Havoc

Ashton

Okay so I was writing this and listening to music and thought 'hey these songs go great for this chapter' so I'm going to put them in. :D

Sam smith
> Leave your lover
> Stay with me
> I've told you now

Demi Lovato
>nightingale

Enjoy :3333
<3 x

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|Ella's POV|

I'm sitting on the couch waiting for Ashton.

My train of thought keeps getting off track because my mind decides to take random detours and think about Calum.

Ashton and Calum are friends, and Calum told Ashton to tell me but did Calum tell Ashton about me? Like our relationship thing? Does he hate the idea? Wait, he doesn't get a say! He totally screwed me over and didn't tell me something that was personal to our own family! I don't care if he hates the idea or not, quite frankly I hope he hates it, so I can rub it in his face that he can't do anything about it. Wait, yes i do care what he thinks, despite everything Ashton is my brother... And I need to accept that. He might of been a compete dick and not told me but I know now so I just have to see it from his point of view. If I can.

I'm bright out of thoughts again due to the soft Knocks coming from the door.

I walk over taking a deep breathe, I hope this shit goes goes down well.

When I open the door Ashton is standing there already looking at me, I stare until he suddenly walks over and hugs me. It takes me a few seconds but I awkwardly hug back.

"I miss you" he whispers into my hair.

"Yeah, I know...I miss you too but can we please just get this over and done with" I almost plead, the hug was awkward enough so now when he pulls away I can't bare to look at his pout. "Come in"

He closes the door and trails behind me. We take a seat opposite of each other.

"How long are you going to be mad at me?" He asks softly. When I look up his eyes are bursting with hope and desperation.

"I don't know Ashton" I answer looking at the ground. "I'm just...I don't know, I'm mad at you, and I can't get over it"

"It's been like a month" he whines "you said you wanted to talk, so talk Ella, what els could you possibly want to know?"

"Don't you dare act like I'm the bad guy Ashton, you kept this fucking secret from me for years! Years! I am not going to forgive you in a months time!"

"I have already told you I'm sorry! How many more times do I need to tell you before you fucking understand!? I didn't tell you because it was going to hurt you, I thought maybe you would understand more when you were older!." He yells "guess I was wrong." He stifled a frustrated laugh and raked a hand through his hair.

"Are you kidding!? It isn't my fault that were arguing Ashton, it's yours! You had no right to keep it from me! I don't understand what you were trying to accomplish by not telling me my mum was your mum! That's fucking huge! Your an inconsiderate asshole! You fucking dick!" I yell and sigh raking a hand through my hair.

"We need to stop yelling. You said you wanted to talk...this isn't talking" he rolls his eyes.

"Oh no shit." I say sarcastically "I invited you over so we can get past this, but it's clear your not mature enough"

"Seriously? You just said I wasn't mature, a mature person wouldn't point that out Ella, so it's clear both of us aren't mature because I'm pointing out that you aren't either" he huffs.

I look at him with a grimace on my face as he does the same. I roll my eyes and put my head in my hands and sigh.

"We're fighting like siblings" he states.

"We are siblings" I roll my eyes again not that he can see because my head is still in my hands.

"Exactly Ella, just let it go, I have, so should you, it's done and there's nothing we can do, im your brother, your my sister, we have been best fucking friends since birth almost, why are you putting a wedge in that?" He asks moving over to where I'm sitting. I lift my head up and look at him with sad eyes.

"I'm scared." I admit, placing my head in my hands agin not willing to let myself see his reaction to my idiotic response.

"Of what?"

"Of losing you, I don't want to lose you anymore than what I have already, I don't want to lose my brother, but it feels like now that the secrets out, we can't go back to normal, it's just always going to be different and I don't want that, I want everything to slow down, I want things to stop being fucked, I want everything to pause and most of all I want my life back, I'm so fucked up and I can't deal anymore, the only thing that gets my by is Calum and even then I'm scared I'll lose him, I've lost my mum, my dad, I lost my bestfriend who turns out is my brother and scared, Ashton, I'm terrified" I really fast, trying to get it all out without crying. "I really don't want to lose anyone anymore, I just want them to stick around and be here, I'll be fine as long as they're here with me" I start to sniffle still holding back the tears.

"Look at me" he says and lifts my chin-up so I'm Looking at him. "Just because things are different doesn't mean there worse, this sibling thing could be great, but if you think for one second that you have lost me and that I'm going anywhere, think again El, I'm here and I'm staying, I'm sticking with you. But you have to give it a chance, I'm going to try, are you?" He removes his hand from my chin and rests it on my shoulder. I let my tears slide down my cheeks.

"You promise you'll stay, and you won't leave?" I say wiping a stray tear.

"I pinkie promise" he says holding his pinkie out waiting for the shake.

I place my pinkie in with his and shake it.

"I'll try, I want to be here for you, like before and better than that, it will work, we just need to wait" I say resting my head on his shoulder.

"Ash?" I whisper.

"Mmm?" He mumbles stroking his fingers through my hair.

"It might be too soon, probably is, but can you move in? I want you to be here, and I would love to see you everyday"

"I would love too"

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Okay, chapter done, I don't know if I like this chapter but, I don't know we will see...

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