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Shittest Night EVER

|Ella's POV|

It's currently 10:30pm and I'm sitting at the kitchen bench thinking about dad, I'm visiting his grave today. With everything that's going on, Ashton, Calum, not seeing Indiana for a whole of two months, I was going insane.

I grab my car keys and started towards the door.

On my way to the cemetery i only thought about One thing.

My life.

What am I becoming? What am I doing with my life? For fuck sakes my little sister used to be my everything, and now I never speak to her. What is happening to myself, I'm just letting go and doing nothing.

What will happen to me?

Walking towards my fathers grave, I sit down once again, cross legged in front of him. Lowering my head in defeat and exhaustion.

"Hey dad" I smile. "I'm sorry I haven't been to see you lately, I have had a wild life these last months, and by wild I mean totally pointless." I laugh shaking my head.

"I heard about Mum and Ashton's dad's affair. I'm so sorry she did that to you dad, I wish I knew what was happening back then, all the screaming and arguing, I thought it was just a phase...I was wrong. I could have helped you. I could have spoken to mum and tried to sort it all out for you. Why didn't you come talk to me? Tell me what was troubling you guys? I'm your daughter, I think I deserved to know that my parents were going through such horror!" I begin crying. I'm such a fucking pussy. "I'm sick of people lying to me dad, ASHTON was my bestfriend! And he lied to me...my whole childhood and even my teen years! Fucking hell! I'm tired and I can't even begin to tell you about what
I'm Going to do. Because I DONT KNOW." I sigh "I'm scared, I wish I had you to talk to and give me advice dad, you were always good at that, I miss you everyday, and everyday I struggle I miss you more because I remember your not here to comfort me. What am I going to do without you dad? I'm struggling so much. It's not about the money, I don't want it if I can't share it with you, I always thought I was going to be able to pay your mortgage for you as a surprise" I admit laughing while I wiped my soft, warm tears "I always wanted to throw you a surprise party. I mostly wanted my kids to be able to meet you, you were my hero dad and now my kids won't be able to know you. I'm sure they would of loved to meet you...and don't worry, I'll bring them here once I have them, but that's a while from now. I just find it hard knowing you won't ever meet them, or mum. I miss her too. I miss her so much, some things I need from her I can't get, like that Mother-daughter talk when I'm upset or her homemade roasts. They always Made me feel better" I smile softly and take a breather. I rub my eyes and stare at my fathers stone. "Remember that time we walked to Sophie's house for lunch? And I fell in the gutter and you laughed and than slipped too?" I laugh hard at the memory "my god dad that was the funniest thing I can remember us doing, you literally cried of laughter" I smile once more shaking head and stifle a small giggle "thank you, for being my bestfriend dad, I love you, I'll be back soon okay?" I say and stand to my feet kissing my hand and placing it on his stone letting it linger for a while before I head towards my car once again.

On my way home my phone starts ringing in my pocket.

"Hello?" I answer groggily.

"Hey Ella, I'm going on a double date with Harry,Brooke and Zayn, I was hoping you would come with us?" Taliah's voice booms happily through the speaker.

"When?"

"Tomorrow night babe, please come, it would be so fun for us all to go out don't you think?" She asks even more excited.

"Yeah, I'll find someone" I say and turn the corner to house.

"Oh, well I have someone for you already" she answers and I roll my eyes.

"Of course you do, who is it 'T'?" I ask sighing.

"You'll see, just wear something comfy yet Hot, okay!" She squeals and I pull my ear away from the phone.

"What time?" I whine. Not looking forward to it one bit.

Shit. I still have to speak to Ashton.
Argh.

"6:30, were all meeting at Starbucks and we'll go from there" she replies and I can't hear the smile on her voice.

"Okay, I'll see you than" I answer and hang up the phone as I have already pulled up to my house.

Well. I have a date tomorrow. Yay. Bet she set me up with a God damn dick.

I walk inside and there's a note on my floor, someone must have slid it in through the bottom.

Ella

I'm sorry that I upset you, but you really need to understand I did it for your own good. The only reason you didn't find out was because I knew you were going to be mad, frustrated and upset, not only with me, your mother and my father but i know you. You will be angry at the world, and that's why I didn't want to tell you, and honestly, I wasn't planning on telling you right now but Calum Told me it was time. Don't make plans for Tomorrow night, I have movie tickets and reservations for Mirriago Grande.

Love always-

Ashton x

Wait...Calum told him it was time to tell me? What the fuck, Calum knew!?

I grab my phone and dial Calum's number...it rings twice before he answers.

"Hey Ella what-"

"You fucking knew Ashton was my brother?!" I instantly yell before he finishes.

"Look I'll come over and we can tal-"

"No! I don't want you to come over and talk to me, how dare you keep something this serious from me Calum! All this time you were comforting me and telling me he did it for me and you knew!" I tell once more "you had no right to keep it from me, neither of you did!"

"Ella, I'm not talking to you about this on the phone, I'm coming over and if you don't let me in, you'll never know why I kept it from You." He says and hangs up the phone.

I throw it and immediatly grab the lamp on the small stand next to the door and throw it against the wall...one lamp led to the small table next to the door and than the kitchen stool, and before I knew It I was throwing anything I could...

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