He's My Girl

3

Chapter Three
Sanity

Alam mo yung pakiramdam na gising ka pero hindi? O yung pakiramdam na alam mong malapit ka ng magising kaya nararamdaman mo yung nangyayari sa paligid?

I can hear their discussion very loud and clear. I was about to open my eyes when I heard this guy's name— River.

"He's acting very different. We don't have any choice, Olivia. His MRI and Brain CT scan shows sign of brain damage. We need to let him examined by a Psychiatrist Doctor." I can feel his frustration through his voice.

Ako rin nababanas sa nangyayari. Hindi lang kayo. Jusko. Ba't ayaw niyo ba kasing maniwala? Tutal hindi rin naman ako makapaniwala. This is just too much. It's mindblowing. It's hard to believe that this thing exist.

Teka... Psychiatrist? Paano kung ang diagnosis niya sa akin... Bipolar? Schizopheria or worst multiple idendity disorder?

No fucking way?

Then I need to drink some pills? Gosh! mas lalo akong mababaliw sa situation ko ngayon eh. Should I just pretend that I am dead? Aba! Eh baka wala sa oras kabaong na ang bagsak ko.

Fuck. I really don't know what to do.

"Natatakot lang naman ako sa kalalabasan ng diagnosis niya." naririnig kong umiiyak ang matandang babae. "Don't worry, Hon. It'll be alright. Everything will be fine. Maybe he's just too shocked from what happened. That was a car accident." sagot naman niya.

Car accident?

Car accident...? then suddenly my memories about that night flashback.

Oh yes. I remember my birthday celebration. Ceci, surprised me with birthday dinner and then we went to a club but because she caught me making out in the dance floor, I ran away from her.

And that accident happened!

Because this dumb shit doesn't his own lane.

Tangina! Siya ba yun? yung gagong hindi marunong kung nasaan ang lane niya? Yung gagong hindi alam ikaliwa kahit may taong nasa harap niya?

Putangina lang.

I kinda wanna punch his face right now but it's useless kasi ako lang naman makakaramdam ng sakit. Tangina talaga ng gagong yan! Saan niya pinunta yung katawan ko?

Right. Where the fuck is my body right now?

Kaming dalawa lang naman yung nagbanggahan so that means I am in this hospital too?

Gosh, I need to go out and asked for my name. Right. Bakit hindi ko naisip kanina yan? Then I guess I need to act as if I am normal— wait, I am normal. It's just that my situation right now is not normal. Aight?

Okay.

I need to pretend I am fine. I need to convince them that I am fine.

Bigla akong bumangon na ikinagulat nilang dalawa. Ako rin nagulat eh. Aba! Malay ko bang pinapanood nila akong dalawa. Mahal na mahal ata nilang dalawa tong anak nila eh.

"River, Are you okay? Do you still feel any pain?" tanong sa akin nung babaeng matanda. Hay. I need to play with it. "Uh no... I am fine." mahinang sagot ko na ikinagulat nilang dalawa. Siguro nagtataka at parang naging kalmado ako ngayon.

As much as I wanna scream that I am still trapped in this guy's body. I can't. I need to act normal in this abnormal situation.

Normal. Fucking normal. Yes, I am normal.

"Are you sure? Do you want me to call the Doctors to check you up?" nag aalalang tanong naman ng matandang lalake pero umiling lang ako. "No... Actually... I... uh, I am hungry." sabi ko sakanila at nagmadali namang gumalaw yung matandang babae.