THE FORBIDDEN LIST (UNIPHANT)

Chapter 15

Gabb's POV

Nagising ako mga bandang 9:30am. Wala si Ella, pero nag-iwan siya ng pagkain sa mesa. Napangiti nalang ako nang makita yun.

Kriiiiing kriiiiing kriiiiing

Si Mommy tumatawag.

Hello Ma--

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Ella's POV

Nasa chapel ako to pray.

"..Dear Father in heaven, please help me overcome this test. Wag nyo po sana akong hayaang mahulog sa kasalanan. Gawin nyo po akong matatag upang di ako madala sa tukso. Father, I don't want to feel this way. I don't want to fall for Gabb.."

Umuwi nako mga bandang 10am. Naabutan kong naglilinis si Gabb sa living area.

"Andyan ka na pala. Where have you been?." Masaya nitong sabi sakin.

"Sa chapel. Sige ah." Sabi ko lang at umakyat na sa kwarto.

Kinuha ko ang Forbidden List and wrote: #100. Gabrielle Skribikin.

This girl is obviously not the one, just for the reason that she's a girl. We're created to be women, not for each other but for men. Just like Eve was created for Adam.

Gabb is an amazing person alright, there's no doubt about that but I'm well aware of the fact that she's not worth the sin. She will never be worth the sin.

Some people will think that in stories like this God is always the antagonist. He is, in the eyes of evil souls.

Siguro ito na nga ang sinasabi nilang pagwawaksi ng sarili.

FLASHBACK

"..In a world where people kept on telling you to follow your heart, don't. Kasi sabi nga, the heart is the most deceitful of all. The best advice for that is to follow the words of God, even if it's against your will." Sabi ni Daddy.

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"..Because sometimes, breaking our hearts is another way of protecting us from something that could kill us. And only He can love us that way." Sabi ko.

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Dinikit ko na sa wall ang quote na sinulat ko sa papel.

"What's that? What are you doing?." Gabb asked a bit confused.

"See for yourself." I said with a smile. Tumayo naman siya sa pagkakaupo sa bed para lumapit sakin.

[ The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom. The fear of the Lord is to hate evil. The fear of the Lord leads to life. ] Basa niya.

"Ano to?." Tanong pa nito.

"Just a reminder."

"Reminder of what?."

"You'll know soon once you believe that God exists."

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"..be careful, the devil is not what you think it looks like. It can reshape itself as something that your heart considers appealing. People usually sin because they don't practice self control, so they became slaves of their own desires. Once they are, they usually don't know the way out of it."

EOFB

No wonder why Gabb looks so so attractive to my senses. Nice try there devil, but it won't certainly work on me.

Biglang bumukas ang pinto, speaking of--

Of course she looks good, ironically she's not.

"Pupunta lang ako ng ball field, sama ka?." She said politely.

"Uh no. Okay nako dito."

"Okay?. Uh sige ah." Sabi lang nito at umalis na. Haaayst nakahinga narin ng maluwag.

Kinuha ko ang journal ko at nagsimula nang isulat ang mga pangyayari sa araw nato.

7pm. Umuwi na si Gabb. Hinatid siya nina Belle at Coleen. Tinitingnan ko lang sila mula dito sa bintana sa taas.

"Bye, bukas ulit!." Sabi sa kanila ni Gabb sabay pasok. 

Tinuloy ko lang ginagawa ko, ang pananahi ng basahan. Pumasok na si Gabb sa kwarto at nagbihis. Ella, wag titingin sa tukso. Kalma lang. Hingang malalim, buga.

"Ano yan?. Basahan?." Tanong nito. Pero pinigilan ko lang na wag syang tingnan.

"Ah oo. Kumain ka na, may hinanda nakong pagkain sa baba."

"Di pako gutom eh. Kumain na kami kanina ng team."

"Okay."

"Do you know other activities na di--uh boring?."

"Boring? What are you talking about? This is not boring."

"It is. Well, you mentioned one time that you dance. Pwede ko bang makita yun?."

"Di mo ba nakikita na may ginagawa ako?."

"Later na yaaan. Eh halos buong araw ka na kaya dito sa kwarto. You should feel some adrenaline rush or something." Tabi nya ng mga gamit at ng hawak kong tela.

"Gabb--"

"I just want to dance with you." She said sincerely. What's up with this girl?. Gosh. Hormones, calm down. Pinatayo nya ko and placed my hands on the right places, in a dancing position. Tinitigan nya lang ako,

"Chill, we're not doing anything bad. Sayaw lang to haha." Napansin nya sigurong medyo kabado ako.

We started slow dancing. Nakatitig lang kami sa isa't isa. She's so gentle and perfect. I hate it. I hate this.

So I never really knew you
God I really tried to
Blindsided, addicted
Thought we could really do this
But really I was foolish
Hindsight it's obvious

Her eyes, nose, lips. It feels like they're pulling me closer to death. I hate it. I hate this. BUT I COULD NOT SAY NO.

Talking with my lawyer
She said where'd you find this guy
I said young people fall in love
With the wrong people sometimes

I don't know what got into her but she just suddenly pulled me closer crashing our lips together. Again, I hate it but I could not say no. I found myself kissing her back passionately na parang bigla kong nakalimutan lahat ng pinanghahawakan ko.

She slowly laid me down the bed, slowly taking off each clothing I have. She then kissed and sucked my neck hungrily. I pulled her body closer to mine. And the rest is history.

Some mistakes get made
That's alright, that's okay
You can think that you're in love
When you're really just in pain
Some mistakes get made
That's alright, that's okay
In the end it's better for me
That's the moral of the story, babe

Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh-oh 
Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

Sabi niya sayaw lang. Ella, what happened to self control?.