Back At One (Completed)

Epilogue 1

Jema POV:

Time

Society

Judgement

Fear

Are all the hindrances that stop us to be who we truly are.

It is the barriers that keeps us into the darkness.

Time is precious, they said time is gold that's why we need to make a right decision in every problem that we are facing. Time was the one who will cage us in our own prison. While time is tickling, we should move so that time won't stop us to chase our love one.

Society and Judgements in this judgemental society, the society always dictates us on what is wrong and what is right. They think that they are always right, they didn't mind if you're hurting or not because all they want to do is to judge every move that you're doing. Society always control us like a toy. We need to obey the society if we doesn't want to be judge.
But are you happy? Are you happy that they are controlling you?

Fear we are scared to to face our fear. Even me I  was so scared to face my fear, but then I realized, does my fear would help me to be a better and a grown person? No right? That's why we should face our fears. It's now or never.

When I first saw Deanna, I said to myself that this person was the one who I want to be by my side until my last breath.

But then, when I found out that her family was my father's enemy. I became scared, fear was all over me, I suffered a lot because of that fear, but one day I just realized that even though I'm scared my love for her will never fade, it is going strong time by time until I said to myself that I should fight my love for this person.

I learned to fight until the societies judgement, and my father's manipulation are no longer my fears.

One thing I have learned is that, if you love someone you should fight for it. Fight until you can reach the freedom and until you can reach that person.

Don't be scared because to fight, for your love. Coz' loving means freedom, and contentment.

Be who you are, show your color in this world, so that some might appreciate and love you.

Like how my father and friends accepted me.

Because..

We are not fighting for nothing, but for respect. We are seeking for respect.

If they can't accept us, then at least they can respect us.

It's been five years when I get married to the person who can make my heart beat so fast, and I hope you can find yours

Thank you.

Nagsitayuan ang mga taong dumalo sa  seminar, actually it is a advocacy that are helping LGBTQ members to accept and to show their self confidently.

It was my father's project and he choose me to became his speaker.

I can't say no to my dad, that's why I'm here.

"I'm proud to you my princess" my dad proudly said and he kissed me on my cheeks.

I hugged him, and I say thank you  to him.

Pumunta si Dad sa mga kaibigan niya at lumapit naman sa akin si Deanna.

She kissed me in my lips, bago ako hawakan sa aking kamay.

Pinagsiklop namin ang aming mga daliri at saka kami pumunta kaila Dad para magpaalam.

After namin magpaalam ay pumunta na kami sa parking lot at sumakay kami sa kanyang black sedan.

Pumunta kami sa sa St. Luke Hospital para mag pacheck- up sa aking Doctor.

I'm now five months pregnant, at ngayon ang aking check-up.

Sa America ginawa ang IVF procedure, isang buwan kaming nanatili sa America to make sure that the procedure are successful and thanks God because after three weeks of waiting ay naging successful ang procedure.

Pumasok kami sa opisina ni Ms. Motilla, she's my Doctor.

"Good afternoon Mrs. and Mrs. Wong" bati nito sa amin.

"Good afternoon Doc" sabay naming bati ni Deanna.

"How's your feeling Jema, do you feel something or may masakit ba sayo?" tanong nito sa akin.

"I'm good Doc, I don't feel any bad thing that can affect my baby" ani ko.

"That's good to hear, but we still need to conduct ultrasound to make sure if your baby is healthy" ani nito.

Nagsuot ako ng hospital gown at saka ako tumuloy sa hospital bed.

Nakahawak si Deanna sa aking kamay habang tinitignan namin ang isang monitor kung saan nakikita namin ang aming baby.

Nakangiting nakatingin kami sa monitor hanggang sa matapos ang aking check-up.

After ng check-up ay dumaretsyo na kami sa aming bahay. Yes we have our own house.

It is just a simple three storey house na may indoor and outdoor swimming pools, we also have a mini entertainment room.

Pagpasok namin sa bahay ay binati agad kami ni Anita ang aming kasambahay.

At binati naman namin ito pabalik.

Kumuha kami ng tatlong katulong at isang driver, and since nasa subdivision naman kami ay hindi na kami kumuha ng guards.

Bago lang ang aming kasambahay at driver, they been working here three months now, kumuha kami ng katulong dahil ayaw na akong pakilusin ni Deanna, kaya naman mga light task nalang ang ginagawa ko like cooking at pagdidilig ng halaman.

Nag stop na rin muna ako sa trabaho para iwas stress, and because my protective wife never let me too.

"Hun, akin na paa mo" ani nito kaya naman ipinatong ko ang aking paa sa kanyang kandungan.

Hindi na ako nagulat ng masahihin niya ang aking paa..

She's still a sweet person..

And a very protective wife.

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- Eeybeedi 🐝