of this A to B conversation?" I asked rudely and Calum smacked me in my chest.

"Just now." Michael snapped.

"Well C your way out of it." I shot back crossing my arms. I was being a cocky asshole tonight and it's all because I can't stand watching Ashton all of Addie.

"Chill Hemmings." Michael said sternly.

"Or what?" I taunted glaring at him.

"Or else you'll be seeing stars." Michael threatened holding up his fist like he was going to punch me.

"Don't start you guys." Calum said quietly trying to warn Michael and I not to start anything.

"Both of you just leave me alone." I snapped trying to just sit here quietly and not be disrupted and or bothered with. Michael and Calum both laid back and left me alone, finally.

They just don't understand what type of pain I'm going through right now. I'm watching my best friend/the girl I love basically make out with my ex-best bud. Every time I see it, I die inside knowing that I could probably never take her heart the way Ashton did. But I know damn well that I'd never leave her like he did. At least I get to take her to Disney World, maybe she'd change her mind on who's really best for her?

I can't stand staying here any longer, the pain is killing me and I need to go somewhere where Ashton and Addie aren't right now. I stood up and headed towards the door when Addie's voice stopped me. "Luke, where are you going?" She asked with concern showing in her beautiful sparkling eyes.

"Home, I don't feel well." I lied trying to not make it super obvious about the real reason I'm leaving.

"Oh, well feel better Luke." She said with a shy smile and I smiled back at her before heading out the door into the cold night.

I should've worn more layers but I didn't think I'd be going for a walk or anything. I just needed some fresh air to cool off for a little, maybe even think. I am jealous I'll admit that, it's only because I know I could treat her right and never do anything to hurt her, I've known her for as long as I can remember. The fact that I actually got the balls to kiss her four years ago made me think about how much I actually love her, more than just a sister. But no matter how many times she tells me she loves me it doesn't mean what I want it to, she means it in a sibling type of way.

"Hey Luke!" I heard someone call out my name. I turned around and saw Calum running after me before he caught up to me.

"What Calum?" I groaned not really in the mood to talk to anybody right now, I just need to think.

"I know it's hard for you to watch them together." Calum said making me slump my shoulders, "Why all of a sudden does it bother you man?" Calum asked me and I ran my fingers through my hair.

"I kissed her four years ago Cal, when Ashton left her.." I admitted. They didn't know about it, and now Calum does.

"You kissed her?!" He asked shocked at what I had just told him.

"Yes, I just said that." I said in a duh tone.

"Holy fuck, and you didn't tell me?" He asked smacking me on my arm.

"I didn't want anyone to know, alright." I said sighing. "I could've had her Calum." I said through gritted teeth.

"Luke it'll be alright-"

"Will it Calum?" I asked cutting him off, "Have you ever seen the girl you loved in the arms of someone else, someone else that wasn't you?" I snapped at him and he took a step back from me.

"I'm sorry.." Calum mumbled now kicking at the ground. I stopped walking and sat down on the curb placing my head into my knees while I sniffled.

"I hate this feeling." I said and Calum sat next to me wrapping his arm around my shoulders.

"I know man." Calum said now giving me a hug as we both sat there in the cold while I began to vent all my feelings I've kept inside to Calum.

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awe lukey.. you making me sad whittle penguin :(

bUT HES SO CUTE THO XD

nicole xx