Havoc

Grieving stage

Characters:

Ashley Benson as Ella Adams

This 'Tall as fuck, Tan, Sexy piece of ass' as Calum

Madisosn Leisle as Indiana Adams

Luke as himself

Ashton as himself

Michael as himself

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|Ella's POV|

*It was February 14th valentines day. The roses came but they took you away, tattoo'd on my arm is a charm to disarm all the harm, got to keep my self calm but the truth is your gone*

I sang as they lowered my father into the hole that secured his rest for all eternity. I started to tear up and quickly recovered, I had to be brave, I had to show Indie that I can do this, I need to be someone els for her.

She looks at me and gives me a small smile, it's not much but any sign of affection will do, she as been so distant lately, I'll take what I can get.

"Two weeks ago, today. Someone dearly loved by many, was taken to the gods above, I don't hate them for taking him, I thank them, for now I am sure that such a great man will always be happy. From this moment on I won't cry over the pain, I'll laugh at the memories and smile at pictures. That man wasn't good he was great, that man was hopeful, he was inspirational, he as many things but he wasn't a bad man." I say letting a small tear fall " I love you dad. Even though your gone, I know your still here, never forget"

An hour went by with people saying speeches and throwing white roses into the pit. It's indies turn. She looks at me for reassurance, I smile and nod. She walks up and takes a long deep breath.

"Hey dad" she starts "El told me that you liked 'sons of Anarchy' so I-I went and brought this with my first pay check" she gives a slight chuckle and bends down to place the DVD set into the pit. " okay where do I start, well, I remember when we were playing cricket and you hit the ball and it hit my face, "she laughed "I cried for ages, you felt so bad and bought me a new phone and pizza for two weeks straight, you tucked me in every night since then, to this day you would still be doing it" She tears up and continues "this goes to show what kind of man you really Are. We had a fight before you passed, I felt bad because I told you I hated you" she starts to cry and almost historically, I get up and Walk over to her.

"You alright, you don't have to finish" I say.

"No it's okay, I need to get this off my chest" she breathes. I agree and stay by her side and rub her back waiting for her to continue.

"I said I hated you and wished you would die, because you wouldn't let me go to a party." She shakes her head. "I know it was wrong and-and dad I'm so sorry, it may not matter that I say it now, but it's a load off my chest, I may not have said it often but I-I love you, and I can't picture the days where i have kids and you won't see them or hear what their first words are or see them grow up into fine adults. I'm so sorry that I said the things I said, I didn't mean any of it, I'm not just saying it now, because-because your gone, I'm saying it because I need too, I need you to hear me when I say I'm sorry. I need you to understand, dad that I love you, and I'll miss you more than anyone can ever understand. I wrote this note here in my hand for no one but my dad." She says and pulls a note from her drench coat pocket, and places it in a glass bottle and then puts that in the pit as well.

"You did good babe" I say and kiss her cheek "you really did, mum and dad would be real proud of you" I say and direct her to our seats.

The rest of the ceremony goes by rather quick, everyone is now saying their final goodbyes as they leave the graveyard and head home to grieve.

I'm last to leave, indie left with Aunty Cole, so I could drive home and think alone. I walk to dads grave and sit down in front of it, the dirt is now placed over it. I grab a note out of my pocket and start to read it.

"I found this note in mums box of stuff she had left for me, it's for you. And I thought it might be best if you heard it when everyone was gone. So here it is..." another deep breathe and I begin.

"Hey Brad,

You obviously know by now that I'm gone, I wrote this letter on my death bed so you could be the one that had my last thoughts on paper, I gave the letter to Ella because I knew she would keep it safe until she knew it was time for you to have it. Obviously that time is now if your reading it, I wanted to say that no matter what position your in, I'm always there with you, don't ever think that because I'm not physically there, means that I'm not there, spirit and soul will forever be trapped in your heart, you captured my heart the moment you smiled at me in gym class. You were all I was thinking about on my last breathes, well you and the kids, I want you to make a promise that you will forever protect my girls from anyone that tries to harm them or anything. I trust you to make the amends that i Couldn't. At this time Ella is 15 and Indiana is 12, when they grow up into adults you have to be there guardian angel, you make sure that they are safe, and with that promise I can rest in all peace, knowing my babies will be in good hands. Before I go I wanted to also talk about our first kiss, I know it was the most awkward one, but it was the most memorable, remember the oak tree where we met at, you were all like "you look amazing Jenna" I laughed and just sat down, then you sat next to me and we talked about wanting to be with each other, every one of your answers were "I just want to be with you" I loved those words, I never told you this but those exact words were the ones that I needed to hear to know that i wanted you forever and always. You're the love of my life Brad and I will never forget you, I love you honey. Don't ever forget what we had." I finish the letter and wipe all my tears.

"Dad I know you can't hear this but I just, I never got to give you this, I had forgot about it and now it's too late." I say and cry a little more.

"I let mum down her last sentence to me was "don't forget to give this to your father when he needs it most, I love you Ella" and I can't even full fill her last words to me!" I cry harder and I don't even care that my tears won't stop, I need to get it out or it will haunt me until my final days.

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