lover of mine // mgc

feel the love

"do we have to tell them?"

michael asked as i wiped my tears away from my face. 

"do we really have that decision after i made this big of a scene?"

i sighed as i looked into the mirror. i don't recognize the girl staring back at me. the girl that was once full of life and happiness has been replaced by a shell of herself. i don't know who i am anymore. 

"i guess not. i just don't like them worrying over us. i do that enough."

michael said as he wrapped his arms around my waist. for the first time in days i didn't tense up at his touch. i let myself sink into it. 

"what do you worry about?"

i asked him.

"losing you and luna because of this. neither of us have been dealing with this in a healthy way. i don't wanna lose either of you. i just get scared."

"you aren't losing us. i promise."

i said as i turned my head to kiss him. i don't think i'd ever have the heart to leave michael. he's my soulmate. he's the only man i love. he's the only man i'll ever love.

"we should go tell them."

i sighed.

"yeah."

michael said. he took my hand and led me out of the bathroom and back into the living room. all eyes fell on us as soon as we walked into the area. 

"wanna tell us what the fuck that was all about?"

a clearly pissed off luke asked. i looked over at sierra and could read the hurt all over her face. god, i suck. i didn't want to hurt them or take anything away from them. it's their moment. i shouldn't have let my emotions get the best of me.

"um, alex and i have to tell you guys something."

michael said. i felt bee's eyes fall on me as i just stared down at my shoes. they're the only one who knew i might be pregnant. i can't even look at my best friend because i'm afraid i'll burst into tears.

"what's wrong?" 

calum asked us. michael squeezed my hand as i felt the tears well up in my eyes. i can't keep reliving this.

"so, um, alex found out she was pregnant a few weeks ago."

michael said.

"that's great news!"

bee said with a smile.

"well, it was until the other night when luke and sierra were watching luna, we went out to dinner and alex was bleeding pretty badly. we went to the hospital and they confirmed that she was having a miscarriage. we just haven't been okay since and alex had a bit of a panic attack when she heard your guys news. but we're both insanely happy for you."

michael said to luke and sierra. i pulled my head up a bit to see luke and sierra's hard demeanors soften. they weren't mad anymore. their eyes just filled with pity for michael and i, as did the rest of our friends.

"i'm so sorry guys."

sierra said as she wrapped me up into a hug.

"yeah, i'm sorry too. i shouldn't have been so harsh."

luke said as he hugged michael. i felt my tears finally come out and all onto sierra's sweater. it's good to know our friends have our backs. and it feels amazing to have this weight off of my shoulders. maybe telling everyone was the one thing keeping us back from truly healing. maybe all we need to properly heal was to know that our friends love us and are there for us no matter what we're going through.