Vampire Kisses

Journal of When we Parted {3}

Day 50- I feel so out of place here without you. Sure over the past--forever I lost count of the days...because being trapped here for all my days and all my nights it's making me feel as though no days are passing anymore. It's as though it's just one day all mushed together...it's honestly very disorienting. I thought about my mother today, and it just made me feel more alone that I had to deal with those memories alone...

I would want to be there for you...but there is only a while longer now. Then I will be able to hold you again.

I love you more than anything

Mountains

Wind

Land

And sea

You are my everything

So remember even if you can't be here with me

That we will be together in your dreams.

Day 60- I miss your sweet words...I have been getting so sad it's hard to do anything...so if I don't write much. I apologize.

I'm sorry you are feeling that way, I would be there to hold you...but sadly I am unable.

Sleep and rest

You can rest now love

Don't worry because

When we meet it will only be

Kisses and hugs

So remember the feeling of my arms

Around your waist

Rubbing your back

As you sleep

Just remember I always see

You here loving me

Day 70-

Kokichi, just remember I love you. Make sure you eat and take care of yourself. I love you.

Day 80- This is Syn, I wanted to let you know that Kokichi is doing alright. I have been helping Cathy and Anaki to take care of him. He misses you more than anything, so know that.

Thank you for that Syn, I do apologize that I am unable to do so for the time being...but thank you.

Day 81- It's quite alright Shuichi, this needed to happen and we both know that. It's all to keep Kokichi safe and that's what we both want.

I know that, I just want to remind you that I want to be able to help in some way...could you maybe use your powers to make him remember the memories of me and him so he can calm down a bit?

Yes I can do so,

Thank you for that, I want to thank you so much for doing all of this.

Day 92- Kokichi has been doing better but he refuses to speak to anyone. He hasn't been talking for almost two weeks now.

I see, he must be under a lot of stress...I do wish him the best. I want to be there to help him feel better but I do know that may end up never happening in this time now. So I will rely on you. Kurai should be coming over there over the next two days to bring Kokichi some of my jackets and some more snacks. It should help with it.

Day 100- Hey! I noticed you had Kurai bring me some things! I wanted to thank you...I still don't want to use my voice, but I feel better and haven't been crying all day since you gave me some things that are warm with your scent. It made me feel safe and happy.

I am so glad that I was able to do so, just think of me holding you when you wear them. Remember soon it will be me holding you in my arms.

Day 110- Only a month and week remain--well or 5 weeks I guess. I want to be back now--but I guess I can wait for a little longer.

I can't wait to be back together, I promise I will hold you and make everything feel alright. Because I love you more than anything...and I want you to feel alright.

Day 111- Thank you for that Shu, I love you! Let's get through these next days and weeks with our heads held high!

I will remember that, thank you for making me smile today.

Sunshine

You always make me smile

Even when my skies are grey

I love you

So remember my song coming from my heart.

"Hey

How you been?

Just checking in

'Cause I miss you

I'm jealous of the wind

That feels your skin

'Cause it has you

And I know, and I know, and I know that

I'm going too fast

But I don't, no I don't, no I don't know

How to hold back

Don't wanna show, wanna show, wanna show that

I want this to last

And I never thought I'd say this, say this

No, I never thought I'd say this

But I think about you"

Day 120- I have been listening to the playlist you sent me...so I will always feel safe when I listen to them even if you aren't here with me.

I am glad they were able to help a bit my love...just a little longer now

Day 130- Shumai! I was able to paint some water color today! I know that is unrelated to how we only have 22 days left! But I know you will love it when I get back and give it to you!

That's great! I am so glad you were able to do that, it's always nice to do things like that! I would love to see it when you get back, I miss you more than anything! Just remember I love you.

Day 150- I haven't been able to sleep because of how excited I am that you are going to be here in a little less than 48 hours! I have been trying to distract myself so the time passes faster but I just can't focus!

I understand that feeling Koki, I have been working on something for you as well, so I will give it to you when you get back! I am so excited for you to come back to me!

Day 152- The last day! I know I won't be able to sleep tonight because I have been thinking about you...but I want to be able to take a nap with you when we come back, because god I am so tired--

I will keep that in mind, see you soon my love,

Missing you

But the time we parted

Will soon end

I will be here with you again

Never to leave you alone

Like this with no end

I will be here to hold you

I love you

-Here is the end of the journal entries, next part will be the reunion! Thank you all so much for reading!-

-SK-