Breaking Through - A Kuroo Tetsurou Fanfiction

Chapter 11

Kuroo's POV

I felt someone brush my hair, gentle and kind. She was caressing my cheek, her touch like she was afraid that I would break if she exerted too much force. Wait... her?

I opened my eyes, realizing that I've fallen asleep. Kageyama's steel blue orbs were staring into mine. I didn't jerk back nor freak out. She didn't move away either; her hand was still on my temple, barely grazing my skin. It must've been around six in the evening because soft orange sun rays hit her face, making her shine like a character straight out of a movie. My heart throbbed uneasily - the mood was right.

I raised my head from the table, closing the distance between us. She looked up at me with her head still on the table, eyes full of uncertainty. I couldn't tell what she was thinking from her facial expression, but I could tell she had a lot running through her head right there and then. I raised my hand, tracing her jawline and cupping her face. She closed her eyes and sunk into my touch, showing such a pained expression now.

Just why are you hurting so much? What is stopping you from having what you want? I know you want this; you want to hang out with the team, you want to live an ordinary high school life, and most importantly, you want me.

Screw it, I leaned in and kissed her. I'm taking responsibility later.

-JW-

It wasn't a long or deep kiss. I didn't think much into it; I just closed the gap. Her lips weren't plump or soft; they weren't chapped or rough either. It was a normal kiss that lasted no more than three seconds, but it felt like an eternity. She didn't move or return the kiss and it was like we put time on hold, defying everything else.

I pulled back, opened my eyes and I saw her eyes still closed. Like she was savoring everything and afraid that when she opened her eyes, everything would go away. A few heartbeats later, her eyes fluttered open, her lips slightly parted and her cheeks tinted red.

My heart was beating fast and hard, so hard that it hurts. But it didn't feel bad at all. She didn't speak; she didn't dare to look away either. Looking at her, all I could see was that she was torn two ways, and she didn't know what to choose.

"You didn't pull away," I whispered and gave the softest smile I could muster. "I... I should've, but I couldn't," her voice was shaky. There it was, torn two ways. "Take a leap of faith with me, Kageyama. I want you, and I know you want me too. Everything else after, you don't have to worry. I'll take responsibility," I started to grow desperate and took her small yet strong hands into mine.

"I... no, I can't. I shouldn't. Starting something I cannot commit to will only hurt you in the end," she turned her head away, blinking hard to fight back her tears. "Seeing you in front of me, within my grasp. But not being able to hold you hurts me more. I don't care what happens in the end - this was my decision to fall for you and it will be my responsibility to bear in the end. So please... forget the future for now. I want you to live. Live right now." My tone was slightly harsher than usual, but I whispered the last few sentences. I tapped my forehead against hers, closing my eyes, praying for the answer I hoped.

A deafening silence took over, the sound of my radiator seemed to engulf the room. "I..." she finally spoke up, "I... I want to be myself. I want to love someone and someone to love me. You're... right, I want to live right now. The future can wait," I opened up my eyes and saw her smile with tears in her eyes. I think I just tore down the last wall of hers. A chill went through my body and I just grabbed her into a tight hug.

Her arm crawled up my back and returned the hug. Her face rested onto my left collarbone and I felt her smile through my shirt. "I love you, Kageyama. No matter what sort of crazy final fact about you that you throw at me, or a crazy personality you have, I will still love you. Because I already love this part of you," the words came out before I could stop them. I nuzzled into her raven hair in embarrassment but she started chuckling.

"Thank you. I will try my best to love you to the best of my abilities, too," she whispered into my chest. I parted, surprised to hear her words, "you mean you already love me? Or is it like? Or interested? Or-" I didn't get to finish my sentence as she stopped me by placing her thumb on my lips. My eyes widened in surprise. "Shut up. How can I not love the guy who saved my life?" She remarked.

She tackled me onto the floor and kissed me. What?! My head couldn't process fast enough. But I relaxed against her touch and returned the kiss. Her body was definitely small on top of me and she was light; I could easily sweep her off her feet if I tried. My hands rested perfectly around her waist, ah, I knew it. We were perfect for each other.

-JW-

Normal POV

What do you do when life gives you lemons? Make lemonade, of course. So what do I do when life gives me the guy who makes me happy? Say yes, of course.

That's what I've decided. Despite telling Kuroo that we will eventually end and telling him that I will hurt him, he was willing to take the leap of faith with me. He said that he would take full responsibility for his own emotions. All because he wants this current moment to become true because he wants me to live my life presently.

I loved that about him. I'm making the correct choice... right? Was there even a right or wrong choice here? I can carry on my work normally. I just have to keep it from him for the time being. He already said he'll love me no matter what the future throws at him... right? I guess our love is just taking one giant leap of faith.

-JW-

I broke off from my kiss with Kuroo; my silky black hair fell over my shoulders, like a curtain drawn around us, making it seem like there were only two of us in the whole world. Our gazes intense with passion, knowing that this was going to be the start of something exhilarating. The rooster head was beaming from ear to ear, cheeks redder than Nekoma's jersey.

"Then I guess I should make it official, right?" He placed his hand on my cheek again. I sunk into his palm, his touch felt so warm and right. "Kageyama Amber, will you be my girlfriend?" He asked.

I couldn't help it, I laughed. "Yes, yes, I will. I never took you for a traditional guy, Kuroo," I fell beside him, shielding my heated face while laughing. "Well! I- I was never serious with anyone else before. So, I really want to do it properly this time!" He teasingly tried to move my arms away from my face. "Alright, alright! You win. You finally caught your prey! You happy?" He managed to pin me down yet again.

"Extremely," he said as he placed another kiss on my lips and then my forehead.

-JW-

Kenma's POV (bonus)

"Kenma! Kuroo is looking for you!" I heard my mom call from the living room. I had just woken up from my nap. Damn, paintball really took a toll on my body yesterday. Got to admit, it was pretty fun, though.

I wonder when those two will actually get together. I really like Kageyama. But what could this bastard want when I told him I'm not going over for today's study session? I flipped my blanket off of me and trudged my way to the front door.

"Yo! My girlfriend bought some Taiyaki for you and your family!" Kuroo stood in the doorway while holding Kageyama's hand. I must've been dreaming. I rubbed my eyes again and tried to clear my hearing. "Say what?" I asked again to clarify.

"My girlfriend, Kageyama Amber!" Kuroo flashed his stupid charismatic smile and pulled Kageyama beside him like lovers do. I blinked in surprise, "congrats."