I beforehand apologize for the excessive amount of songs by the same artist. They were the only ones I listened to, and the artist is a couple and their music gave me an image for this chapter.
Broken Frame ~ Alex & Sierra, Little Do You Know ~ Alex & Sierra, Back to You ~ Alex & Sierra
*Louis' P.O.V.
"I'm sorry Luke, I keep doing this. I need to talk to Louis alone for a bit." She says pointing in the direction of her room. I prepare myself for what is about to come.
I slowly step through the threshold of her room. There's clothes on the floor, bed unmade, broken glass in a pile. If I'm honest it looks like I spent a day in here.
"Do you want to tell me what the hell that was back there?" Alyssa says, stomping through the door shutting it behind her.
"He was pissing me off." I shrug.
"That is not a reason to be a fucking dick to someone!" She argues.
"Well it's the reason I'm giving you," I say, bluntly in response.
"You know I'm a person, and not just any person, one that you loved. You have no right to talk to me like that!" She says slightly raising her voice.
I can catch that this is going to end up being a screaming match between the two of us. The pattern has begun. One of us usually really fucks up, and the other getting mad.
"Exactly! I loved you! Hell I still do, so fucking much! I'm not the dick that ditch you after finding out you were pregnant!"
"Really?! You're "not the dick that ditched me?" If I don't recall, you told me you were done waiting for me, and you walked out of my life! That was a month ago Louis! I haven't seen you in a month, do you know what I did for that month?!
"I tried everything! Everything to get rid of this pain I feel in my chest, but do you realize when you're five months pregnant you can't do much. My mom kept a close eye on me, she was afraid! Louis, you broke me! If only Kenna waited two days to say anything.
"I know I hurt you by not telling you Louis, but I was scared! I didn't know how to tell you! That's why I slept with you when I came back, that's why I broke up you!" She yells, tears threatening to spill. I can tell by the way her voice sounds broken, and the way her lip is tucked under her teeth, biting down, so she doesn't burst out crying.
"I didn't mean any of what I said! You should know better than anyone I say things I don't mean all the time!" I counter. "You don't think I was hurting! While you were in America getting fucked, I stayed faithful! I may have gone out to a few clubs to have a little fun and get my mind off you, but I never could! I tried to get over you while you were in America, but anytime I was close to that I thought of how badly I hurt you last time. Turns out you were doing the exact thing I couldn't do!"
"I'm so sorry! What do you want from me? If I could take it all back I would, but I can't! I was careless, and under a lot of peer pressure! If it makes you feel better she was due to a drunken mistake! So go ahead and tell me how much of an idiot I am, I deserve it!" She says crying.
"Y-You're having a girl?" I say and my voice cracks, tears threatening to spill. She knows I've always wanted a girl. Marry her, and have a little girl running around our house that looks a lot like her. It's going to be so hard to love this kid.
"Yes, but it's not like you care." She spits, tears already running down her cheek.
"Why wouldn't I care?" I softly ask wiping her tears with my thumb, and she flinches under my touch.
"Maybe because you brought that slut here! Did you not think about how much it would hurt? I bet you even slept with her!"
"You can believe whatever shit you want, but just know I didn't sleep with her. I couldn't do that to you." I say softening my tone towards her.
"Then why is she here?"
"Cause she spent night with me last night. That's all we did, we talked and then fell asleep. At first we were going to, but we were hammered. Once we sobered up, we just talked." I say, then silence falls between us.
*Alyssa's P.O.V.
Why did I say that? I know better than to think he would do that. After he said that I didn't know what to say. Half of me wants to call him out for bluffing; the hurt part of me. The part of me that is still madly in love me want to believe him. I have kept the part of me that loves him more than anything hidden, I don't need him to know he still has this effect on me, though I'm sure he does.
"Why is he here?" He asks, showing his vulnerable side. At least it's not his anger. I feel like that's all be ever feels towards me these days.
"He's here father, as much as I wish it was you instead, it doesn't change the fact that he help make her. I want him in her life Louis! I don't want her to wonder where of who her dad is! He's not leaving, he's going to be in my life! There's nothing I can do about it!" I yell. I really don't know what he wants from me anymore.
"Then marry me! He doesn't have to be in our lives anymore." He caressing my cheek with his thumb.
"I-I can't." I say releasing more tears than before.
"Why the hell not!" He yells in my face.
"I'm 18 Louis! I'm not ready to get married! That's why the hell not!" I argue back.
"You're not ready to be a mother either, but what's stopping you?" He spits. I can't take these mood swings. He's not even the one that's pregnant and he's acting like it. I push against his chest, causing him to stumble back.
I put my right hand over my mouth, crying even more; using my left hand I open my bedroom door, and run out, running to Luke's room.
A/N: Gues what's going to happen!
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