The Days Of Old - {Erwin Smith X Reader}

Chapter 7 - pushing the buttons of professionalism

I groaned waking up Monday morning, my hangover now being fully gone but I still wasn't ready to be waking up so early again, I swung myself upright and out of bed, Ymir still being in bed I got myself dressed in baggy blue mom jeans with jagged rips in them, a white turtleneck with a green and turquoise patterned jumper on-top, I rolled up the ends of my jeans and slipped on my boots before sitting down and doing my hair and makeup, I brushed my (hair colour) hair and just kept it down falling onto my shoulders, I put on a little bit of extra makeup now being used to applying makeup with the cast on.
"God you really look you major in history with that ugly jumper on" Ymir sat up and scoffed, I rolled my eyes and chuckled putting in my earrings before standing up putting my bag on my back, don't think I'd be taking fashion advice from Ymir "you wear the same shit every day, sue me for having a variety" I smirked and walked out of the dorms, making my way to the cafe on campus getting myself a coffee and a sandwich before getting to class, I got there early as usual to set up my books and have a second to eat my sandwich.
I walked into class seeing it empty as I took my seat and ate my sandwich while preparing my books and now pulling out my laptop to take notes, I could see Erwins shadow from the reflection of my screen "Morning Mr.Smith, you've crippled me so now I gotta use a laptop for notes instead of my book" I chuckled only to have him walk past me not acknowledging me at all, I suspected he was having a bad day so I didn't want to pry, but with what happened Friday night I felt like I had to say something. "That hot chocolate you made was amazing, if things go tits up with being a history teacher nothing stops you from opening up a cafe" I tried making conversation just to have him blank me again, the fuck is his problem he could've just humoured me and at least let out a little chuckle.
I grit my teeth and stuck my headphones in taking the hint, I continued taking notes as Eren and the rest of the class filed in, Eren this time sitting next to me instead of behind me "what do you think you're doing?" I raised my eyebrow as Eren leant back in his chair, a smirk plastered upon it as he leant forward to my ear whispering lowly
"Wanna keep an eye on you so you don't pounce on Mr.Smith like a dog in heat" Eren leant back away and smirked, with Erwin ignoring me ontop of Eren's ignorance I grit my teeth and elbowed him in the face "Call me a dog and I'll break your fucking nose" I growled and put my other headphone in, the class didn't officially start yet so I decided on listening to some music before it began.
I continued making notes until I felt my name being called, I looked up and took out my headphones "Miss.(l/n), I'd appreciate if you don't listen to music in my class" Erwin spoke sharply, was never directed towards me before so it felt different. This guy had nothing but the fucking audacity, to ignore me then try and tell me off for listening to music before the class even started, I put my headphones in my bag after pausing my music.
The class itself was terrible, he went out of his way to avoid choosing me when needing answers to his questions, Ignoring me is one thing but avoiding me even in class it's now affecting my work ethic, being distracted from my work to just be angry at him, hard to be pissed at him when he's still attractive.
Fucking Nordic god.

2 weeks went by and Erwin was still avoiding me, it was getting on my nerves now, it was like at a flip of a coin we went from being close to being worse than strangers, I didn't have it in me to hate him but I was furious at him. I was first in class as usual, everyday I found myself still trying to make conversation with him, I looked desperate.
Erwin finally came into class, I took a deep breath and tried again keeping my eyes on my screen "Not that you're going to respond but I thought I'd tell you I got a new book on constellations, they have a double page spread of Cyngus in a lot more depth" I sighed and looked up at him, still no response he acted like I didn't even say anything, I couldn't lie but it felt like a sting in my chest. I bit onto my lower lip and shut my laptop screen, staring directly at him now feeling myself go over a limit "What is your problem? That Friday night you treated me like equals, Saturday morning you made me that hot chocolate and you helped me get out of my hangover but since then you've ignored my existence" I couldn't help but let out a chuckle trying to subside my anger, not wanting to raise my voice as he still is a authority's figure "It's like I don't exist to you anymore, you can't reference Cyngus to us then ditch me, and to think I thought you were actually a gentleman-" I felt myself beginning to ramble, Erwin kept his eyes on his desk refusing to look at me, I grit my teeth as he tried speaking over me "(y/n).." He softly spoke, I leant forward in my desk and let out my anger "-But you're acting like every wanker in this uni, so much for being like a god" I felt instant regret, I just called an authority figure a wanker. I wasn't lying when I said it to be honest, he's been such an asshole recently.
"(Y/n)! Can we speak about this after class?" Erwin finally looked at me for the first time in weeks, I slumped back in my chair and crossed my arms. He looked like he hadn't slept for the past few days, I chewed on the bottom of my lip as he refused to look away from me, I sighed and nodded, I felt horrible for calling him a wanker but I'm not sorry for it.

Class finally ended and I stayed after while everyone left, Erwin walked up to the door locking it before sitting next to me, I looked down at my hands as he placed his cold hand on-top of mine "I'm sorry for being a um, like you said 'wanker' for the past two weeks, I just-" Erwin went on to apologise before I cut him off, I didn't want to be rude but I couldn't have him disrespect me directly like that "Yeah you should be, do you have any idea how that felt? You went from being so nice to me to just ignore my existence. Why." I turned to face him as he itched onto the back of his neck, even looking pathetic he was still as handsome as ever, a lump formed in my throat as his grasp on my hand tightened "I didn't want you to get expelled, you can't lie the relationship we have is inappropriate but I realised these past 2 weeks that I missed you, I missed our conversations about nothing and everything, I missed seeing your smile and hearing your laugh." Erwin rambled on, his reasoning made sense and I couldn't blame him, he was doing all of this for me, I felt my eye twitch as I bit into my bottom lip ripping off a bit of skin, I felt the copper taste in my mouth as he continued to ramble, his words were poetic and I felt them dance around us.
I gripped onto his hand as he paused "(y/n) I never wanted to hurt you, I thought what I was doing was right but I'd rather take the risk than torture you" my breath hitched as we were inches apart, half of me wanted to get up and leave and the other half wanted to throw myself at him, knowing I couldn't have him made me want him more.
"I'll quiet Eren down, he won't make anymore jokes I'll make sure of it." I looked up at Erwin, a smile spread across his face as he softly pecked my cheek, we were definitely pushing the buttons of professionalism and from now I could feel it was definitely getting close to be too deep to go back.
I didn't want to go back and neither did he.