Havoc

Its never easy with you

|Ella's POV|

Once Luke and I made it back to the campsite, everyone was bombarding me with questions.

I'm not in the mood to fucking answer people's dumb ass questions. I left for a reason, I'm back for a reason, reasons you don't need to fucking know. Like there all my mates and were all close but sometimes I need to keep things to myself for a while. None of the girls know about Austin, I just never got around to telling them, but now that he's been brought up again I have the urge that it's better if they know, I'm just afraid of what comes next. As always.

I ignore everyone and walk straight up to the cabin, also ignoring Calum's presence.

Once in my room, I plummet myself into the bed laying on my stomach, closing my eyes before they are briefly shooting open due to his voice.

"Babe" he speaks itching closer as he sits on the bed placing his hand on my back. "Did you talk to Luke?"

"Obviously Calum" I breathe. I know for a god damn fact that Calum knows about Austin. I also know that he knew what Luke knew. "I know that you know about Austin"

"I was going to tell yo-"

"That's the thing cal" I laugh getting up quickly and staring straight into his deep brown orbs. "You were going to tell me, just like you were going to tell me about Ashton. While we're at it, is there anything els your keeping from me? Maybe I have another sister? Or even better, a new boyfriend, because the one I have know fucking lies and keeps shit from me!" I shrug smirking at him, hopefully pushing my point across.

"Ell, come on"

"No cal, you come on. How many fucking times are we going to sit here and argue about the same fucking thing?" I reply drawing out the last two words. "It's ridiculous, I say over and Over again that a relationship is nothing when it's based on lies! And that's all you fucking do. I'm so done with being treated like this, I've done-no such possible crime that could give me so much displeasure! Like what the actual fuck goes through your brain when you know something I should? Enlighten me please" I add shaking head, again dumbfounded.

"I've fucking told you the reason already, to stop you from hurting!" He raises his voice.

"Look where that's fucking gotten us! You not telling me about Ashton tore me apart, so why didn't you tell me about Austin then?! You saw the outcome that had on me, what made you think the Situation with Austin would be any different!?" I yell getting up feeling a little light headed.

"I thought it wouldn't be a big deal because Austin isn't apart of your life like Ash is! Jesus Ella, it's like we can't even have a proper conversation anymore, is just fighting. You need to wake up and realise the world is a fucked place, the people that live on it are even more fucked up! Im sorry for not telling you about your 'precious' fucking friend but my dad even said I shouldn't tell you!" He yells standing up and walking over to me. "I was worried I would hurt you even more by telling you so I asked my dad what to do! I do fucking care about you and I only try and do what I think is right!"

"It's common fucking sense Calum, you shouldn't need to go and ask your daddy what to fucking do! It wasn't even a hard situation to work out, you should have fucking told me instead of keeping this from me." I blare looking away from his strong gaze.

"Well I'm so sorry, that I liked seeing you happy, that I enjoyed seeing you smile! I didn't want to just take away your happiness and replace it with more pain" he pauses, scratching the back of his neck. "It's just ever easy with you" He sighs sitting on the bed again.

I bite down on my bottom lip. "It seems to be a habit of yours. Not telling me stuff to keep me happy" I close my eyes imagining my mum was here hugging me, telling me it's ok.