𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑽𝑬𝑫 𝑨𝑭𝑭𝑬𝑪𝑻𝑰𝑶𝑵 ➣ Dabi

it's starting

You shiver in the cold wind. Dabi's hand being the only warm thing in the cold air. He took your hand the moment the gate opened. But it won't be for long. Because now he leaves to go fight and take Bakugou while you stay up here and boost their quirks. You can't help but feel guilty. You haven't even done anything yet but still. It's not okay. You can't take kids because you stronger members for your team. That's not how this works.

Dabi smiles and turns around. Shigaraki put him in charge of this mission so what he says goes. "Let's split up. And when see blue flames burning, tahts your cue. Remember our goal. We aren't here to kill and take whoever we want. We're here to get the kid and leave. Understand? You guys are supposed to be distractions so Compress and I can grab him." He smiles down at you. "Now let's get started."

Toga runs up to hug you and kisses you cheek, telling you good luck. Twice pats your shoulder before standing behind Dabi. Then the group disperses, breaking off to the designated areas for the mission.

The Vanguard Action squad is what Shigaraki called you guys before you left. And Dabi smiles as he says it again, watching his team members run off to their respectful places.

"Dabi," you say.

"Yes, love?"

You sigh, squeezing your eyes shut. "Be careful. Please don't get caught."

He smirks and leans down, cupping your chin and lightly pecking your lips. "Don't stress, Doll. I have you on my side."

Your heart constricts, your eyes watering, and your chest heaving with hysterical breaths. He's trusting you. They're all trusting you. And what can you do? What if you freak out? What if you get caught? Will you be a failure? A disappointment?

You quickly wrap your arms around Dabi's waist, giving him a tight hug before shoving him away and telling him it's time to go. He smiles, giving you one last look before he and Twice begin the short trek down the mountain. The moment he's out of your sight, you begin pacing, playing with the ends of your hair and biting your lip. He's a kid. A fucking kid. Whose school has been attacked by the League once before and is about to be attacked again. There's not even as many heroes here which gives you a higher chance of succeeding in this mission.

You could run away. Run. Away. Who would stop you? How could they find you if you turned them in? Right?

But home. Shigaraki wants you to come home. That's your home now. You moved out of your apartment, told your landlord you were leaving, and you moved all your belongings into your new room. They are your family, or the closest things you've got. Toga's like a sister, a protective sister who would kill for you. And even Twice, Compress, and Shigaraki act like protective older brothers. The other day, you stubbed your toe and Twice and Compress were the first two to come to your rescue. Dabi was out during then, otherwise it would've been him to carry you up the stairs, not Twice. Shigaraki teaches you how to play video games. You're not very good at it but you like to sit next to him in his room and watch. He's really good. Kurogiri is always willing to let you sit him with him while he reads. You'll sit on his chair, your eyes closed, your head empty as his classical music plays in the back and he reads a philosophical book of some sort. Sometimes he'll read to you. Compress shows you card tricks and is teaching you how to shuffle. Twice watches TV with you in the living room of your hideout. The bar is just the cover. Go in deeper and there's more. Like a living room, a kitchen, and a room for everyone. There's an apartment of sorts above the bar. And it's your home.

Your home.

You take a deep breath. Sure, they're messed up. But isn't everyone? They've just been bruised and broken since day one. They've been bullied into this life style. They're trying. Heroes have ruined everything for them. Heroes have treated them like shit and it's their turn to fight back. How can you hate them when underneath it all, they're just as human as anyone else? They've just been tormented to hate.

Just like you.

You lift your head up to see Dabi's blue flames beginning to burn through the woods. Taking a deep breath and shutting your eyes, you focus on him, focus on the way he breaths, the way he talks, the way he stands. Focusing on his quirk and how it travels through his veins. You focus on healing him along the way. And when you open your eyes, you see his fire growing stronger.

If only you knew where they all were. You're just stuck hoping they're okay as you heal them, protect them. So, slowly, you begin to focus on others. It's not easy. Healing so many at once is difficult so you're doing it in short spasms. Just small bursts of energy. You sit down to help focus more, to give you more relaxation. Sometimes, if you focus hard enough, you can sense what's wrong with someone. You can find that one cell that's killing the others. It's not easy. In fact, it takes a lot of energy out of you, so you refrain from doing so as you carefully help them all.

When your head starts pounding, you take a break. They can handle one moment without you. The fire is burning completely. And in the distance, you hear laughing, screaming, crying. You have to bite your lip. You're the bad guy. So don't fight it. It'll be fine. It's fine.

But when you're about to start up again, the ground starts shaking. You hear a scream. No, two screams. Kids. Your heart freezes but you fight it. But when you hear another loud smash, you frown and look over the edge.

You know that kid. It's Izuku Midoriya. But you don't recognize the other one. The one that's younger. And there's Muscular. You wince when he grows in size, his muscles getting so big outside his body. You scream when he hits the ground, causing you to fall forward. Thankfully, he notices you and catches you before you can get badly injured.

"What are you doing here?" he asks, setting you down behind him.

You sigh. "I was up there. That was my post."

He frowns. "You better hurry off somewhere else before Dabi notices."

You nod, looking at Izuku before freezing. No. No. No. No. God, no. He knows you. He recognizes you. He was there that day you had to talk to Bakugou. He talked to you and tried to help you. He cared. And now here you are about to let him fight muscular. What kind of person are you?

A villain. You're a villain.

And you can't help it. You break down in tears, shaking your head, tears falling down your cheeks as you back away, looking from Muscular, Midoriya, and the kid.

"Miss, look out!" Midoriya yells.

Before you can fall off the edge of the cliff, Muscular sweeps out and grabs you, bringing you back. He frowns and puts you on the top of the cliff. "You have to be careful," he says. "Now go. They need you."

You nod, shaking with tears as you run off.

They need you.  

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