Slowly Healing (Sequel to Jerk Theory)

Chapter 28

Little Do You Know - Alex & Sierra

PLEASE READ THE AUTHORS NOTE AT THE BOTTOM!

*Louis' P.O.V.

There's nothing I want more in this world than to be reunited with the one that makes me happy.

That's why I can't go back. I've seen how broken she is. It's heartbreaking know that about six months ago I was going to propose. I had the ring and everything picked out for when she came back.

Stupid me still has the ring, hoping that something inside me will change and want to see her again.

I can't see her.

Yes, I've seen her but I can't see her up close. I can only do it from a distance.

I destroyed my girl.

I was the idiot that broke up with her.

Love conquers all.

I should've stayed and worked things out with her, but I didn't. I ran away from my problems like a coward. I don't deserve her. I doubt she'd even want to be with a coward like me.

Life is like a video game.  The more advanced you get, the harder it gets. You can't quit after losing one life, or even a game over. You have to choose whether to continue where you left off or to start over.

Metaphorically, of course.

No one can actually even start their life over. They can only have new beginnings, and that what this is. A new beginning.

"How many for you today handsome?" The bar tender asks me.

I'm about to answer, but I can't. I can't bring myself to order a drink. "How about a cup of water, please?"

"Coming right up." She says, disappearing to get my cup of water.

This gives me about 15 seconds all to myself before she comes back and starts asking questions.

"Okay, so who is she."

"Why are you assuming there's a she?"

"I see guys like you walk in here everyday. You're new in town, or visiting. I can tell because the words heart break are written all over your face. Guys like you don't come to a bar without the intention of drinking.

"You stopped for her. You thought she was the one, but she left town and cheated on you. You change your thought on love just for this girl. You knew it was a risk giving her your whole heart, but a was a risk you were willing to take.

"Now here you are broken and destroyed. You couldn't take the pain anymore so you left town, with the first girl that threw herself at you." The bar tender finished.

"Listen lady, you don't know me. You don't know my story. So why don't you hop off my case, and give me a drink. I'm tired of everyone's pity I just came here to get my mind off things, and maybe have a few drinks, not tell people my problems." I tell the bar tender off, because quite frankly she's annoying as hell with her, I'm a bar tender I know everything attitude.

If I wanted to talk about my problems I would go to a therapist.

Why does everyone think I'm a lost cause now that Alyssa's of my life?

I haven't done anything since I left 4 months ago.

I just needed out of that environment. I needed a getaway. Yes, I took the first girl that threw herself at me with me, but I have no idea where she is now. She left after I refused sex from her.

The only girl I want to have sex with it Alyssa.

I'm not completely out of the loop on anything Alyssa related. I know she had her baby two weeks ago.

I get all my information from my sister. She tells me how broke Alyssa is without me.

I have read every message, even the ones from Alyssa.

I just never reply.

Replying could imply things that I'm not even ready to put out there.

Things like me wanting to stay in contact with everyone, me possibly going back.

I just want to come and go as I please. I go back every month, mainly to see Harry, Liam, Zayn, and Niall, but I will still stop by and watch how my family, and the girl I'm madly in love with are doing in my absence.

From what I've seen, they've been doing fine. But I know everyone is putting on a brave face.

My phone buzzed, and I reach into my pocket to grab it.

There's a text from Makenna waiting for me read.

Louis, please come home! I need my big brother. I hate my life without you! I don't feel safe in my sleep anymore. What if dad comes back or I have another one of my nightmare? - Makenna❤

This text really broke my heart. Maybe I should go back, I mean my family does need me. I just don't know if I can.

What should I do?

A/N: Holy Balls it's been 5ever since I've updated.

I really don't have an excuse for it other than I was too lazy. I've been out of school for a week now, and I've been to lazy to update.

ONE THE BRIGHT SIDE! THINGS ARE LOOKING UP FOR ME IN BOY LAND! Like I have boy of my own! Okay... That sounds really weird. But since I live in Florida, him and I went to Disney together with my family, and it was just perfect. And we are actually the cutest. And I could ramble on about us for ever. Ask anyone.

This chapter is different I guess. Because its been so long since my last update I basically forgot which direction I wanted to take this chapter. ((Definitely not the direction Zayn went... Is it still to early to joke about his departure from us?)) I just started writing until I couldn't anymore.

Chapter Questions:
1. How do I get more likes on my pictures on instagram?

2. How do I make more internet friends, or get to know you guys more because I feel like I'm talking to myself 99% of the time?

3. WHATS THE WORST THING YOU'VE DONE IN YOUR LIFE?

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