THE FORBIDDEN LIST (UNIPHANT)

Chapter 17

Ella's POV

Andito nako sa pinto ng room ni Mommy dito sa hospital, nag-aalangan kung papasok ako. Hindi ko siya kayang makitang nahihirapan but I went in anyway. Nagulat silang makita ako, gulat na alam ko na ang totoo. Hindi ko napigilan ang sarili ko, naiyak nalang ako sa nakikita ko ngayon. 

I can't believe na hindi ko man lang napansin that her hair all these time is fake. I can't believe that her deadly disease was disguised with make up. Imbes na sumbatan sila for not telling me sinalubong ko nalang sila ng mahigpit na yakap. We all became emotional. 

"Sorry anak, sorry." Mom cried under her breath. 

"Ma, no. You don't have to apologize. Naiintindihan ko. Ma, are you gonna be okay?. Please tell me you'll be fine anytime soon."

"Kailangan pa syang obserbahan. How did you know we're here?." Tanong ni Daddy.

"Tita G is home and she told me. Please don't be mad at her, she didn't know na di ko alam."

"Don't worry, we're not mad at her. We just don't want you to worry. You're going back to school soon and we don't want you to be distracted in your studies."

"Dad, ano ba kayo?. Para namang ibang tao ako nyan. Pamilya tayo. Ang laban ng isa laban ng lahat. Saka nakalimutan nyo na ba?. Kayo po mismo laging nagsasabi sakin nun na if it doesn't tell you the truth, it's not love at all.Dad maiintindihan ko naman. How am I supposed to take care of the one's I didn't know should be taken care of."

"Anak, we nakalimutan mo na rin ba?. We have God." Mom said with a hopeful manner. Ofcourse, God. I completely forgot bout Him. He's somehow lost in my system. The sad truth is that ngayon ko lang ulit siya naalala because this happened. 

Umuwi nako. 7pm.

"So, how's tita?." Salubong ni Gabb sakin. 

"Ella, dinner." Offer sakin ni Tita G.

"Okay lang po tita, busog pa po ako. Akyat lang po ako sa kwarto."

Ang totoo wala lang talaga akong gana. Gulong gulo lang parin ako

Seems like God made this terrible event on purpose. Was it because I chose to love Gabb?. It doesn't make any sense.

  Isn't love supposed to be always right?.

 Isn't love supposed to be unconditional?. Was I actually wrong about love?. Was I wrong about Gabb?. 

FLASHBACK

Recess.

"..there are two reasons kung bakit ka nahihirapan. 1 is pagsubok, you're tested and placed under pressure like gold and diamond to be pure. 2 is parusa. Maybe you've done something wrong that you need to suffer for you to be able to learn so would never ever dare do it again. Here--" Gia is my childhood friend and classmate, anak din siya ng pastor. She has twin sister named Gwyn. You can simply tell them apart because Gia wears glasses.

"Ano to?."

"Notebook."

"I mean para saan?."

"My mom used to list down things that she wants to do. Naisip ko what if you write down things you promised you'll never do. Let's see if you end up doing them. I have mine at home. Last year ko pa sana yan ibibigay sayo on your sisxteenth birthday but unfortunately, di tayo nagtagpo. But now you have it. Tapos pag 30 na tayo, tingnan natin what rules we broke so far. Make sure na walang ibang makaalam nito maliban satin."