Broken - TommyInnit Angst

Chapter Five - The Present

TW: self harm, intrusive thoughts, purging, food restriction

1435 words

~~~~~

It was a cold December Friday afternoon, 5:00 to be exact, and Tommy was starting his stream.

"SUP CHAT," Tommy exclaimed as he started his stream. "LET'S GET SOME SUBS ROLLING BOYS!"

Tommy got quite a lot of viewers pretty fast, because he hadn't been streaming for over a week. Tommy was on winter break from college, so it surpised everyone when he didn't stream.

Tommy started humming along to the stream music, hyping himself up. The plan for today's stream was to meet up with Tubbo and trap BadBoyHalo and Skeppy's house. He was then hoping to make a video out of it.

"Layla K, thanks for the FIFTY GIFTED SUBS!? HOLY SHIT! 'He's only in it for the primes'," he read out loud. "I'M MARRIED TO THE GRIND BITCH," Tommy exclaimed as he took a sip of his diet coke.

Tommy kept reading comments out loud and replying to them, mostly laughing. There were a lot of comments saying they were concerned about him because he's so thin, but Tommy just ignored those, knowing they were being sarcastic. They all were.

"Why am I wearing a long sleeved hoodie?" Tommy read. "Have you realised it's fucking WINTER?! I can't just wear a short sleeved t-shirt, I'll freeze to death!" The boy exclaimed.

"Why haven't I streamed?" He asked outloud, reading a comment. "You know, I'm so famous, and I was really busy trying to sign autographs and shit. That's how amazing I am," He replied, laughing, trying to cover up what was really going on. Laughing and jokes were his go-to way of hiding what really went on behind the camera. He was trying his best to make sure no one found out. Even his friends didn't question why he wasn't streaming, they just assumed he was busy.

After having that nightmare in September, he had been desperate to lose weight. He worked out every day until he either fainted from exhaustion or got too dizzy, ate very little, and mostly lived off water and diet coke. The food that he did eat, afterwards he threw it up. So far, no one suspected anything. Even Tubbo, who he talked to and saw for most of the day, simply thought Tommy was slightly exhausted because of college work. At least that's what Tommy thought.

After talking to his chat for about five minutes, Tommy logged onto the SMP with Tubbo, and they started planning out their pranks for BadBoyHalo and Skeppy. They thought of a redstone trap that would kill the pair of innocent friends, and then lock them in obsidian with no tools, the only way of getting out being to punch the obsidian with your bare fists. Tommy and Tubbo found this hilarious, and as they were setting it up they realised that they needed help from Wilbur.

The group of friends checked the trap to make sure it was working, with each of them testing it in turn. The boys messed around for a bit, cracking jokes and imagining how BadBoyHalo and Skeppy would react. Out of nowhere, one of Tommy's dogs opened his door. And Tommy stood up to close it.

"Sorry about that guys, Betty just opened the door to my room," Tommy said.

"Wait your DOG?" Wilbur asked, pretty shocked.

"Yeah she does that alot," replied Tommy.

As Tommy replied to Wilbur, he looked in chat and most of it was just people exclaiming how thin he was. Tommy really regretted getting out of his chair at all. The thought of so many people talking in chat about what he looked like, just disgusted him. He was hoping that his discomfort didn't show on camera.

"Tommy you ok?" Asked Wilbur, concerned because he had Tommy's stream open and could see the discomfort on Tommy's face.

"Yeah I'm fine," replied Tommy.