Vampire Kisses

30: Shuichi

Homework is always a pain...but when I just want to cuddle it's even harder. Kokichi is so warm and being close to him, feeling him against me, and being able to be calm for once...it's addicting to me.

Just like getting home after walking through a snowstorm to be met with a warm bath. The warm water defrosting your fingers and toes while you relax next to the one you care about. After getting all warmed up you get dried off with dryer heated towels. The soft fabric makes you feel tired but you have to get changed into some warm pajamas to be able to go and cuddle together near the fireplace.

The heat of the fireplace warms the whole room creating this safe spot where you and the one you love is bundled up in your arms as you both sit in the presence of one another. The quiet sounds that the fireplace is making. Soft crackles and soft fuming noises. While the quiet breaths of the one you are holding close to you calms your mind and heart of the cold you feel.

"Shuichi, how do you do this problem?" Kokichi asked, moving around on my lap so he was facing me. I looked down at him and felt like I was in heaven.

His beautiful face with all his small features. His small nose, his beautiful eyes, his small ears, his small hands, and his hair to frame his porcelain face. His hair is so smooth and his neck and chest are so warm while his heart beats. It's a beautiful sound that is mesmerizing to me. The soft rhythm he forms with his heart and breath...it makes all of my thoughts and pain go away. It makes me forget that I am no longer human...helps me forget all of the pain I have from hurting him...and being a monster.

"Oh, you have to make sure to start and do all the steps. Here this goes here and then you move that over there." I wrote some quick notes on his paper showing him how to set up the problem properly. He smiled at me and immediately got to work after placing a small kiss on my cheek.

I felt my face heat up, but only because of the overwhelming love I am feeling for my Kichi. He means more than anything to me...and I want him to be able to know that all the time. Even if we have this bond, which reminds me. We have known each other for a long time...I mean before I moved and my parents made me forget about before...

I wonder how I felt about him then? I mean I did kiss him, at least that's what I remember...vaguely. I remember all the good memories we had together before then...but I still wonder why my parents took me away from him if I was happy there and felt more loved being around Kokichi and his mother all the time...rather than being around them and getting neglected all the time...feeling so alone.

"Thank you...Shuichi?!" He poked my cheek making me realize I was crying. I quickly wiped my tears feeling confusion cloud my thoughts. Was I crying remembering my parents? Or remembering having to leave Kokichi?

"Are you ok?" He asked a little more gentler this time. I blushed and nodded my head. Does this mean he just had the same feeling...is that how he- well I was crying just now so there is also that...

"Yeah sorry," I whispered with a smile on my face. I didn't know if the smile was genuine or not...but at the moment I didn't want him to have to worry about me

"You don't have to apologize, what's making you cry?" He said sternly, making me flinch a bit.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you...I just want to know what's wrong," He said quickly after. He was holding onto my shoulders and looking into my eyes. This position made me feel nervous...not because he was too close to me or anything...I just feel nervous telling people about what's wrong.

"It's ok...I was just thinking about my parents..." I whispered, feeling all the memories coming back after saying that one word.

. . .

"Hey mom!" I screamed looking down at my finger. I accidentally cut myself while helping her with dinner. I was already freaking out seeing all the blood dripping onto the cutting board.

"What is it? I'm trying to get this done Shuichi," She said sternly, making me flinch. I knew better than anyone that when she uses that tone you don't bother her no matter what.

"S-Sorry," I whispered quickly, going to the bathroom to bandage my hand while trying to keep my tears and screams at bay. I silently sobbed into my hand before I heard her yell from downstairs.

"Shuichi come clean this mess up!" She yelled. I immediately wiped my tears away and put a smile on my face. I can't make her angry...

"Ok! Sorry!" I yelled back with a smile. I felt tears in my eyes still but I still went downstairs to clean up the cutting board.

"You shouldn't have made a mess in the first place..." She sighed putting her hand on her head. She always gets mad when something doesn't go her way...and I'm always making mistakes...I am a mistake...

. . .

I sighed and let my head fall onto his shoulder. I felt so useless and tired that I just wanted to hold him to try and feel better.

"I'm so sorry Shu...I had no idea..." He whispered, placing gentle kisses on my cheek down to my neck. It made me calm down...but I still felt sad. I made him worry about what has already happened...I should be over it now anyway, I'm just a useless idiot...

"It's ok to feel sad about it, just let yourself cry. I'm right here for you," He said moving one of his hands to my hair to gently stroke my head. I shivered at the feeling and because of my tears and crying. But I didn't let it bother me too much...I just let myself cry against Kokichi. Feeling all of my weakness and vulnerability come out in my cries.

"Are you feeling better now?" He asked after my tears and sobs came to a close. I smiled and looked up at him.

"Yeah...thank you so much," I whispered, putting a hand on his cheek before pulling him in for a kiss. He smiled against my lips and wrapped his arms around my neck. I want this to be how I feel, I want to feel ok.

-Today's update, I have math homework and national government homework today...so that's going to be fun. Thank you all so much for reading!!-

-ShuichiOuma010-