Vampire Kisses

109: Kokichi

"Shuichi..." I whispered, moving my hands to cup his cheeks as I woke up. I didn't want to wake up because of what we were going to have to start today. The thought of having to be away from him was like a toxic cloud of gas. Filling your lungs with every continuous breath. Making you want to stop breathing, making you want to give into the smoke. Letting it consume your body, mind, and soul. Leaving you to wonder why you kept breathing in the first place.

"Ko...ki" He whispered back to me looking tired. Of course he is tired...I know when he is stressed he isn't able to calm down enough to sleep, so even if he is sleeping he isn't actually getting any rest at all. Sometimes I can help a bit with this..but most days it is challenging for both of us to actually sleep because of the danger we always feel as though we are in.

"We should get ready for today..." I whispered feeling my whole body slump...I can't believe this is going to be happening. Not for a week or even a month. We have to be apart for 5 months...I may end up losing my mind. Like that toxic feeling that burns your lungs and provokes so many new tears. It's painful and makes you feel as though you could just rot in a hole and die...never to be seen again by anyone.

Falling into the darker parts of your mind that always are there but tend to be forgotten. "Baby...I'm going to miss you so much..." Shuichi whispered against my shoulder as I changed into some day clothes. I felt a blush come to my face as I felt my need for affection increase as it does when he is around me.

"I know...it's going to be painful." I whispered, moving my hands to wrap his arms around my waist. He moved his arms to hold me close to him letting my head rest against his chest as I sighed to myself. This is so nice. But...the crushing reality is that this is going to be hard for the both of us. Even thinking about it is making me feel anxious.

"I don't want to leave you." He said letting some tears fall from his eyes. I felt bad because of this. He was crying because of this...I know I don't want him to feel bad or anything remotely bad, but in this scenario the best thing we can do for one another is be there for each other even if we aren't by each other's sides.

I slowly moved out of his arms and looked back at him. I didn't say anything. I just moved my arms around his back and let my head rest against his chest. It was a comforting feeling and made me feel okay in this small moment. "Hey, Shu." I whispered, moving my hands to cup his cheeks. He looked down at me with tears in his eyes.

"How about before we go I give you a jacket of mine and maybe even one of the stuffed animals that Anaki brought me from my room?" I asked before he smiled and let more tears fall. I smiled back at him and pulled his head down so I could place a kiss on his lips. It was heartwarming and calming to me in a way, but I slowly moved away from him to get him the items I promised.

I gave him one of my oversized hoodies and he gave me one of his. I smiled a bit and put it on over the shirt I already had on. It was comforting to me, because I knew even if he wasn't holding me at the moment, I would be able to remember this and feel as though he was holding me. I blushed at this thought before I was cut off by something covering my shoulders.

"Shu?" I asked looking over my shoulder to see that he had put his blanket over my shoulders. "But Shuichi..." I started before he cut me off.

His hand was covering his mouth while there was a noticeable blush on his cheeks. It made me feel a little embarrassed as well. "I wanted to give you this...because it smells like me and I want you to be able to have something that can help you sleep." He whispered, making my heart melt at his words. He is so perfect, and just adorable! My heart can't take this!

"Thank you Shuichi, that makes me happy." I said before moving his hands away from his face so I could plant kisses on them. He smiled a bit at this and I noticed that he was still crying...but it was going to be okay.

"Hate to interrupt you two...but it's time to go." Cathy said leaning against the door frame. I sighed to myself before Shuichi just held my hand. "I'm going to be okay." Those words made me feel alright and made me feel like it would all be okay.

"Okay, I'm coming." I said before Shuichi walked me out of the house and to the car. I looked at him as the door to the car was open and I sat in the car in the back seat. There was a bag with my clothes and necessities in it on the seat next to me. "Shuichi, I" I said before he cut me off moving his lips to hush my words.

"Just stay safe okay..." He whispered, planting another kiss on my cheek before slowly closing the door. Kurai was standing by his side and Shuichi looked like he was about to break down. I felt terrible because of this...but I said goodbye and waved as the car started driving...5 months without Shuichi by my side...I don't know if I can do this.

-Here is the chapter--sorry it wasn't out earlier I was getting the next part ready! So thank you for being patient with me!-

-SK-