Slowly Healing (Sequel to Jerk Theory)

Chapter 24

Heartbreak Girl ~ 5 Seconds of Summer
Independence Day ~ 5 Seconds of Summer

*Louis' P.O.V.

I question the things I do from day to day. I wonder how I got to where to where I am currently. Heartbroken and betrayed. I try to think of what i did to deserve this. I can't even fathom what I'm feeling. We got to the point where we knew exactly where our future was taken us. I should've seen the signs, they were all there right in front of me. It's my fault for all of this, but at the same time it's not.

She played me like a board game, and she lost. I knew the game before she could tell me herself. I overreacted, but who wouldn't? You just found out the girl you're in love with is pregnant and it's not your child, you're going to react some how. I did it the way I know, and that's yelling. Just like my father, when things got bad with him and mum he just left. He gave up on everything. I'm turning into the man I vowed to never become.

Now here I am, even more lost than before and confused. That's why I'm packing up my shit. I've done nothing but drink since the night I found out Alyssa was with child. I wish there was another way but there isn't. The more I stay the harder it is for be stop something before it starts. It's really only for me. I'll be away from all of my distractions.

I already know the long term effect of me doing this, but it's time. My sisters will be torn, and Alyssa, who even knows how she'll react. She has Luke now though, and although I wish it was me he probably is better for her. I realized that after I talked to him at the baby shower, in which I stupidly asked Alyssa to marry me.

I'm not taking all of my things; just the necessities, but enough to fit in a duffle bag. I know it's so cliché that I'm running away from my problems, but where else will I fix them? Staying here is only making it harder for me.

My phone vibrates in my pocket as I'm zipping up the bag. I reach into my pocket and pull out my phone. It's a text from Rachael.

'Let me know when you're all packed. I'll stop by your house. X - Rachael.'

Rachael and I really hit it off. I guess you could say we're friends, but we're still working out all the detail. I sent her a text back saying anytime is fine.

It's 2:30 in the morning, and here I am leaving. I'm leaving everything behind. I'm leaving my life behind, my family, my future, my personal belongings, but most importantly, my love. I'm leaving without a goodbye, or a forewarning. It's better for everyone if I just leave. I'll be out of everyone's lives really soon, and they won't have to worry about me making the wrong move.

I quietly walk into the main floor, and place my bag down. I decide I might as well check on my sisters one last time considering this may be the last time I ever see them.

I start in Kenna's room, remembering everything we went through together. We're two years apart, but we have one of those brother sister relationships all siblings want. Of all the girls, she's going to be the most hurt by this. We have this unbreakable bond, which I'm about break. I kiss her forehead whispering how I'd miss her. Then slowly walk out of her room, closing the door behind me.

I walk across the hall to Lottie and Fizzy's room. All the torturing they did to me, and the playful banters we had. Everything, it's all about to be memories. Everything from my life here is just going to be a distant memory. Memories I will never let go of.

I kiss the girls on the forehead as well, wishing I didn't have to leave it this way.

Last, but not least, I headed to the twins room. The memories I have with the littlest mostly contain multiple tea parties I was forced to attend, but I'm grateful, kissing them on the foreheads then heading downstairs to end this chapter of my life.

In the end I lived a decent life here, but you can't hold on to something if you're the only one holding on to it in the end. If I could do it all over again, I wouldn't change a thing. Alyssa taught me how to love, and though I wish I could love her forever, I'm sure there is another girl out there. She may even be greater than Alyssa. Who am I kidding? I will never love someone as much as I did Alyssa, for I know there's a part of me that will always belong to her.

*Alyssa's P.O.V.

This is the third time in the night that I've gotten up, most of the time was to throw up. I can't go back to sleep, it's going to be impossible. Since I'm up I walk over to the room Luke is staying in and crack the door opened. I walk in, and see he's asleep.

"Luke!" I whisper yell, and he doesn't wake. I forgot how hard it is to wake him. I look around the room looking for something to throw at him. I decided on a shoe. I picked it up and chucked it at him.

"Ow! What the fuck!" He yells, causing me to laugh.

"Sorry Luke, but I was up and I can't go back to sleep." I say stifling a laugh.

"So you decide to wake me up!" He says, maybe slightly angry I woke him. In my defense though, I'm bored and it's 2:30 in the morning.

"Well it's either you or my mom, and I know you can't stay mad at me!" I say shielding myself from anything that could come from him.

"Well what the hell are you doing up at 2:30 in the morning?" He asks, rubbing his face in attempt to wake up.

"The baby, she keeps me up and wants to be awake while I sleep. It's frustrating being pregnant." I say sitting on his bed.

"Fine! I'll try staying up with you, but no promises!" He says caving in.

"That's fine." I say as he sits up.

"So Alyssa, can we please just act normal with each other? We were friends before this happened, can we still be that?"

A/N: EW Alyssa's part is awful, but I cried during Louis' part.

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Chapter Question: What's to craziest thing you've ever done?

My Answer: I stayed up 26 hours with no sleep, and I want to murder everyone that made me do that... But I'm ready to do it again.

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