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Its a needed night

|Ella's POV|

When I got home from Luke's place I laid straight on my bed and as soon as my head touched that pillow I was almost fucking out!

Nothing had happened really, we got there Luke snickered at the sight of me (the usual) we talked, we played video games-I beat Ashton in like all of them- and ate a lot of food, I would say i definitely had fun, Calum made sure of it.

Calum.

I dare to say that I'm beginning to accept the fact that he's making an effort. He actually does want to be mates and I'm kind of making it hard for him. I am doing it on purpose because I don't want to get hurt...-again-
But something just tells me, he wants this, I think he owes it to himself to try for my forgiveness.

I wonder if he has been regretting it?
Or maybe he just doesn't want enemies?
Maybe he's doing it to be a dick and he'll eventually hurt me again? I don't know. But I'll never find out if I don't let him.

I run downstairs, grab a bowl of cereal, and sit on the couch turning on some cartoons.

Is Luke making him do it?
All these questions in my mind that I need to be answered but I cant just ask him. What if he thinks I'm like- I don't know - weird or actually distort? I'll ask him eventually...hopefully, but for now I need to just relax.

Wait, when did I care what Calum Hood thought of me? Who cares what he thinks, he is a friend, fucking if that.

I need to get my shit together.

My phone starts vibrating on the kitchen counter and I race to the kitchen.

"Hello?" I answer.

"Sweetie hi, it's aunt Cole"

"Oh hey, what's up?" I ask, why is she calling? I hope every things okay. I hope indie is alright.

"Is indie alright!?" I beam through the mic before she could answer.

"Honey calm down she's fine, I have a date this weekend and I was wondering if you could drop indie off at the babysitters?" Aunt Cole asks through the speaker.

"Why can't I babysit her?" I ask again.

"Well I thought you were busy, so I didn't ask" she replies.

"How would you know I'm busy if you didn't ask?"

"Look, your a teenager who lives alone, you party. So i thought you were busy okay?"

"So because I'm a teenager, I'm busy partying?" I ask once more. This conversation is actually heading nowhere for either of us.

"Ella. Do you want to babysit indie?" She asks back.

"No, I'm busy." I state to be a bitch. She stays silent and I'm first to speak up.
"Look I understand if you don't think I'm mature enough to look after her, but I feel like you don't even put me into consideration anymore...since I moved out." I also state. And it's the complete truth. She hasn't really contacted me since, if she has it as briefly while at work to check up on me occasionally.

"Ella please, don't think like that okay, I don't want you thinking just because I'm not legally aloud to take care of you That I don't. I do. I give you money every month, for living purposes to help out"

"Don't get me wrong that's great, thank you. But I feel like you don't believe you can trust me. Just because you can't physically see me every morning and afternoon doesn't mean I'm going down a bad path? It means I'm being independent and figuring out who I am, without pressure. When I was living with you I felt like I had to live up to your expectations, to do something great with my life like you. Until I figure out who I am, I'm not going to amount to anything." I finish by sighing before I continue. "I will drop her off, just send me the address and what time" I say in almost a whisper.

"I-i didn't know that's how you felt Ella" she sighed, clearly taken back by my statement.

"That's because you never asked..."

"I know times are tough, and your probably right about figuring out who you are, but don't forget about what your parents wanted you to be." She says before bidding her goodbyes and hanging up the phone.

A minute goes by when I get the details on the address and time and without fail I'm stuck sitting at my kitchen bench reminiscing once again.

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"Hey, I would like to order a meat supreme pizza with extra meat...a vegetarian supreme and an extra cheesy pepperoni please." I reply once I have found the correct pizza for the occasion. And if you are wondering what the occasion is, it's Brooke's birthday so, where having a girls night in with pizza, Disney movies, ice-cream and candy! And it's a well deserved night for my success in assignments, I can so do with this night off.

I run upstairs to my bedroom and decide what PJ's to wear. I grab them and head to the bathroom, pizza will be here in 20 minutes...so that leaves me with at least an eight minute shower because the girls will be here.

I strip off and place my towel and clothes in the rack as I step into the shower and turn the taps.

I let the hot water run down my silky skin. Let it wash away the worries for a few minutes while I enjoy the free time. I close my eyes as the water seeps down, managing to just make things disappear so quickly. The sounds around me of the city cars and horns are all drowned out and the water trickling onto the tiles is all that is heard. As my mind slowly shuts down, I can feel my body loosening up as I let everything just release into the universe and leave me at peace.
Grabbing the purple lavender soap and letting the smell strike my sense sending a wave of calm throughout.

I turn the Taps off once I've completely fulfilled my duties in order to get clean. Once dried and dressed I look at the clock. I hadn't realised I had been in he shower for fifteen minutes.

I walk down stairs to see the girls patiently waiting for me with the pizza, candy and movies.

"Happy birthday Brooke!" I scream as they both Jump with fright.

"Fuck!" They both yell with fright.

"It's just Ella" Taliah laughs holding a hand over her fragile fatigue body.

I sit down and Tals Puts the first movie of the night in.

Hearing the girls talk so calmly and to just laugh along with them brings joy to my life. These girls are why I haven't crumbled into pieces. But if I did. I know they would be there with glue, sticky tape and blue tack to put my pieces back together.

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