Right Where You Left Me ✔

Chapter 21: "Twenty-Two Stan" (III).

Kai

The heartwarming loving twenty-two-year-old you who had only me... when your parents forced you to not love someone who is as the same gender as you. You go through those five years trying to live up to their wants - to find a girl who you could love the same way as me. There was never enough love for you to give to someone else when all you do here is clinging onto me like the faithful lover you are. 

I thought that maybe you got tired of me. Maybe you got exhausted from seeing my face. 

But seeing you here having so much enthusiasm when we're together no matter how old you are - you give me a feeling that you were never tired of me. Never did once you were tired of me. Never did you question me what if we broke up because you know all too well that you would forever stay with me. 

When staying is not a promise we could keep.

Someday soon when he's gone, I'll be on my own. I'll be going through that cycle again to find another replacement that could mend an irreplaceable lover. It was hard to try to move on. It's difficult to try to forget you. And it would be hellish if I tried to find another.

To love again - would take a thousand times if I exaggerated it.

"This one!" gushed the male in the shopping mall.

Then he turns to look at another snack that was his favourite. "Ooo... how about this one?" I turn to see what he was pointing at, and it was a bag of gummy bears.

"Gummy bears?" I raised my brows, looking at the grown-up man whose eyes were boggling towards the variety of snacks that was in this time. He only grinned at me. His eyes wrinkled to show how genuinely sincere his smiles were. "Yeah? Why not?" He returned, walking ahead of me as I push the shopping cart and follow wherever he goes.

He then stops at an aisle. His eyes look around the shelves - searching for a particular. I arrived beside him and when I turn to see what he was staring at, my eyes smile. It was that one chocolate we fight over back then when love was playing hide-and-seek. 

"Can we get that?" He asked again. It seems that he was making sure if the things he wanted was fine by me. But really, I'm fine with all that he wanted. As long as it's not costing me my whole month salary. Because not everyone is as rich as this man here. 

Hey... why am I the one buying anyway?

Sighing, I let it go for now. "Whatever you want, Stan," This pops confetti around his figure - like it was the victory that he waited for in his whole life. But as I look down towards the items he picked, I got curious... no, worried.

"But... are you sure you want to just buy snacks? I thought that you were the type to maintain their physique," I questioned, taking one of the snacks by my hand and inspect the ingredients they used to make the diabolical junk food.

The raven-haired just shrugged, then wiggles the chocolate in my face. "What's the matter? You also love these snacks, don't you?" 

"Of course I do... but I stop eating them for a while...," I returned. It was then I know that I stopped eating those sweet things very often when we broke up a month ago. I just couldn't face the circling feeling whenever I ate them - they would just remind me of him.