Havoc

Friends or nah?

Alright so I haven't updated in ages. Soz. I can't explain the frustration I have when I try to type and the screen starts having a fit. I seriously will try my hardest to update sooner but it's just so hard. It's taken me 6 minutes to type a 1 minute text -.-

But anyway, hope you enjoy this chapter and yeah...

Hahaha just this picture at the top doh- it's so funny 😂 <> proceed....

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You never truly understand what you have until it's gone. When I think about this, I think about how I never accepted my dad's drinking problem, or my mother's knitting hobby. I thought it was weird for her and as for dad, I didn't really have a say, Indiana and I always told him it would kill him and I always think about the alcohol and if he had stopped drinking could he have made it? Could he still be alive if his body was healthy? But I try not to think about it too much, it just makes me feel disgusted that somehow my father could still be here if he stopped his addiction.

It's 7:12 am.

I'm currently sitting in morning traffic as I drive down the normal roads to school. I look out the window and see so many happy faces and smiling kids, I can't help but wish I was like that, smiling and happy, I just wish I wasn't such a depressed person. I know my parents aren't coming back but it still hurts, I need to get over it really, that's the nicest way to put it, my depression is clogging my mind and I can't see the good anymore. I need to see it and I need to feel it again. If I only knew how.

Arriving at school and I can already see Taliah and Brooke waiting for me. I step out of my car grabbing my bag and phone, locking it up as I walk towards the girls. You know how in the cliche movies or books the high school has those associated cliques... Well this, isn't one of those movies or books, my school is pretty mixed I guess, the Jocks don't always hang out with the cheerleaders. People have groups though, like with your friends, so for instance Taliah, Brooke and I are in a group, it's pretty much considered just us. That's all we need really, but we have been considering a new chic, she's sweet and blonde, but defiantly not dumb.

"Hey guys" I say as I hug them both.

"Hey, you look exhausted, how much sleep did you get?" Brooke asks. Well now you think of it. Not. Much. The neighbours dog keeps barking like a bitch and I'm up thinking about shit anyway...

"Enough" I answer with a smile. She nods and the bell rings for class to begin, lucky for me the girls are in my two first classes. As we head to geography with Mr. Douglas, Taliah and brooke start a conversation about there history assignment that's due at the end of this week.

"Oh, Ella, I forgot to ask... Where is Indiana staying? I heard you moved to the estate down in Marway." Brooke asks with a small smile.

"Uh, she's with aunt Cole." I say as I see Cadence and Stephan arguing by the lockers, her eye catches mine, I look away and roll my eyes, you remember when I told you about my BESTFRIEND and BOYFRIEND? yeah well that's them, there so... Stupid? Did they really think that they would work? There like polar opposites Cadence is a fancy posh bitch and Stephan is a "let's go to macca's" date kinda guy. But I went for him so no harm done right? Wrong. He's a complete douche bag, he's literally the stupidest guy ever. I don't understand what I saw in him and I don't know what Cadence see's in him but I wish them the best of luck.

As I'm totally in my own world I didn't realise Taliah was speaking to me.

"Huh?" I ask completely clueless.

"I said, Calum keeps looking at us." She replies clearly amused by the fact I don't like him. At all.

"Who cares, keep walking" I state trying to push past a group of guys standing in the middle of the path.