Not Over ➝ a.i.

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We finally got to Hollywood Studios, getting off the bus and entering the park there seemed to be a lot of people here with ATL shirts on and I figured they'd be going to the gig too. Ashton kept super close to me and every time he thought a guy was looking at me he'd give me a kiss so they knew I was taken.

Lexi was wide awake since she took a very long nap, she just as pumped as I was right now about the gig. I could hear screams of excitement from miles away as they were preparing for the gig. Ashton intertwined our fingers as Lexi sat on his shoulders pretending to play the drums on his head.

"My little drummer girl, are you daddy's rock star?" Ashton asked Lexi who giggled and started playing with his curls.

"Yeah." She answered smiling widely. We were almost to the gig since the loud screaming got even closer. I was excited and trying my hardest not to jump up and down but Ashton's hand probably knew how excited I was since I was squeezing it tightly.

"Excited much?" Ashton chuckled kissing the back of my hand, nodding I looked up at him and he smiled down at me pecking me on my lips before we arrived where the gig would be.

The line was so long and Ashton took me around the back and found that that's where the backstage was, I looked up at him wondering how on earth he knew about this. We showed the man our passes and he let us in from the back, all you could hear was the fans outside or maybe that was ATL?

"Jack you can't perform without pants!" I heard a security guard yell as he ran after Jack who was in his underwear.

"Boys put your clothes on!" Other guards yelled as Alex, Rian and Zack ran without their clothes on as well. They all waved at us and continued to run.

Laughing we waited until they came back from their dressing room all dressed and ready. Ashton put Lexi down and she ran up to Jack and hugged his leg tightly before he threw her up in the air and caught her as she giggled.

"So glad you guys could make it." Alex said giving Ashton and I a hug.

"We're happy to be here thanks for the invite man, this means a lot." Ashton said thanking them. They all nodded and smiled at us.

"Let's rock this gig!" Rian shouted as everyone shouted with him in agreement. Jack put Lexi down as we left backstage and went into the front row as the emerged from behind the curtains and everyone started to scream.

"Go Jack!" Lexi screamed loudly as he waved down at her and everyone awed while he went back to his microphone and chuckled deeply and everyone began to scream.

"Thanks for coming out tonight, we're gonna play something from our new album. It's called Something's Gotta Give." He introduced. He turned around to nod to the boys before they all started playing their instruments.

I started to sing and so did Ashton followed by the whole crowd followed behind. Once it got to the course everyone belted the lyrics and started jumping up and down chanting and singing while holding their phones up recording videos of this moment. Lexi was on Ashton's shoulders waving her hands in the air and trying to sing along but the only words she knew was something's gotta give.

The song hand ended and everyone cheered while these teenagers behind us screamed on the top of their lungs. They introduce the next song and this was one Lexi knew since it was one of her favorites. I took her from Ashton and wanted to sing this with her, putting her on my shoulders I held her hands and she waved them in the air.

They were passing out drinks and Ashton wanted a beer, I gave him a look not to get drunk and he reassured me that he wouldn't. As we were dancing and everything a girl snuck her way to the front and turned around to look at Ashton. He didn't seem to notice since he was too into the music, but once I saw her touch him I about lost it.

She was starting to get into dancing and she was dressed all slut like with her short shorts and a shirt that was way to small for her to wear. I began to feel insecure and wonder if that's what Ashton wanted but I just wasn't like that and it worried me that he'd want her instead of me. I turned back around trying to ignore it and just listened to the music. I could trust Ashton right, that he'd never do anything to hurt me like cheat?

They continued to play old songs, and covers of songs too like Are You Gonna Be My Girl. Every time I turned around she was still dancing with him but was becoming sexual with it and I was becoming angry. But the very thing that happened next killed me the most. Her lips attached to his and the worst part was that he kissed back. I felt the tears escape my eyes as I started to leave and go backstage hopefully allowed.

Lexi probably didn't know what was happening but she probably figured it was time to go and that's all I told her. She kept asking about Ashton and I told her he'd be home later. One of the security guards noticed I was crying and asked if I was alright, wiping my eyes I asked if they could thank the boys for everything and that we couldn't stay later. The man nodded as I began walking out of the park to the bus stop to get back to the lodge.

Finally catching the bus we started to head back, Lexi knew I was upset but she held my hand the whole ride there until we got to the lodge and into the room silently. I set Lexi on the bathroom counter and got a washcloth wiping of the mascara that was under her eyes before I wiped away mine. Taking her into her room I took down her hair and she took off her leggings and untied the shirt that was now like a dress for her.

She crawled into bed without saying anything and gave me a kiss on the cheek, smiling down at her I gave her a kiss back before shutting her door and getting into something comfortable myself just ready to cry myself to sleep after what had happened tonight. I put on sweatpants and one of my band t-shirts and got into bed as I began to break down into tears.

I never thought Ashton would hurt me again after he left me without even explaining why four years ago. I felt like my heart was breaking all over again, except I saw him cheat and that's the last thing I'd ever wanted to see. Maybe he did want someone like that and I just wasn't that kind of person to wear stuff that doesn't fit me.

I heard the door open and knew Ashton was back, he knocked before coming in and laid down on the bed trying to wrap his arms around me but I shifted from his touch. "Babe?" He said and I stood up and covered my mouth so my cries didn't come out.

"Ashton just, get out." I demanded pointing towards the door for him to leave through.

"What did I do?" He asked and I laughed bitterly.

"Like you don't know, you obviously aren't that drunk since you knew how to get back here." I snapped at him and he stood up and laughed.

"Addie don't over react babe." Ashton said and my mouth dropped.

"You kissed another girl, no, you made out with her in front of me. How could you do that Ashton?" I asked as tears streamed down my face.

"I kissed you damn, was I really that terrible? You were the one getting all sexual while dancing, I didn't know you could do all of that." Ashton said and the fact that he didn't even know it was me hurt even more.

"It wasn't me Ashton it was a different girl, were you really that drunk that you couldn't tell who your own girlfriend was?" I asked crossing my arms.

"No I," he started and his eyes widened, "Oh shit." Ashton swore trying to come near me.

"Just get out." I demanded not wanting to be near him right now. He put his hands up in defense and walked out to sleep on the couch probably.

As soon as he left I shut the door and went back to bed with a broken heart.

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wtf ashton!?

nicole xx