The secret life

Secret life chapter 6 The lonely travelers

       When you live a lonely life of hiding and knowing you are different but Never being able to tell anyone the life of hiding becomes bitter and tough, and especially when you have lost so much. As I have. I have lost  my planet, my mom, my friends and my dad never shows. I have the urge to get mad at him wondering why he would just leave his daughter on earth. I struggle with that everyday. Everyday waiting for him. Hoping he stays safe and that one day he will come and pick me up.  I say I'm mad but I'm not. I'm just sad lonely and broken. It's hard not telling people who you really are. That you are something extrodinary and different.  That if you told they wouldn't believe you and think your crazy. I once heard by timelord cousin say a phrase that I always remember when I feel lonely. Timelords the lonely travelers.  We are always lonely. Because we have lost so much and so many, but yet we always find each other. Timelords always find each other.

     It's a good feeling when you know that you're not alone but when they don't talk to you, or just seem to ignore you that feeling is gone almost as soon as it comes. Once that feeling is gone I am burdened by the same old life the same old loneliness the same brokenness. 

        One day as I was going though a normal day I felt again the same burdens of my secret life. The hiding, the lonliness. It had to stop I had to get it out somehow. But anyway I thought of telling others it always ended in fear of them thinking I'm crazy or just kidding.  So I went along my friend list the lonliness lingering as no one was on. I had met an new friend named Emily.    I had to tell someone. I had to tell her. I talked with her and got to know her more and then I decided it was time. I made sure I could trust her. And I took a deep breath.  I've never told anyone before. The one time I did everyone freaked out and didn't believe me. The reason why the Doctor told me not to tell anyone. I would be going against his rules but I took a deep breath and I started to tell her. Starting out with the wierd things that happened to me. Then I told her out straight.  "im a timelord.  Stuck on earth. The Doctors daughter.  Secret name katrina" I waited her response in aching silence on what the reaction would be. Before hand I told her I was being serious. She responded as a question "so if you are really one why are you telling me. I hardly know you." I think about what she said, it was true I hardly knew her and it probably wasn't smart to go up to s human and randomly tell her my secret and who I am, but I felt like I was bottled up and trapped;I just had to get it out. "I trust you. Don't tell anyone."

     She excepted the secret and I knew I could trust her. I only hoped that with my dangerous life I wouldn't of been putting her in danger by telling her. But how good it felt to have someone that could be there and know my secret. It's funny how someone who was once a stranger could mean the world to you. She was a stranger once but now she is my trusted friend and a good ally that knows my secret.  I will treasure my conversations.  With her. She's all I got.

      Emily is my new companion and ally. Things are going to change now.