Xavier Ybarra Zamorra
1 day ago • 🔒 Only Me
#Best55HoursToStartTheYear #2018sBiggestPlotTwist #NeverImagined #NeverThought #NeverExpected #MostHeartbreakingDay
LONG POST AHEAD!!!
Abbi asked me to come with her somewhere. I feel excited then kasi we celebrated New Year's day morning together. At the same time, I was scared. The negative feeling is overpowering the fact that we are together and I can't hide it from her. I know, she can feel the tension but thank God, she's not opening it up. Hindi ko rin naman alam ang sasabihin ko sa kanya.
After celebrating with our friends, we go home. Inuwi ko siya sa bahay namin. We catch up like there is no tomorrow. Ang dami naming energy pareho. Nagulat na lang ako, sinisita na kami ni Kuya Xy. Alas-otso na daw ng umaga. Sana man lang daw matulog na muna kami. We all agreed to let her stay at our house. Doon siya nag-stay sa kwarto ko. At ako, natulog sa kwarto ni Yael. Hindi ko siya tinabihan. Hindi ko siya sinamahan. It's not right. Nag-usap lang kami, hindi pa klaro kung okay na talaga kami. I won't take advantage of her.
We both got up in the afternoon. We take our late lunch, coffee, and she decided to spend time with my brothers. At ako, nanonood lang sa kanila. Ginabi sila sa pag-uusap. After Dinner, no one wants to let her go. At sobrang lakas ng mga kapatid ko ha? They asked her to stay and she willingly agreed. (That easy.)
She sleeps on my bed. Yael doesn't want me to crashed with him, pati si Kuya. I don't have a choice but to sleep with her. Bukas ang pinto ng kwarto ko magdamag. I don't know what time I fell asleep. Nagising na lang akong may breakfast in bed na naka-prepare. Abbi wearing an apron with nothing but my shirt. Kung may makakakita sa kanya, iisipin pa nila may nangyari sa amin kagabi. Buti na lang yun talaga suot niya nung mag-dinner kami.
Abbi, beautiful as ever, is holding a breakfast tray in my room with the morning sun rays exactly towards her direction... What a sight to behold. Pangarap ko lang to noon, nananaginip ba ko? Slowly getting up, hindi siya nawala sa harap ko. My heart is so full. I instantly thought that it is the best day ever. No one can ruin this year for us. We started it together and I can feel that we will start anew very soon. Umaasa na ko ng husto pero wala akong pakialam. All that matters is Abbi is here. She's here with me again. This time, I won't let her go. This is our year!
Today is January 3rd. Alas-sais pa lang ng umaga, may text na si Abbi na sunduin ko siya. That's the reason why the best hours are only 55 hours. Because the moment I saw her this morning at 7 am, all my happiness is slowly crumbling down. Nung una, akala ko dahil nararamdaman ko na hindi na namin maaayos to. She was tensed. She was fidgeting. Siguro akala niya nakaupo lang siya ng maayos, but her whole body is tensed. At mas nakadagdag yun sa takot ko.
At 8:30 something... we were standing in a room full of light. Pero sobrang lungkot ng ambiance, napakatahimik at hindi ko gusto... Sino ba may gusto pumunta sa kolumbaryo? Akala ko pa naman date to.
The next thing I saw is probably the worst and most painful joke I can ever see in my entire life. How to unsee?
Uno Santos Zamorra.
