Vampire Kisses

43: Kokichi

"Shu," I said before pausing for a moment. I could tell something was bothering Shuichi...and I know it must be because he is overly worried about this situation. "It's okay to be scared," I find it kind of him to be so concerned about me...but for me and his sake I need to change into a vampire...so we can both be safe and be able to keep our bond.

"Then after that Kokichi is going to need some rest. After he wakes up make sure to give him that food as well as some pain killers." Cathy said before she left the room. I heard the door close as I kept my gaze on him.

"Shuichi, look at me," I said. I knew for a fact that he was overly nervous about this...just like after the first time he bit me. He nervously moved his gaze to me. I could see the worry and contention that must be going on in his head...I hoped that maybe me being calm could make him feel a little more at ease.

"It's okay to be scared,  know that I'm a little scared as well...but I want you to do this so we can both be safe, I love you and nothing could change that," I said gently moving my hand to the side of his face. I felt his cheeks heat up before he moved on top of me. His legs were on either side of me as I lay beneath him. I wrapped my arms around his neck and I felt him flinch. I could feel him hesitate for a moment before he planted a kiss on my shoulder.

My shirt was restraining so I started unbuttoning the front of my shirt. Shuichi's face got even redder if this was even possible. I laughed to myself. I wanted to tease him at the moment because it was the perfect opportunity to...but I decided against it.

"Kokichi-" He started while he went to move his head away. I shrugged the sleeves of my shirt off my shoulders so he would have better access to my neck. This cut him off as well as the fact that I moved his mouth back down to my neck.

"Shuichi, stop hesitating," I said, sounding a little more demanding than I meant to sound.

"Sorry, I know you are nervous about this..." I paused moving my fingers to rub the skin on the back of his neck. He flinched at the touch at first before he became more relaxed. He slowly moved his lips back to my shoulder. I smiled at this before I flinched.

His teeth came in contact with my skin before they ended up breaking through the skin as the times he has done this before. When he did this my whole body shuddered at the sensation. I felt so connected to him just as all the other times we have done this before. It was as if we were more connected than before. I held his head in place and let my body go limp against the bed. I wanted to move around to move closer to him but only ended up feeling weak as if Shuichi could have taken my life then and there...but I trust him and know that he wouldn't do that.

After a few moments of him drinking my blood as he has done times before he pulled away before looking into my eyes. There was some blood dripping off the side of his mouth while his cheeks were still the same red color they were before. The moonlight coming through the window made all of his features seem more real, more genuine. His face looked confused while at the same time he seemed fairly embarrassed. Honestly, this made me want to wrap my arms around him and kiss him.

I wanted him to come closer to me, even though we were only inches apart. It still felt so lonely lying on the bed while he was away from me. It almost felt like I was going to let these feelings take over me...and let the waterworks start. Breaking the barriers I have set in my persona, breaking down the walls that I have built up...for anyone but Shuichi.

Somehow he is able to make me feel okay, he is able to make me feel whole...able to make me feel love. I have never understood love before and I blame it on all the people who tainted the meaning of love. My mother has shown me love, Shuichi has shown me love, and I wouldn't give up what the two of them have given me for anything...but I would gladly forget all the people who tainted the meaning of love, making so many people confuse it with lust.

I felt Shuichi's breath on my neck and it made me feel more connected to him. The bite on my neck felt sensitive like all the skin on my body. I felt so vulnerable in this state...but I felt safe as well, because it was just me and Shuichi here together. Nothing else in the world coming between us, no one else in the world coming between us. Just me and him there together as we would become one.

Shuichi moved back and bit into my neck again making my body flinch again. I groaned slightly at the pain of the venom coming into my body. It felt like I was on fire while at the same time I was freezing cold. I wanted to be warm while at the same time my body needed to cool down. I had to keep my pain under control so my reaction wouldn't make Shuichi feel even more guilty about this...as well as the fact that he could stop at any time and make the process fail.

The pain only lasted for a few moments before Shuichi pulled back. I looked into his eyes and felt like in that moment that I would be safe. There was a nice feeling that came over my senses making me feel exhausted all of a sudden.

He said some things to me but I could barely hear him because my senses all became so blurry. "Shu...?" I mumbled out before my world went black.

-Sorry this part was kind of rushed, today I had no time to write at all so now (when I'm supposedly supposed to be sleeping) I was able to take a break and get some writing done! Thank you all so much for reading!!-

-Saichi Kohana-