I didn't do horribly at clinic (correction: I probably did do horribly ngl). The computer died, so my sound tech didn't get to play much sound stuff. I awkwardly hugged the drum major a few times (he was like "are you ready to awkwardly hug?" And I was like "sure!"), blew him a kiss, talked with him (onstage and off), etc. I got no feedback from the clinician because I was merely filling in. He did say I'd be a good actor, tho (correction: he asked if I had acted before, and I said yes, but it had been a very long time and our director mentioned that I did poetry interpretation)....
I was on the verge of tears on the way back, and of course, no one noticed, much less cared. It was physically impossible for me to cry, which has never quite happened to me before. I don't know why I don't fit in when everyone else in one act gets along so well. What am I doing wrong? Why can't I fit in?
Published 02.12.2021.
(P.S.) wardrobe malfunctions are a pain in the (PaRdOn My FrEnCh) ass!!!!
(P.P.S.) the drum major said I did good.
