Lose to Win (Trazo Real Series #2)

Chapter 36

Chapter 36

"Mauuna akong maligo", sambit ko at bakas sa mukha niya ang pagprotesta dahil nauna siyang pumasok sa loob ng palikuran.

"Nauna ako, Clara", saad niya at nagtanggal na ng kanyang boxer shorts.

"Damn you! Ako ang una. Lumabas ka muna", saad ko habang nakaiwas ng tingin sa kanya.

I haven't fully recovered yet from what happened earlier. We made out inside this hut and I don't know if I am just being driven by my lust earlier or what. What's making me feel worse is that I don't even feel any bit of regret after getting myself finger-fucked by him.

"Arte nito. Nag-iwas ka pa ng tingin 'e nakita mo naman na ang kabuuan ko", humalakhak siya at nanatili pa rin doon. "Ganito na lang. Sabay na lang tayong maligo para tapos na ang usapan", he smirked at me and I immediately rolled my eyes.

"Ayoko. Ako na kasi ang mauuna!", I stomped my feet like a kid until he finally gave in.

I bathe quickly. I wanted to bathe longer but there's an urge inside me that tells me to do it quickly because Theo might pull some naughty stunt or something while I'm inside the comfort room. It doesn't help as well that the comfort room, though it's nice and neat, was made of bamboo.

Baka mamaya ay silipan ako ni Theo.

I mentally groaned and wore my shirt before going out of the comfort room. He was sitting on the papag, smiling like an idiot, while looking at the ring on his necklace. It warmed my heart looking at him like that. But I reminded myself again of who I am now in his life.

What he said earlier made me rethink of my decisions and feelings again. Ayaw kong mag-assume pero bakit pakiramdam ko, kahit hindi naman niya sinabi kanina na mahal pa rin niya ako, parang iyon na rin ang pinapahiwatig niya?

He looked my way and caught me staring at him. Tumikhim ako at pilit na kinunot ang noo papalakad sa papag kung saan nakapatong ang bag ko.

"Maligo ka na", I said and he just nodded.

He stood up and went inside the comfort room. Ako naman ay nagpatuloy sa pag-aayos ng mga gamit ko para pagkalabas niya ay makaalis na kami agad.

Saglit kong nasilayan ang phone niya. I bit my lower lip because he still uses the same phone I gave him as a gift for his birthday. Katulad ko ay hindi pala siya nagpalit kaya pareho pa rin kami ng ginagamit na phone.

I noticed that he's still using the transparent case he bought before, too. Sa likod 'non ay naroon pa rin... ang isang polaroid picture ng mga kamay namin na magkahawak. Iniwas ko na ang tingin doon dahil ayaw ko na munang mas lumalim pa ang iniisip.

Theo's words and actions are confusing me. Kung totoo man na ginamit niya lang talaga si Helena dati at hindi sila nagkaroon ng relasyon, hindi pa rin 'yon basehan para isipin ko na ako pa rin 'di ba? Dahil mayroong Jane ngayon.

"Wala ka nang naiwan?", tanong sa akin ni Theo nang ikarga ko ang bag ko sa kotse niya.

"Wala naman na", I said and he nodded.

I was silent the whole ride and it's not helping that Theo was stealing glances at me. Pakiramdam ko ay magkakaroon ako ng stiff neck dahil nanatili lang ang baling ko sa kanan, nagkukunwaring tinitingnan ang view kahit gabi naman na at halos wala nang makita.

"Gutom ka ba? Kumain muna tayo", saad niya at kinuha ang phone.

"Sa room service na lang ako – "

"Sige na...", saad niya sa tonong nagpapaawa. I heaved a sigh and gave in.

"Okay pero roon sa wala masyadong tao. Ayaw kong may makakilala sa akin at baka ma-issue pa ako sa'yo", sagot ko.