If Only

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Y/N's POV

"Tell me, Jen. Why are you still wearing it knowing you have a husband and a daughter?"

"I was never married to Kai." I have never been so confused in my life until now.

"But you told me you're inlove with him"

"-I was there. I watched you fall inlove with him"

"-You ditched our dates so you could be with that asshole."

"Y/N, I was-"

"I never knew you'd be the one to break me, Jennie. I trusted you. I've given you my life."

"-And when I found out you were pregnant, I lost my mind. I got so depressed to the point that I drink every night."

"-Did you even know that I had to go to therapy?" I gave a bitter laugh. It was hard to think about my past considering I haven't talked to anyone about it, well, except Mina. She was nothing but supportive of me. She knew I was broken and she helped me fix myself. She was the person I never knew I needed in my life.

"I knew you were pregnant and Kai's the father. I counted Ella's age and I found out that you were already pregnant when we broke up."

"You didn't even have the decency to tell me! I was in front of you that time. I asked you what was wrong and you should've told me the truth! You don't know how many times I thought of the things I did wrong. What happened to us? Was I not enough? What does Kai have that I don't? Am I not making you feel loved? Are you not happy with me anymore?" I didn't realize that I was crying until I felt her fingers brush against my cheek.

"I was never inlove with Kai. Mr. Yang told me to extend my contract about dating and I got so mad and depressed. I got drunk that night and I woke up with Kai beside me." My eyes widened and I have never felt more pain in my life.

"I found out that I was pregnant and I got scared. I wanted to tell you but I didn't know how. I knew you were already hurting and I couldn't bear to break you even more so I came up with a lie."

"I'm so sorry, Y/N. I really am." I felt her hands clutch my shirt as she sob before me. The information was too much to handle and I can feel the air was sucked out of me.

We stood outside for god knows how long. I managed to calm down and  lifted Jennie's chin up. When our eyes met, I knew in my heart that I have forgiven her.

"When I saw Ella, I wanted to get mad because she's Kai's kid. But then she smiled at me and all the anger I have for her just disappeared. I don't know why I love that kid so much when I should've been avoiding her."

"She adores you so much. I hope you can forgive me someday, Y/N"

"I've already forgiven you, Nini" she cried harder when she heard the nickname I used to call her, but this time, it was tears of joy. She was hesitating to get closer to me so I made a move and pulled her in for a hug.

And for the first time in six years, I feel at peace.

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No one's POV

Y/N was the first one to wake up and she laughed when she saw the girls sprawled on the floor and on the couch. She knew they will have a hungover so she brought out medicines and decided to cook a decent meal. She was silently cooking in the kitchen when she felt arms around her waist.

"Are you and Jennie okay now?" Y/N was taken aback by Mina's words.

"I saw you two talking last night. It seemed serious so I went back inside."