The secret life

The secret life. chapter 37. is this the last day?

Days passed I delighted in being safe for the moment. I didn't know how much time I had left somehow I trusted that when It came I would know. That that would be the day. So i didn't worry. I had fun with my friends I had a normal life, not thinking about the pain or fear that the fixed point would bring. Even though I was having a fun normal life delighted I was safe I knew the fixed point would still come, I knew that I still would be as Trapped and frightened as I would be when it would come. When my thoughts came back about the Doctor. I missed him. I knew he was being hurt, I knew he is probably missing me as much as I am missing him. Many nights I sat in my room and tears streamed down my cheeks because I missed him so much. It had been pretty much a whole year with out any contact with the Doctor. I had the everyday choice of doing telpathic with him but I thought it would hurt me too much to talk to him knowing what's happening and I was right. But when I felt so much about missing him longing to hear his voice I would. He would tell me to keep being strong and brave. I would always fight for my friends and my dad. And I knew and hoped he was fighting still too.

Even though I had put off me thinking about the fixed point everyday I went to school I would be alert. Being prepared for anything. Knowing any day could be it. As the days passed I had slowly watched the staff and Rani up to something. They had definitely grown in activities. Which worried me. Lately though the weather hadn't been cooperating with the school schedules we had many missed days and two hour delays. When we did go back to school it was only for a half day and I couldn't spy as much. One weekend though that came poised some concerns, and I had feared the worst. That weekend had started there was a huge snow storm that blew in bringing several inches of snow with it. The snowfall had been the biggest one we'd that year since winter had started. Which wasn't good news. We had another missed day because of the snowfall that buried us in 12 full inches of snow. It was deep very deep. My thoughts the day I had off drifted back to the school on what it looked like in all that snow in the yard and if it looked just like the snow looked in my vision. The next day I had a bad feeling about the fixed point. My thoughts got pulled back to think about the fear in the fixed point and I was filled with nervousness fear and anxiety of what to come since the day had started I stared out my window thinking about tomorrow if it was the day. I knew it wasn't that day I was on but I had a gut feeling it was the day after. The wensday that promised snow and clues to it being that day.

When i got to school I kept alert. Surely enough the staff were Giving me terrifying glares. When the time had come to head to one of my classes that was across the building I stopped for a moment and looked at the front yard. The snow was deep and if it wasn't for the shoveled out casum that revealed where the sidewalk was it would easily look like a big deep field of snow. It looked strange the snow being that deep. It always looked strange. But then I saw it and It hit me. The yard looked exactly like it was in the vision I had. Deep like a snow field. In the vision I thought I was walking on the deep snow if I looked somewhere else then the sidewalk. But it was because it was like that. The yard had looked exactly like the vision the only difference was she snow falling heavily and me walking in it. This sight was unerving. If it was like this now it meant the fixed point was close really close all it needed now was snow. And sure enough it was predicted to have lots of snow that week. However my thoughts and gut feeling kept thinking about the next day. Would that be it? Was that the day? Am I ready?

When i got home I told Dawn of how I felt that day. We both were now nervous about the next day. And my thoughts were on my life on my friends and family. Would this be the last day I have fun with my friends and family? Would this be the last day I saw them, my last glance I had of them before I left the next day. Was I ready for it? Or could I even be? Could it just be another false alarm? The past few days I had been happy and at peace at having a normal life at being safe being with my friends and family. I didn't want it to end. When i began I wanted adventure more than anything and I still have a good taste for adventure but now. There's a big difference between longing for adventure and wanting to be safe and nothing to change. I wanted adventure but this was terrifying. I just wanted to be safe having my dad with me and all my Friends around me. Traveling the stars. But we were being hunted. We were living In fear everyday by our enemies, waiting on the edge of the unknown. With the Cataclysmic events of the situation raining down. We were alone. US timelords on our own no one knowing, not our human family's or friends or anyone on earth no one knew that everything would change.