𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑽𝑬𝑫 𝑨𝑭𝑭𝑬𝑪𝑻𝑰𝑶𝑵 ➣ Dabi

hurt him

"Ah! I love it! It's so pretty! And it'd be so cute you splatter some blood—"

"No, Toga," Dabi says. "She doesn't want blood on her walls. Or," he says when Toga opens her mouth to speak, "jars of blood."

When you and Dabi got back, Toga offered to help you decorate your room. She found some random items in the closet and used those. For example: She hung up posters of pro heroes and crossed them out with a big X. And then she put broken glass on the shelves Compress put up for you. Shigaraki gave you a ripped and tattered blanket that sits on your white covers you took from your apartment. There was a string of lights that you put in the back of the van that you put up while the rest of them fought over what should go where. Toga found a white fuzzy carpet, that had wine splatters, as Dabi said to you when you started to freak out when you thought it was blood, on it. That went in the middle of the room. And Compress and Spinner moved your bed for you to give you more access to your closet which now hangs with your clothes. You actually kind of like your room. It's not bad. It doesn't feel great and you don't love the posters but it'll work for you. So you don't mind. Not at all.

Toga sticks her bottom lip out and pouts. "No fun."

"Too bad, so sad," Dabi says deadpan. "Let's go, Doll. We've got something new to try today."

You freeze, your heart going cold wondering what he means by that. However, his cold stare forces you to keep moving and step up to him, where he leads you down stairs with a hand on your back. You don't feel like you can break away so you tug at your oversized sweater. It's a bright blue that hands to your mid-thighs and past your hands. But it makes you feel comfortable so you wear it often.

"What are we doing?" you ask softly.

Dabi looks down at you like he didn't hear you. But then he gets it and he shrugs. "Shigaraki wants to test your quirk some more."

"Oh."

"Aw, is my Little mouse getting nervous?" he asks, a small smirk on his lips.

You quickly shake your head, ignoring the fact that he put my in front of Little mouse, and hide your heated face from him. He just cups your chin harshly jerks you to him, facing him.

"Use your words."

"No," you choke out.

"Good girl."

You follow him into the bar where Shigaraki and Kurogiri sit.

"Finally," Shigaraki says. "Everyone's there already. Let's go."

Dabi rolls his eyes. "In a rush, are we?"

Shigaraki flips him off. "Fuck you, Dabi."

"Only if Y/n's involved," he says coolly, your name rolling off his tongue so smoothly.

You gasp, your face going completely red, your eyes widening. He didn't just. . . .? Did he?

Shigaraki gags as Kurogiri opens a warp gate for the four of you to walk through. Dabi pushes you through, revealing the old warehouse. Toga and Twice stand together, crouching down as Toga stabs a bug with her knife and laughs. Magne is by Spinner and Compress is on his own with a marble in his hand.

You frown, unwanted memories hitting you like a tidal wave. Last time you were here you could barely stand on your own. Last time you were here you were pushed to over exertion to the point of passing out. It was not fun nor did the after math feel good.

Dabi looks down at you and frowns. "No need to fret, Doll. We don't want to hurt you. You're a part of us now."

Right. You're a villain. You work with them. You help them.

Shigaraki turns to you and crosses his arms. "Y/n," he says. "We know you can help others but can you hurt others? Like how you," he pauses, trying to find the words. "Boost our cells or whatever. Can you slow them down? Make them stop?"

You blink, looking from Dabi to Shigaraki. Is he serious? Dabi said you didn't have to hurt anyone. He said you were fine. Well, he said you're going to help the people who hurt people. So, if you really think about it, what's the difference? You're still hurting people. You're letting bad people live so they can hurt others. You're helping them. No matter how you look at it, you're the bad guy too. There's no way to say you're an exception or it doesn't really count. It counts. But at least you didn't have to outright hurt someone. You didn't have to be the one to actually inflict the pain put upon them. No. You were just a helper. A healer. That's all. Not this. Never this. This is not what you wanted.

"Spinner," Shigaraki rasps out. Spinner quickly runs up to the two of you, disregarding Dabi who hovers next to you with his hands in his pockets. "Y/n, I want you to try to hurt him."

You shake your head, backing up and touching a finger to your lips. But you just run into Dabi. His hands grab your shoulders and push you forward, closer to Spinner.

"But Dabi," you say.

"Relax. You've got to try."

"But you said—"

"I say a lot of bullshit, baby. You can't always listen to me."

"But I—"

"It'll be fine. Do you know that you can hurt him?" You shake your head softly. "Then there's nothing to worry about. It's just an experiment. Now go on. Hurt him."

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"I can't!" you cry, tears beginning to flood your eyes.

Dabi sighs when Shigaraki nods at him. So, Dabi does as he was told. He lights his hand up in flames and traps you against his back so you can't escape. You squirm but he fights back. And his flames. They're getting so close. Too close. Really close. It burns. It's burning you. You try to move but nothing is working. Your skin feels scalding and you squeal.

"Dabi!" you scream.

"Hurt him," he says.

You cry, tears streaking your cheeks as you hyperventilate, staring at Spinner and trying to hurt him. It's not working. You're trying so hard. You picture his cells stopping. You picture him slowing down. You picture him suddenly collapsing and writhing in pain as he begs for you to stop. You try so, so hard to hurt him like Dabi asked. His flames lick your skin, your sleeve already burnt away, hurting your skin even more. It's not working. Spinner just stands there bored. 

You try so hard. So damn hard to hurt Spinner but it's not working. And the flames are burning your skin and you can't breathe and your sobbing and it hurts. Everything hurts. Your tears. You chest. Your head. Your heart. Your arm. It hurts. 

You scream as his flames get closer. Closer. Closer. Closer. Closer. Closer. Closer. Closer. Closer. Closer. Closer. Closer. Closer. Closer. Closer. Closer. Closer. Closer. Closer. Closer. Closer. Closer. Closer. Closer.

And then it stops. You gasp and your eyes snap open.

"She's done," Dabi says, irritated.

"She didn't try," Shigaraki snaps.

"I tried!" you squeal. "I swear it! I can't do it! Please," you beg, sobbing. "Please don't burn me."

"She's just a healer. Deal with it. You've got plenty of sociopaths and psychos on your team. You don't need another one. Kurogiri," he says, taking your hand and pulling you away.

He drags you through, anger boiling him to the point where his hand is burning yours even.

He's pissed. And you can't tell if he's pissed at you or something else.

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