suck my dick (jihan smvt)

20.

jisoo flinched at the memory and said "i remember when jisoo went to one of those religious camps and was there for six months without seeing the light of day until he was released when he was 'cured' i can't believe that it's legal, they literally made him kiss other 'sick' girls to cure themselves, but how can i remember that if i'm jeonghan?" he said and stood up to walk away from the meteors that were falling beside him

jeonghan gasped "although i'm jisoo i can remember jeonghan was tortured by some classmates, remember? you were kidnapped for a day and beaten until you passed out, even got cut and burned with cigarettes, that's why you have those scars on your thighs" he said

jisoo looked at his thighs "yes, these scars are a reminder of being beaten by my dad because i was caught when i was about to kiss my male best friend in my room" he said, talking about what he remembered jeonghan had told him had happened to him

"no, when you were kidnapped it was because you were wearing eyeliner and had had sex with your kidnapper's brother"  jeonghan explained his own experience still thinking jisoo was him

"oh i see, you were the one that came out to your parents and got sent to that conversion therapy religious camp, but that was a long time ago i think, didn't that happen when you were 12?" jisoo asked about himself

jeonghan concentrated and said "i think it did" as he stared at the bed that now had a huge mouth not wanting it to eat him

"you're so fucked up" they both said at the same time

they started laughing crazily "we're so funny" jeonghan said as he stared at jisoo "you look like a mirror"

jisoo flinched and stared at the closet "it's changing colors so quickly" he said in amusement "i think i'm just really fucking high" he said and smiled

"we are" the older said and giggled "i told you this was going to be fun"

he didn't how much time passed until he fell asleep but the next thing he knew was that he woke up and only remembered a few images or seconds of weird things that didn't make sense

everything was back to normal so he figured out he wasn't high anymore, he turned his head to see beside him and saw jeonghan asleep with eyeliner on and intense hickeys on his neck

"what the fuck?" he whispered and sat up only to see himself in the mirror and furrow his eyebrows, he was wearing eyeliner too

he stretched his arms up and yawned "what day is it?" he asked to himself and checked his phone "motherfucker" he gasped

it had been two days since they had gotten high, he thought he had just been high for a few hours and then had fallen asleep

he remembered giving jeonghan those hickeys and the older putting eyeliner on them both saying that he used to love to wear it but after what had happened, never could

he also remembered a starry night and several conversations with jeonghan as well as colorful objects that talked to him, the thing they both both remembered the most was their conversation about how jisoo had been sent to a conversion therapy religious camp and was forced to kiss girls so he would stop liking boys and how jeonghan had been kidnapped, cut and burned for hooking up with a closeted guy that told his homophobic brother in fear of what they had done

suddenly jeonghan opened his eyes with an uncomfortable expression "fuck, my head hurts" he said

jisoo hummed "are you hungover?" he asked

"we did mushrooms and weed, not alcohol, this is just what happens when you do drugs frecuently, sometimes you start getting these horrible symptoms from your body begging you to stop" replied with a chuckle and sat up

he saw himself in the mirror and stood up immediately to walk over to the bathroom to wash his face "you okay?" jisoo asked

jeonghan wiped his face hardly making it red until the eyeliner faded away so he finally looked at himself in the bathroom mirror "yeah, i'm fine" he said

"eyeliner" the younger accidentally said out loud as he remembered jeonghan and him having a conversation about it before he put it on them

the older stayed serious and looked at him, knowing that they both remembered what they had talked about but changed the subject quickly "you're not that boring when you're high" he joked

"fuck off" jisoo rolled his eyes and walked over to the bedroom "can you believe we were high for two days?" he asked

jeonghan yawned "yes, but we were probably out for a about a whole day, these hickeys look old and since we got really, really high, it's likely we were too tired so we were unconscious for a whole day or so" he explained

"look" the younger sighed "i don't know what you remember but i do remember some fucked up conversations and really good sex" he said

"forget anything i said, it was- it's all really fucked up" jeonghan sighed briefly and rubbed his eyes trying to act natural not liking that he was vulnerable with jisoo and told him about things that had happened in a sad way, then started dressing himself with more comfortable clothes "plus, i also remember what you told me, we don't have to talk about any of it"

"yeah, that's fine" jisoo said and puffed his cheeks "so we had sex, right?" he asked as he combed his hair

"multiple times" jeonghan said unbothered

"well i only remember me giving you those hickeys in a very intense way" the younger smirked slightly

"that was kinky as fuck" the other replied "although i don't remember whose idea it was" he said as he remembered himself with his hands tied up above his head onto the bed and with a tie being used as a blindfold while moaning crazily below jisoo "they do sting a bit if i touch them though, you fucking leach"

the younger giggled and licked his lips "you're right, it was fun" he said