The secret life

The secret life chapter 32 Realization

       It was Friday I always loved and dreaded fridays. Loved it cause it led to the weekend but dreaded it cause it was the perfect opportunity for my enemys to take advantage of it and catch me. When i had my first vision of the fixed point seeing myself shackled to a metal black chair I sensed/felt slightly that it could  be the weekend or friday. I had suspicion that it could be that day but trashed it when the sun came out. One fact I knew from one of the most recent visions I had was the fixed point was going to be on a day where it was snowing heavily and I was slightly dark out because of the snow.

      I was in the classroom with olivia who doesn't pay much attention to me. We slightly talk and pass notes between each other on the situation. She's always seemed disconnected to the whole thing like she really doesn't want to be part of it. I had written down clues and things to help me piece together when the fixed

Point could be. And as I worked on it i figured it out.i hadn't been anymore certain then I was at that moment.  I had wrote the strangeness of my cousin seeing the number 23 everywhere and her saying she kept secrets, being super smart and being different.  She was my best friend. My favorite human cousin.  But what if these things weren't just her. That It wasn't just coincidence her saying things like that. She had strange things happen. She seemed to have a Subconscious telpathic link with others. Being able to practically read people's minds. I thought. She's either a timelord like me or a telpath.  But one things for certain there is just something about her. It would make since that she was a timelord.  I found out most of my friends ended up being timelords.  We always seem to find each other. So this close drawn to her. We being so alike. She may be and if my enemys didn't know about her, that number 23 could be a date. The fixed point date that she was able to sense. The enemys not being able to block her time sense. Meaning she may have known the fixed point all this time. Unconsciously and without knowing.

      My other date I had singled out was the Monday before but olivia said we had no school that day. Meaning it couldn't be that day. Leaving only the 23d. It was even on friday. Which I never trusted fridays. Somehow I knew that that was the day. The question of the date that had been hidden for so long. If I was right, then that was the day. And it was close, way too close. Just the next week. Shorted by having that Monday off. The storm was coming and it was almost apon us.

Now knowing the date of it. All that was left was to prepare myself for it. It would be the day everything changed. The peak of the war. I had to be strong. All of us had to be.

      It was the weekend before the week that the fixed point came. I was running out of time. Once I got back to school on Tuesday it was only three days away. 

The start of the terrible frightening count down to the frightening painful day.  When everything changed.

      The day before the master had texted back. Said alaylas family had a few crises to take care of so he wasn't able to text back. I was rather mad at him when he did that, but I tried not to be. I knew that wasn't his fault. And at least he was trying. Both the Doctor and the master seriously need to work on that texting back thing. I wanted to know what had happened at the school but he said nothing which didn't really sound exciting plus something was going on. I know it was. He didn't stay that long to explain it. Leaving me and Dawn in the dark.

       I knew  I didn't have much more time left. I kept looking at my family my home here. They were everything to me. My love. My life I had for so long. So much has changed since that summer when I found out who I was. I doubt once the fixed point comes that anything will be the same again. My parents have no idea what's going on. What's going to happen.  They have no idea what I am. How I'm fighting for them to protect them along with the whole world. Maybe even the whole universe.  I once tried telling them but it didn't go well. They wouldn't believe me. I mean say things like I'm a alien no one would believe you. But mostly they were just concerned and even though they would never know I still loved them. They were my family the family I had for so many years.

      It's hard hiding who you are especially from those that are closest to you. I'm walking a path that's uncertain.  I don't have a plan anymore of where I want to go. Just be with my dad traveling the stars and saving worlds. I spent a lot of time waiting for my dad. It never worked out. he lied many times. But he was just trying to protect me. All I wanted was to be with him and soon I would be. But not without a price. I'm not sure how i will overcome this challenge. No normal teenager has to fear everyday of being experimented on or captured. Torchered. I'm different and I always will be. I never wanted an ordinary life my human heart that will soon be my full timelord self again. Had always strived for something more than ordinary. 

      My dream was to be extrodinary. Until I overcome this war. I won't have a chance to do that. But I'm sure as I keep reaching for the stars I will achieve it.

All the pain of never seeing the Doctor, my ordinary life getting to me, my family thick and not seeing who I truly am. It hurt me. Filled with frustration,  and tears.

I had to let it go. It didn't matter it was in the past. If I kept thinking about the past I won't be able to move on. I had to let go. So i can become who I truly was and meant to be. This was my extrodinary life and only I could walk it. There would be pain and fear. But I'm the Doctors daughter.  I would overcome it. When timelords unite. We will stand.